I truly think I am a lunatic for daring to write this journal entry and make it public. That said, how can I not? I am watching the culture of ‘being’ not ‘doing’ rise in the human psyche. It may look like nothing a certain email not getting out when I thought it had been sent but it is huge in the area of ‘being’. Being is an unknown consciousness cognitively. That means we cannot think in ‘being’. This is why the Creation Templates were sent to me to reset the neural wiring of a human being so that the way thought occurs could be held in the Golden Spiral of ‘being’. This is why the 7 years of work I did to establish a coherent field were Spirals of Being.
Yesterday, with an amazing woman who has fought valiantly for the ‘beingness of education and ‘being of educators’ in a coaching call, she talked about when she was ten she bought these audacious t-shirts that said outrageously funny things on the boardwalk at the beach. How could I not support her in our audacious culture of being if I am unwilling to communicate my audacious culture of being?
I know that it will probably be translated into something else but in these 7 weeks where we as a collective are building matrixes with our consciousness where new futures can rise, how can I not?
[6:06 AM, 9/6/2022] Tantra Maat: boy, after all, I have been through, how much I have stayed present and in unity with what is very clearly mine to do and mine to be, I woke this morning at a loss and so feeling that horrible sinking feeling when you just feel like you can’t take another step and that you may just have to give up. It all happened over an email that did not go out over a week ago like it was supposed to. It may seem like nothing to someone other than me but I am a Time Being. I work in Time and what actions I take are establishing things in time.
I am also a messenger who works in a direct link with Creation getting messages out in time. This is my culture, not my fffing business. All the breakdowns in communication from me and not getting things out in ‘time’ hit me so hard yesterday realizing that it looks like I am moving at the rate of speed that is my cultural design of being with the multiple aspects of creation I work with literally flattened me. …: because without what I need to get sent out and communicated out in ‘time’ and in accuracy is like the spaceship with a broken coil for me. Something fails that feels ‘essential’ in Time.
I love being in the dark this morning before dawn with Ganash, the Prince, Sferi, the mountains, and the colors of my room to hold me.
I truly do not want to get up and face the day with time out of sync with the greater whole of which I am a part. I know it will pass or at least I hope so.
Being in time in our direct link with ourselves, others and Creation right now is so critical right now.