2023.04.07. The Shadow Fold Dream
I did not realize the dream I had last night was so relevant to the now. I thought it was about what I am moving through personally regarding monetary prosperity and the effect on my system and the Field of Tantra Maat and the ripple effect out beyond that into the alliances I and the Field of Tantra Maat are part of – the distortion of the punishment/reward system that we have been imprisoned in especially monetarily and everything attached to that. I think that is why I feel ‘The Forces’ that operate on behalf of Life here are so strong I don’t even want to try to share about it with human beings. We are NOT ALONE in the Universe. There are powers and forces much stronger than any forces that operate against life here because they are part of the original nature of this planet’s beautiful evolutionary design. But for me, I am in a throughline into the next evolutionary patterns of life here. I know the dream came from that.
Every now and then I dream about Lily, my dog, that died a couple of years ago. She is alive and where I am with her is real. She is my Anubis so she protects me and is my guardian in a way that I do not share – the world seems to be so damn people-centric.
I have learned to wake up by choice when I am in our dream world, Lily and I, because if I don’t realize she is not here when I wake up naturally is way too painful and I can’t remember the value of the activity she was in. I have been having imagery lately of The Shadow Fold in Shadow and Bone which is a barrier of Shadow human beings have to get through to get beyond it. In the dream reality, Lily was navigating The Fold, or its equivalent in my dream world, for me. If I got too close like in the series, I could be taken and eaten by the Volcra – Vicious, deformed, winged monsters who inhabit the Shadow Fold and feed on human flesh. Highly sensitive to light, the Volcra were once human before the Darkling created the Shadow Fold. In the series, the Shadow Fold was created around 400 years ago before a Darkling who used Merzost, because of his want for power. However, he did not anticipate what such power of that magnitude would do to mere men, turning them into abominations that would be part of later generations. The Merzost is a corruption of “the making at the heart of the world,” the power of life over death that creates matter out of nothing rather than manipulating existing matter into forms that are part of the Magic that can operate in unity with our evolutionary path or against it but now create something that cannot be easily destroyed without a sufficient power of Light. I am writing all of this because my subconscious was using the series and the story to inform me and help me navigate with Lily, one of my most profound allies. In our Dream World, she was shifting at the edge of The Fold in Time [that was my Dream World] which had caught human beings and other forms and made them monsters. I was terrified for her but she was unconcerned. Even though I knew she could sniff out the edge where we were successful because she was dead and therefore inaccessible to The Fold, my terror of recognizing her as dead caused me to be extremely tender and frightened again to be without her. She again was unconcerned. I got myself together finally because she was showing me how to walk this ‘edge’. This metapoint of extreme darkness devoid of light and the insufficient light that needed to be part of the light and dark of here was what we were walking. The duality operating on behalf of all life here needed to be restored. As is happening so much to me now, I defuse to be part of greater realities…live them to the extent my system can, and then come back into a forming that is happening here in the present moment for me, not 600 years out. Then I seem to integrate and actions occur consistent with the evolutionary power of this planet and her forms…Literally the ability to evolve beyond…systemically. I think that is why when I caused myself to wake when I felt the trauma of the loss of her, it was to not be in the trauma that had me recycle, repeat, over and over again a memory that was actually not part of what Lily and I are now in a greater realm…allies.
What is particularly awesome what that that which loves us gives us the evidence. I was standing at a self-checkout register at Sprouts and a dog began to lick my hand. I looked down and the dog was exactly Lily at her prime. Her eyes were shining. People were everywhere trying to pet her and she was not having it. She only had eyes for me! I stooped down, held her face, and said, “Thank you!” to the shared soul of this dog and my Lily and then I said, “I am so grateful to never have to be without you. Thank you for finding a way!” I looked up and the cashier and the owner were brimming with tears. You see we do know. We do.