2023.08.31. Fear-Intent vs Impact

In preparation for the CreateaWorld YouTube discussion with Dr. Deb on Friday, September 1st at 9 am

It turns out that the RV repair company La Mesa in Albuquerque kept what plugs my RV into the socket outside the house to run it. I have no idea whether they will return it or not.

I have been seeking in conversation with others to get to peace of mind over this over-a-year fiasco [actually even before that] with this RV of mine. I prefer to discover the source of fear and dismantle it into life force energy rather than be at the effect of the fear – it costs me the joy of my day and of life and I’ll not have that – not for me – not for others.

Especially nowadays and in the years to come where so much will be transmuting from trauma into life force energy and we will be part of that no matter what level of society we are in even at the most greedy level.

We are in the return at every level of humanity’s Indomitable Spirit and I and others are at work about that.

I talked to Dr. Deb who talked to me about intent versus impact because I have observed we are all feeling this intense need to protect ourselves against harm. While much is at work in magnificent ways at the societal level about this, I and others are taking it on at the spiritual level.

My daughter works in highly victimized communities that feel helpless in the face of the impact of their being lied to, marginalized, under-resourced, and ignored which is exactly how I feel in the way I am being treated at the RV company. I psychically knew that this kind of consciousness of non-caring of human beings for other human beings would escalate into a global pandemic because the cause is the loss of spirit that kept humanity in touch with each other and, yes, in love with each other and making sure each other’s needs were meet or if now that the compassion for not meeting the needs was apparent.

I noticed I am completely at the effect of my RV $20,000 later still has the same problem that it started with and that the service department simply ignores that and gives me the same answers. I am white [but a woman and old] and I am obviously in the category of privileged and supposedly not marginalized, under-resourced, or ignored (supposedly) – but that is not what I am experiencing. 

I notice and am living the feelings that are there for all of us as our systems fail and do not take human beings into consideration as this company demonstrates –  my go-to is to feel like a victim and my only means with no one who has the power to protect me is threat and wanting to harm and the need to withdraw and hide. I knew that these feelings would begin to penetrate aspects of society that felt safe so in truth I am in the perfect place to be feeling these things. I am completely at the effect of the system right now and for the most part, there are no heroes even though there are those who deeply care about what is happening to me even though it is just an RV that was my home and have tried to help but have no ‘power over’ what is happening to me.

So now I turn to myself not only as an individual but as a member of the human community no matter what different aspects of community might think about me and my right to feel the way I do. It is an exploration of the collective consciousness for me and as a spiritual being what I can do about it is awaken consciousness and awareness because the innate nature of human beings is to care and before I am incinerated at my death I will promote that spiritual ether with everything I have and even after.

I woke this morning after a dream of how I successfully maneuvered myself and others out of an inferno of fire to safety. I used my desire and love for these strangers I was with to guide me. It was an amazing dream and when we got below scaling down cliffs and running across streams that were evaporated by the inferno, we knew we would never be the same. The very terror that drove us mixed with making sure we all made it created an alchemy of existence that was new and would begin to recreate itself in our lives. Keven my granddog woke me to go outdoors and when I went back to bed to get more sleep – a voice said, “I will no longer let my life be managed by fear of harm.” I knew that voice was my deep Spirit awakening in me and I was glad.

Am I still afraid – yes. It is hard to see what has happened to us as human beings that brought these societies of separation into existence, but I will seek out those who are willing to trust again somewhere, hopefully, here with me and we will take on the journey of going through the inferno of separation and find a way down the cliff and through obstacles feeding the joy of our own caring of ourselves and others and having that be the stabilization point through all this.

Thank you if you read this – it feeds the fire of Spirit – our shared Spirit and that is a good thing. Thank you for coming to listen on Friday on our CreateAWorld YouTube. You feed the field of new realites rising as we are in the throes of old ways of being failing.

*Please note the Creation Templates from which the books I have written and am writing transmute trauma into life force energy and give us the power to create new realities independent of the old ones. I will be organizing working with people who are part of new consciousnesses of new futures forming soon. All my love, Tantra”