Spent the day in union with Creation yesterday at Yellowstone.
There is an amazing metareality opening up for human beings now. Yesterday I already had on my calendar to go to Yellowstone…I felt called. Then the fires started in Colorado and California…I know one must get beyond cause and effect and embrace synchronicity. The synchronicity is the timing of unity with Creation. Yesterday was that. With the Mother, on behalf of all life…
I woke up this morning…spent. I let the Transmutative Wholeness WhatsApp Group know
. Then I collapsed back to sleep after having collapsed into the bed at the hotel last night at 7am and had woken up for a moment at 6am just to post my need. Then, I rolled over at 7am and found myself looking up Nevada City Fire. I saw the erratic wind had stopped and the metastate of the metareality I had been in yesterday at Yellowstone with the wind, the vents, and the sulfur lakes came back to me.
I wrote to Transmutative Wholeness again:
“I could be spent from the work I did yesterday. I don’t understand me anymore. I going to metastates like yesterday like I’m part of the Mother wind and mother fire, etc and I don’t quite know what is happening but it feels powerful and real – not me – more part of something we all are now and ‘she’ [from my human perspective] is listening. Me? I am just pretty good at getting her attention more than ever because where I am, some large territory of human being is operating on behalf of life and having life exist as a whole. That’s as close as I can get.
I feel spent like one of those movies where all the life force energy is used on behalf of Life. I just feel like something is happening that has another kind of intelligence for human beings and that the primordial mother and the cosmology of creation are becoming one again.
I did a Facebook live on A Sacred Space for Rest and Courage – a short one – yesterday because I could see registers coming back online.
So it’s not ‘me’ – ‘I’ – centric. Nor is it ‘we’ centric. It is Creation Centric when the powers and forces of creation are alive in unity with human beings who operate on the half of all life.
It was very raw for me at the river yesterday. You can feel the resonance of it better in the Facebook Live I did than here as I am exhausted…spent…weary.
I heard from two people this morning who I have not heard from. This is the way of it…being one with Creation.
…Sending you love. I am still with you. I have been carrying you with me these weeks, sometimes you are inside, sometimes moving through. But nonetheless always with me. I am honored to have you aboard. ?????????????????
…letting you know we are thinking of you….
The right words, the right actions come that get you up again…this is what I have spoken about all these years without human beings being in the evidence of it, but now we are. Oh yes…I know our identities and egos are dysfunctional, but our gut experience isn’t. Those funny feelings that we are more is not lost to us and that we are part of Creation…we have just lost the registers…but we have always been participating. Now it would seem that humanity could be getting their registers back. The very fact I heard from two people who matter to me who I have not heard from and they said what they said we boosted me – as we are all busy as a collective field restoring not only our own but humanity’s relationship with all creation. It is when others pick up on it and register it even though they don’t realize it and reach out that we know something is active.
All my life, I have registered what humanity is awakening into…that original nature of the original design of human beings restoring…little did I realize that when people responded to the Restoring the G.O.D.* matrixes that what would activate is the registers where we ARE part of the G.O.D. matrixes of Creation.
My dog Lily crossed over into the non-physical realms July 31st, 2020 for those of you who do not know. Since she is a being who does not know separation, I entered a journey with others in the Field of Tantra Maat of transcendency. It is my hope to gather together the last few days as an experiential journal for those who are entering into the new futures rising. Below is a journal entry. It is not mine to do to have you understand. I am simply sharing my journal with you.
I woke up this morning and the gripping agony in my chest had elevated to a mild tachycardia. I recognized that when I said there was something to be achieved in the call. I did not realize until it occurred that what was to be achieved was a new higher frequency foundational base – a sustainable and maintainable place for what was occurring to occur with as little shock as possible.
Surrendering into those who have never left me; with Lily transitioning from physical to nonphysical; and the quantum energy that is available now as the multidimensions restore themselves here, we achieved a coherence that stabilized me/us/others in the higher realm[s] where realities of unity exist. [A dog that looks like lily is walking by right now.]
We in the 7 month Creation Project are working in the consciousness that is stabilized in the physical playing field through Template 3. The collective work is achieving a remarkable magic. Remember Template 3 is you generating an operational matrix to bring the quantum realms of what you hold/know/re-member reality to be into the physical realm. There was a result in the call that I want to note here.
When Jim spoke of unity in the beginning, the quantum nature of unity activated. I could feel it. It was as if he had dialed the code or set the field or activated an algorithm. Then when I said there was something to be achieved in the call another code connection between Creation and ourselves activated…there were others that spoke and activations occurred as I could see the lights come on in the quantum field of so above/so below re-establishing not only remembrance but actualizing it. We were the Templates of Creation speaking the language of creation. That level has never occurred collectively until last night at least where I have been present.
Then having Myra and Hisbiscus speaking in the last part of the call who operate consistently in the quantum fields was no accident. Nothing more or less only the synchronic timing of timeless time as everyone on the call was being their direct link with Creation and in their speaking operating on behalf of all life. This is not a mental thinking thing. It is what occurs in the shared unity of a one soul species each having theirs to do, be, have in a synchronic weaving with Creation.
When Myra said the word ‘borderland’, the realm that Jim had called in ‘unity’ and the landscape that was revealed during the call by those sharing, a territory came into being – formed…a borderland….including the border but surrounding it and going beyond it. A coherent, cohesive, congruent unified inclusionary territory of participation was established. Do not concern yourself with understanding or worry that you may not yet have the registers yet…you will.
For the first time I got sleepy at midnight instead of collapsing from exhaustion. I could dream walk again instead of being caught in the debris field between so above and so below since last Friday.
Two days ago, in my work with the reharmonization of my so above/so below system I am doing with Deepak Chari, Jeremy and Lily showed me their light bodies that could regulate into various forms…Lily clearly loved the form she shared with me and that is our meeting place…that etheric form here. They really worked with me to see if this form I recognize myself as could dissolve into the light formlessness which carries so much more dimensionality and capacity but in that session I could not. Experiencing the stuckness of the calcification of energy in my body was brutal the next few days until after the call last night. In my dream walk in the borderland that was evoked as a Timeless Time territory last night, I was shown me a summit in the borderland. If there had been words, the words spoken would have been something like, “You [meaning those passed over, those passing over, and ourselves] will exist together at The Summit.” There were not words and the structure of language in writing this does not lay it out right, but it is as close as I can put in the written word. I will do a Creation Exercise 3 on it to unpack it and give it a place.
I am clear the Creation Project that has showed up in the Restoring the G.O.D. Matrix work. It is upon us with great respect and dignity for our endeavor if the higher realms had those concepts. The G.O.D. Matrix that we are part of restoring is unity – duh!
However, the landscapes we have entered into is where the non-physical realm, the spirit, the eternal is, as it was originally designed to be, transcendent over the physical, flesh, temporal. This means that the loss of Lily and Jeremy and others including ourselves is no more; that our primary is our etheric [non-physical] relationship with all life, our spirit relationship with all life, our eternal relationship with all life – in our multidimensional, multi-intelligent, multi-sensory form here but we go beyond and can include what we are much further than here with the temporality of here no longer being a problem
I am not saying we are embodied there. I am saying everything everyone is saying is showing where we are engaging with the quantum fields and within that much more is occurring in multiple territories you all are engaged in individually and monadically. We are taking territory. We are opened up and sharing the landscapes of multiple territory but those territories carry realities of unity. For me it is no longer being held prisoner in an experience of separation from what and whom I love. That my body, my mind, and my emotions register and are part of a system re-established that carries no capacity for separation.
Be clear. It is not up to us the result. We are informing Creation and the G.O.D.s [the generating organizing design] of creation and we are, in response, being informed. We are using the consciousness of our intelligence to bring back territory as we remember and a Generating Organizing Design of Creation begins to occur where we are standing both collectively and individually.
This is Template 3. Template 3 is not a human exercise. This template carries our consciousness of restoration with a specific algorithum that we are now experiencing. Yes!
I woke up this morning as stated at the beginning of this journal entry. I went upstairs to see Diane, then came downstairs to set up outside here on the porch to write this. When I came out there was a green jellybean. A single green jelly bean on the deck by my chair. When Jeremy was in physical form, his CB radio title was Jelly Bean and mine was River Queen. His favorite color was green. Mine cinnamon. We are all bringing the greater coherence of the unified field into play in this physical territory. I was thinking this morning that the mantra that works well here is:
I have left this journal entry in place as I am clear that we are in a unified field of consciousness wherein what each of us participates in contributes to the many: While this 7-month engagement is presently closed for enrollment, we are all participating in the etheric territory together of our one-soul heart. Read on 🙂
At different times in the last half-century, human consciousness expanded and new work was needed to meet that expansion. This I have done before. Up until January 1st, 2020 I thought there would be more to go to get to where many have an imprint of where we were going during these times. When I did the 100 plus Prophetics at the beginning of the year, it was unmistakable that we were in some kind of arrival. Since then an ‘arrival’ of a new level of consciousness has been present in consults and activations. Now it is our time to secure what has been expanded into by human beings by actualizing their mental mind into quantum layers of consciousness.
“Remembrance or prophecy? …. thought, understood as an alchemical product that distills a human being’s profound ability to create the forms in which he or she lives. Thoughts that form the foundation of an existence that flows on a new current of time, in which every true dreamer is called to become an architect of his or her existence. Because bold imagination is capable of launching visions beyond space and time and is not an escape from a tiring everyday life but the exercise of a human being’s own power in all possible times. ” Excerpt From Falco Tarassaco. “Liber S.”
I have selected three areas. They are not random. They are based on six years of working in sacred labs with a diverse group of people around the globe. Since these areas are not describable by known means, I leave it to your consciousness to inform you of your participation.
The three areas:
The main offering is the Seven Levels of Conscious/Language of Creation [LOC]: the first Saturday of every month through December The 7 Saturdays are designed to support you in imprinting your mind with seven levels of human consciousness that carry your new templates of Being.
The second Saturday of the month is Timeless time also based on a body of work with a group of people that showed me that a new kind of time was active in human consciousness and maturing. There are times in human existence when higher realms of consciousness are interactive with the linear time of human beings. This is one of those times.
The third Saturday of the month is Restructuring Money Matrixes [sp?] also based on what rose in the Spirals of Being in a group project to realign money in unity with life and what has us exist as whole. The 7- month body of work will build on this. We are in times when alignment with what operates on behalf of life is calling many of us. What I have constructed through the years is in support of that and, therefore, timely
This is the greatest service I can give anyone. People are still trying to live in the existing paradigm when there is no future there. People caught in waiting on the outer world to give them their world will be in a great muddle. Contacting that which they are a part of and more than that – carrying the templates that bring these new realities into existence is all I am paying attention to now – especially over the next few months  to be exact.
You can compare the work in the next 7 months as preparation for what is coming that we are designed to be a part of.
Restoring G.O.D. Matrix[es]: Human beings were designed to be one with Creation. The resonance of the truth of this has been lost but it is true none the same. Within each human being is a template of so above/so below whether it is finding a partner, getting well, world peace. The macro/mini the gift of our creation. We are made of the substance of G.O.D. in multiverses of expression. This planet is recognized by Tantra Maat as the Realm of the Primordial Mother that created – a paradise for both the physical and non-physical realms of creation to have a place to be in unity with each other, enjoy Life itself, and share in the multiple expressions of creation here.
Many will continue to move forward in temporal linear time, like fish moving within a river. Others will enter into the quantum mind of the Generating Organizing Designs of Creation of which they are a part having restored their unique and essential aspects of Creation. AND in that restore their expression of those aspects in the immediate time ahead. These Beings are not only awakening into Be Here Now, but also into a Time Quadrant* of It is Now.
The different levels of participation within the Generating Organizing Designs of Creation are stated below.
Patron Participation extends beyond the 7-month Restoring G.O.D. Matrixes
The Patron Work is ongoing. The 7-month work is a part of the Patron ongoing participation with Tantra Maat and their G.O.D.’s of Creation.
The Registration for participation in the present 7-month Engagement with Creation is presently closed. The Avatar Participation is limited to specific engagements i.e. the 7-month Restoring the G.O.D. Matrix project
Monad Participation: Groups of Five Structure for Enrollment
The Registration for participation in the present 7-month Engagement with Creation is presently closed. The Monad Participation is limited to specific engagements i.e. the 7-month Restoring the G.O.D. Matrix project
What I have discovered in doing personal consults and activations since the beginning of 2020 is that human consciousness has shifted into dimensional states of being. You will get to watch new forms rise that will anchor into the limitation of the 3D an a wonderful way.
It is only your perception that has you think you are still operating in 3D. Have you asked yourself why you have a strong will about something but can't seem to figure out the 'how' or 'why' or 'what' of it? Your perception up until now has come from the reality that was dimensionally challenged in a collapsed field that was like a symphony without all of its instruments.
Now your consciousness is beginning to register new realities. The minute now I begin to speak with you, your consciousness forms new receptive capacities of thought and comprehension: your overstressed reaction and response system relaxes; you find yourself having thoughts and comprehensions that organize your actions in new novel unique sense-making ways.
What you may not yet register, but you will over time, is that many human beings are now moving with greater systems of existence - what I call moving with Creation. Overtime in 2020, you will register and recognize yourself' moving with Creation and find yourself actively part of Creation. That is most exciting is you will overtime find your mind will acclimate and be able to perceptively comprehend what you are experiencing but cannot yet find language or comprehension for at this time. You need your mental mind. Your mental mind is the information thread that you use to move in time and space. Your mental mind is evolving now and old habits of thinking are causing trouble now.. some clients' solar plexus reactions becoming overwhelming.
Never has relistening your recordings been so important. Every time you listen, you generate new threads of thought that fit with new realities that you are part of forming. The Activations allow your system to move into a higher octave response-capacity within which dimensional realities exist and that live in our visions and dreams and are what we long for.
The flesh and the mind need to re-sort into higher frequencies and they are attempting to. You need to support that. It is hard to walk around thinking you are somewhere you are not when you actually are somewhere that is new and aligned with what you are forming into.
“I realized that I need to be in Mt Shasta to hear. I need to see if it is time for me to go home or negotiate my staying as part of valid life-enhancing ways. It is not that I know. I have not heard the certainty I hear when I know I know. I don’t know if I’m going home or staying. There are lots of signs that I am at the end of something. Others are too though. While it doesn’t feel like physical death, it might be. Whatever it is, it is a quantum of some kind. I at least need the next right action and the synchronicities that go with them. I don’t know if this is the moment. If the marker has played itself out… I don’t know. I only know I do not live to be redacted only to expand.”
Well, boy did it!
In Shasta, I made peace with my fate so to speak. Just remember Fate is never what we think it is. I successfully got my book, Mind of Creation, in my head to begin to unpack it after I wrote a chapter that absolutely complied with the higher vibrational fields of Creation working with me to bring this book into reality.
I came back to where I was staying with a beloved friend whose dog Izzy is one of my dog Lily’s best buddies. A little white fluffy dog and a taller black sleek furred dog trotting together down the road. What a sight to see! I came back in time to go with a friend to her birthday celebration #2 with friends. I have lived in working environments of consciousness most of my adult life. It is fun to be with friends who are also at work in raising consciousness. She invited us to see A Tribute to Leonard Cohen in Sacramento. We have dinner on a paddleboat. The magic whispered in my ear as we searched for a parking place in the overcrowded river bank and the old buildings that once existed there. “There. Stop there.” Sure enough, there was a car backing out that was right in front of the boardwalk to the paddleboat.
During the Tribute, I cried silently. They let me, which I appreciated it. I was so sad to look at this not being where I should be right now in my life, but I have moved before I have never been disappointed. This felt different. I have moved so often I could not determine what it was until I was driving the birthday girl back to her car. She began to challenge my thinking. She didn’t let up. I do think she was my lieutenant in another lifetime. Something happened in our exchange. Especially when she said, “You need to decide if you want to live here, not us. Everything will rearrange into the right order if you get to your truth.”
I woke up still not knowing if I wanted to stay here. Parts of being here have been so hard. But something was different. It was as if a cloud had passed. I took Lily out for a walk and passed a man working on an old VW camper. My first camper was a 1963 VW Camper. My son Jeremy and I and our dog Cuddles had wandered up and down the east coast in that camper. Even spent the night with Buffet Saint Marie [click here for a song that has carried me through my life’s journey for many years.] who was sleeping under a fishing boat in Maine.
I asked the VW man his name. He said his name was Lance. I had been noticing lately that people’s pasts are coming back in strange and unusual fashions. It was as if we are experiencing the final chapters in events that happened at the beginning of our lives. Two things pinged. One was the camper was like mine only this one was a 1970 VW Camper. And Lance. Lance was my best boy friend when I was under five and lived on East Ravine in Kingsport, Tennessee. Both the camper and Lance had made my life very happy, safe, and secure. Both of these connections had also been followed by tragedy. I had to leave Lance, Susan, Lee, and Zaria, my bestest friends, to move to a ‘better’ section of town where I was miserable, afraid, and not secure. A series of events happened one of which was the camper in the late 1970s. Within a very short period of time, my son, Jeremy, died of unknown causes: I backed over Cuddles, not looking in my need to get to the hospital and killed her: I had restored a property on the Tennessee River for an older friend who was to give me the first right to purchase. He sold the property while I was in the hospital with my son.
This level of synchronicity got my attention.
I told the VW Lance who I was staying with and that I was there because I could not live in my RV. I shared the story you all have heard. First, he talked to me about if I got him the inverter, he could probably fix it or replace it. Then I shared I thought something was wrong with the wiring and that the wiring might have been compromised after being in the shop to have the RV’s warming blankets and screen door put in.
“Well then,” Lance said, “You need to talk to Duke. Let me get you his Facebook page.” Duke University is what saved my life when I was very young. I had had a rare blood disease and they developed a serum to save me. Ping! Of course, I managed to forget the name and look up the wrong Facebook, page but Lance in his roaring engine VW showed up again coming down the road, so we got it straightened out.
I felt that I needed to get hold of Duke before 5 PM. I had a call with my support people who were creating a space for miracles to happen. Before I called them, I wanted to see if perhaps I had my miracle. Jim had already found the man who actually created the wiring for the simplicity road track and he already told us he’s got us parts. That was miraculous. Janice had had a vision after I had had a reading where a very powerful reader had told me not to keep the RV – to get rid of it right away last year.
I called Duke and he called me back. I told him about my situation. He began to share with me that I was under warranty from the dealer but when I told him road track had gone bust, he was stunned. “They have been in business since the 70s!” I told him that Jim had gotten hold of the man who designed the wiring and who could get us schematics and parts. He was thrilled. That is one of the fundamental aspects of magic. Shared field. The next level of wholeness supports everyone in the field. Then he asked, “Where did you buy the RV?” When I told him where I bought the RV, he said. “Oh.” Clearly, he was disappointed at my choice. He had a few choice words and then told me he had been working on Roadtrek Simplicities for over 20 years. He also told me we would video him going through the entire RV so that if anything had happened that messed up the wiring, Jim and I could take it from there.
I realized when I had woken up morning, that if I could stay in the area, the only way I wanted to stay in the area was in my RV. I also want another sanctuary. But if I can’t have that, then I want to stay in my RV. Not only did Duke go over everything with me, but he also inspired me. He told me he works in the very RV park I live in repairing RVs and I realized I had seen him, and I knew who he was. Lance said he had a great reputation and worked out of his house because repairing RVs was his passion. Maybe I will be able to stay in my RV …and then find land to live as a community. You never know…miracles birth miracles.
I ended the call with Duke at 4:58 pm and got to call my friends with the miracle at 5 – on behalf of all life!
I will not be able to have him be with my RV and me until May 2. In the meantime I will go back to San Diego and do work was an amazing practitioner who shifts the past into a higher harmonic where it can be complete, having our lives exist more in a state of wholeness. There is another piece of magic that I cannot share here because it involves my children and their lives are not to be shared here. Just know it is another miracle. Not being able to share it doesn’t change its beauty.
I will visit my oldest son, go to San Diego for a week. Come back up and visit again before coming back here. We will see if the next level of synchronicity between myself, others, and creation keeps going. Do I doubt it? No. Just because I do not know what the next greater whole is, does not mean I don’t play my hand on behalf of the next greater moment of Creation. When your life rearranges itself suddenly especially these days, there is actually a larger reality at hand. We may not know that with our mental mind, but our consciousness does. I have been very sad, but not afraid. Very confused but trusting. Shaken, yet cared for. I am very glad I live in a collective consciousness with others in the field of Creation because in that collective consciousness there is simply more possibility of the synchronicity with all life to occur.
I may or may not be writing another chapter but thank you for listening it is been a precious revitalizing and reconstructing moment for me. In the meantime, I am running the Templates on behalf of ‘my home’ and posting them on Generating Realities of Unity – Through Creation Exercises on Facebook.
So many people are having thoughts of this is enough already in their circumstances and in life in general. Little do they/we realize that we are on a threshold of new realities birthing themselves through the debris field of the old realities that had everything be separate. God separate from humankind, spirit separate from flesh, the eternal separate from the temporal, the physical from the non-physical, and so on.
In the Spirals, we rise into disruptions to see if there is the possibility of creation a pathway that is in unity with Creation. What humanity does not know is that we are the missing element…if is our hearts, our minds, our Being that is the animate magic of Creation here. We have a lab, the Spirals, so that we can be in discovery and develop our actual strength, stamina, and capacity to develop registers that register the pathways, the formings, the actualities, the doings, the havings that exist when our systems are restored to their unity with Creation.
I received a message from the dealership service department, but I could not make myself read it. I could not. I trust my gut, my solar plexus, and it is why I do solar plexus activations. I trust the eternal’s ability to enter into the temporal on behalf of all life. My own terminology to myself is, “I know when to wait on the power of G.O.D.”
My message to The Spirals of Being – Sacred Labs operating on behalf of restoring humanity’s unity with Creation
When I started the Spirals, I knew that I would have to be in equal participation in opening up into the new matrixes of reality forming. When regard to my RV, I said I did not know what to do, I did not. When I said I knew what I what was mind to do and what was not mine not do, that was real. Out of that clarity, I knew I could be present to the not-yet-seen, the not-yet-known and to what I call ‘the forming’. The forming is where Creation and human beings come together on behalf of what grants life and has us exist as whole.
Dynamics of interaction began to form…a team so to speak…why a team? I didn’t expect a team. I, like most of us, was just looking for someone[s] to solve my dilemma, not the magic of what is it like in the transparency of life in a larger community who can share not only the wealth of being together but the challenges. I have had two incidents in this area around leaving where I was living, once because it was time to leave and once under duress. I needed to know if this time was a sign that I was not to be in the area. I couldn’t imagine it, but what if it were so. In the past, I had had two sanctuaries that were extraordinary and filled with people and activity and love and I cherished every minute. What had changed? I knew it had to do with my mission to be part of humanity’s moment once again time to evolve. I knew that I needed to be part of the activity of that evolving not separate from it. I knew that these years ahead including last year and this one that evolving would, of course, include who we are in our connection to our Selves, each Other, and Life. I knew we were moving from a separation-based, isolated individual-base to a unity-based, metapoint of self, other, creation-based paradigm – for me – reality.
I just knew I had to stay where I was standing until, or if, an interactive, interrelated, synchronic environment of Creation and human beings came out of the fog could form. The others, called, began to appear. There were those who sent me messages so I would not feel alone in this and, in that, some who began to respond within the possibility they were part of what there was to do.
I am writing them and writing my Chapter 3 today while I am doing what I love most, being there on behalf of life, in consults and planning. I will copy the letters here. This is my prayer,. That our engagement on behalf of all life melts the inanimate thinking that we have suffered that has left us at the effect of an inanimate reality separate from the life force energy of Creation and that we get to live together the stories of what we have only read by our tracking new pathways of Being as the on-the-earth new ways of being and doing rise.
My letter to the first recursion of those who were called.
This is the letter sent to those who were called as the possibility of theirs to do…even if they do not know yet the pathways of doing in unity with all life and on behalf of our unity with Creation.
I am such a survivor and my commitment to exist in unity with Creation is so intense and clear for me. It took until last night when ______ gave me hope to let the flood of emotions, pain, and sadness come in. I cannot afford reaction when I am listening but when I knew others were listening to, I could have room to falter. I also cannot afford to Band-Aid or coping here. I must be part of what brings everything into the next recursion. I also am holding the Field out past the edge and I can feel this event trying to distract me. I need to not be distracted. I am writing all of you who were looking at ‘doing’ as an action that you feel called to and in that who you are operating on behalf of life and having us exist as whole. First of all, I am putting the link to the tapatalk Alliance Transparency so that the Field of Tantra Maat has a landing place, as M said yesterday, for informing Creation and being with others in the field. As you see if it is yours to do ’together’ informing the field through this link, has it operate on behalf of a much bigger spectrum than just this individual incident.
I am including D on this because she has been past the edge with me in the Nature of Being before and she is ballast for what is occurring. I am including V because she is here with me taking care I have a warm place and a warm heart to hold my Lily and me. I am so technical that I do not show my emotions very much, but I am weeping. I deeply pray this becomes a marker, a stabilization point for the Field of Tantra Maat and all the Spiral members and our alliances.
Just like I knew to back off of PM and let the collective spirit bloom, I know I need to back off here. No idea about the forming. I only know I feel its seed of possibility.
I leave over to you Beloveds, my life, our life, Creation.
If I were writing a book called My Home. This would be Chapter Two. Chapter One would have to be titled: Where I Am Standing Even Though in Truth I Am Sitting. Chapter Two would be titled: What is Mine To Do.
The Field of Creation I am a part of is a landscape of consciousness. Once upon a time consciousness was our landscape. It was where we worked out our unique and essential expression of the whole. It was not about trauma or coping or dealing with the world around us the best we could. It was where we as conscious being through our Sovereign Natures, what some would call our divinity, sculpted out amazing territories to expressive life in remarkable ways.
At some point probably over time, this remarkable planet and her amazing ability to house our divine nature were compromised and the structure of existence here went out of tensegrity. Since I am not trapped in the illusion of separation, I remember these realms here and came back not just this time but many times before to be part of restoring the tensegrity which the structural design of our planet and of our bodies. You could say that this planet and her forms’ integrity are designed to float in a sea of spirit through an integral tension. Very different thought process than what is wrong with you; what is wrong with them; what is wrong with it. The blame game. It becomes apparent as you mature your consciousness that carries a territory where everything is part of everything else; everything operates on behalf of everything else; you are part of everything, and everything is part of you when the tensegrity is out.
More simply said from one who lives out beyond the codes of coping. I came to be part of generating new realities within which new future could rise. I came clear that problems are not humanmade which has had humanity spinning like gerbils on a wheel ever since the myth of original sin was created. It is a reality issue. The reality we live in here has gone out of balance and harmony – the principle expression of tensegrity.
Before I go on, and if you have not yawned, stretched, and gone back to more important things, as it says in the commercial where people are doing amazing feats at a death-defying level, do not think this is share is a how-to manual for all people. Only people who are trained to interact with ‘reality’ in a tensegrity way should take on ‘reality’.
In the Field of Creation of which I am a part, there are structures that generate this tensegrity between energy and matter, spirit and flesh, secular and sacred, the eternal and the temporal. They are simple codes of tensegrity. We don’t use the word tensegrity. We just the word transparency. We use the phrases “What is mine to do?” “What is mine to have?” “What is mine to be?’
The tension exists in resonant listening. Simply said, since I am talking for myself, “Do I resonate with what I am seeing, hearing, sensing, etc.” If not, I listen to what I do resonate with. Within this tension that trainings like Landmark work with is an integrity of ‘being’ that generates energetic environments with which the tension of life exists in a movement of creation that is gobsmack awesomely cool.
The Field of Creation I am part of works with the Nature of Being also that each of us has that is a territory of consciousness where each of us has are a Sovereign Nature of Being operating on behalf of life and what has life exist as whole.
This is a skillset of the original nature of our original design. In my resonant listening in unity with Creation, I am called to write this mini expletive. All of us know those moments when we recognize when something is ours to do. Doesn’t mean we do it, but we do know when we are called. You could say that the action of doing is the tension and the knowing it is ours to do is the integrity…hence: tensegrity.
It is my skillset. I deal with reality not people. I am aware of what realities operate on behalf of life and what realities do not. At this juncture, in the metapoint of the eternal and the temporal, what is not a structure of integrity and tension that operates on behalf of life is becoming apparent like a wart on the end of your nose. Some people, many of whom, I am getting to exist within this Field of Creation have simply stepped out of the reality of separation and are standing on the threshold of new futures that are generated by new realities rising.
I am standing at one of those thresholds. I am an at an edge, at this moment, between realities – ones that separate us from all life and ones that have us be in unity with all life.
The first question I ask myself is in regard to this dilemma of an out of balance and out of harmony reality rising in my midst: “What for me is really real?”
I love my RV and where I live.
I am clear that my RV and where I live are part of new futures rising.
I am clear about what is mine to do and not mine to do.
Yesterday, 2019.03.29 I wrote about what was mine to do. Oh, before I go there, I forgot to share – there are two types of time occurring in our human existence right now. One type of time is ‘Be Here Now.” The other type of time is EXHAUSTING trying to MAKE THINGS HAPPEN. This is an illusion of the human mind.
That we make things happen which is not true. What is true is a Be Here Now time where we are simply lining up with Creation, being one with Creation, and responding in unity with Creation. This is often referred to as intuition and/or trusting our gut. This is our best minimal language but does not get to the remarkable intelligence that resides in the language of creation behind the word intuition and the phrase trusting our gut.
There is a phrase ‘free will’ – again minimalized language – that simply means that we are free to do life anyway we want to until, because we are part of a greater whole that operates on behalf of all life and within which we exist as whole, collective actions of minimalized intelligence out of touch with the greater systems of response have slippage of integrity and tension moving into reaction no longer about generating a tension that brings our lives back into alignment with Creation. A phrase we are using in our global citizenry is ‘maintaining these edges we are finding ourselves on’. Free will operates in temporal time, being in the integrity and tension of Creation operates in eternal time.
In these three pages, I broad-stroked a background that is what gives me my foreground.
Today, I am sharing what is not mine to do.
I got a letter from the service manager at the RV dealership, but I am not called to read it. It is not mine to do.
I can feel that something or some things are not yet in tensegrity, so action not based in the integrity of Sovereign Nature of my own Being’s direct link with Creation is not yet available to me at this time.
What became apparent is where reality is rising and what is seeking to be generative as an expression of life is who we are as a community when we are, as a community, in unity with All Life. And in that, what is ours to do?
I wait to see if there is anyone who knows it is theirs to do to read the letter.
I wait to see if there is anyone who knows it is in their Sovereign Territory in unity with Creation to interact with the dealership.
I found out today that the people that built my RV- Simplicity Rodtrek have gone out of business. That the incredible 55-year warranty on my vehicle I bought July 2018 is no longer valid. I bought the RV from Demartini, a RV company in Grass Valley, California. For a while, I had a lovely service person name David who help me with the wrong information I was given at the time of purchase. He also went over correctly how to run my RV. The information that it been told me incorrectly at the time that someone else had gone over the same thing. I was told the RV was good for any season and it was not. DeMartini either with grace or disgruntledness, I do not know which, put winter blankets on the RV so that I could keep her pipes warm during the winter.
I had also ordered a screen to be put in for the summer on my sliding door. When they put the screen in they disconnected an electric plug by the sliding door and the lights over the front of the RV no longer worked. David and I made arrangements to bring the RV in this spring to fix the problem created when they put it in.
My engine light came on in the Dodge engine that is the RV’s motor vehicle part. I called David to find out when to bring it in to Demartini. I also had no manuals for the vehicle so I did not even know what the engine was I had. I was concerned when I found out that he is left, but I asked to speak to the service manager. The person I got told me it was a Mercedes. I was pretty sure it wasn’t, so I called the Erwin-Hymer who still answered their phone then and found out it was a Dodge ProMaster. I called back and made sure I got the service manager and told him what the other person had said. It turned out it was him. He told me that I had to go to a Dodge dealer to get the vehicle part fixed. Let’s just say kindness was not in his speaking.
I went to San Diego this week, came up and picked up my RV and drove to my site. I did not know that’s the inverter battery had died. Demartini had replaced the battery that was dead when I purchased my Simplicity. They replaced it with a AGM battery not the lithium battery that was from the factory. I called Edwin-Hymer customer service to see if there was a simple fix and to find out what the warranty because my battery was not recharging. What I found out was that they went out of business and that warranties were no longer covered. I still put off calling DeMartini…making calling them my last option. I called Roadtrek road side service and was told there was no more customer help over the phone. I was so disappointed because when the battery had gone out in the winter an amazing young man had stayed with me on the phone for hours in the cold showing me how to keep warm, built back the charge, and even trained me in wattage and batteries and inverters. Now, the only service available was if the vehicle was disabled. I stay insistent until the woman confused by my conversation got another person on the phone and she actually got someone to try to help me but that person did not know about the Simplicity or inverters but did manage to get me able to call Hall’s Towing in Auburn, CA to come and do what he thought would reboot it. A lovely young man came out from Hall’s Towing and explained everything to me in detail. I learned about recharging a battery through trickling and jumping it. There was nothing he could do, but really was sorry he couldn’t help me. Wondering if the trickle was what I needed I called back Auburn Chrysler Dodge Jeep Ram to see if they could trickle charge it if that was what I needed since it happened while the vehicle was there. They were gracious and so service-oriented and I told them I would call back.
I then had to call DeMartini to see if someone would at least let me now if that would work and if I needed to turn off the invertor of leave it on and would that make in difference with me having the RV plugged in trying to charge it. I knew Tony would not call me back and he didn’t. At least I got confirmed that I had a AGM battery not a Lithium battery and that the trickle method would not work with it.
Last night I went to spend the night with a good friend. Today I came back and found out that indeed the battery was dead. The car part of the RV works. The water I think works. I haven’t turned it on yet. But there’s no electricity in the RV to run my heater, my lights, my refrigerator, etc.
I have no idea what to do now. This is my home. I love my home and I love my RV site. I love being here. Once I realized that I had no idea what to do, I sat down.
I thought, “Well, at least it is warm enough I won’t freeze to death. I can go get my sleeping bag to be warm. I think I’ll stay. In the work of Tantra Maat, the work I do, we do something called informing the field. I think I’m just going to inform the field of creation – what some people call God. And settle in for the answer.
There are lots of people needing me right now and I want to be there for them. So many of us are tired of the reality we were born into and really feel that another reality is possible. I am so clear. I am not a martyr or a victim. I am just clear. I will make do for now.
I don’t want to leave my RV and I do not want to leave my RV site. Before I bought the RV, I thought about camping out so looks like I’ll be camping out in the $72,000 vehicle that has no warranty and that no one can or will help me with.
I’m not afraid of being helpless and right now I’ve no idea how to get help.
I need to sit with this and be. Just sit and be until what is next is revealed to me.
I thought I’d let everybody know who is involved. I want to thank those who love me and care about me. I want to thank Hall’s Towing in Auburn. I want to thank Auburn Chrysler Dodge Jeep Ram. I, as well as others, hope DeMartini changes and doesn’t have its present reputation.
That’s the extent of my knowledge and my extended my awareness. This is the extent of my capability, skill, stamina, and strength for this moment.
Lots of people are in a worst plight than mine. I want to give over to what might be possible for human beings now and no longer at the effect of what is happening between people so many places. I want to give this dilemma time and not use the time that can be used so constructively in other ways. I love what I am part of now. I love doing my part and not being disturbed by what would seek to disrupt me and my love of life, people, and new futures. Turning these times, I have the opportunity to build a whole new reality within which trauma does not have a place so I’m not at all interested being traumatized by this. I’m not interested in being taken away from my home or my work. I have internet. I have an outdoor extension cord. I have camping equipment. And, I’m really good at sitting here thinking until thinking is fulfilled and not reacting to any fear that might masquerade as important.
I’m good. I’m really really good.
We all know that we are over the top with our own problems and I respect that. We are all over top in a world that doesn’t work. I have no expectations, nor do I want any one put out as too many people are having to walk away from their lives at the effect of circumstance. I want to be here until a solution to the problem manifests itself. I will think. Human beings and Creation is informed now. We will see what occurs.
Except for not having electricity, my world works, and I love my world. I have everything I need. I am not going to be made to leave it until something as wonderful and as fulfilling as this has been appears. I am not going to have DeMartini be part of what would have me leave it. I am not going to have Edwin-Hymer going out of business have me leave my home.
I want what is next that works in a way that is powerful and right made of love and tenderness and part of a new reality that has our lives be taken care of in fulfilling ways.
This is where you can find me. I would say this is where I am going to stand but I am actually sitting under my patio umbrellas shading Lily and me. But you can say, I am taking a stand. I could not take this stand if I were not part of a community of beloveds who are taking the same stand to be where life exists in harmony and unity with all Creation. This is mine.
I have really struggled to try to presence the importance of last month’s Dialogue as well as the one this Wednesday. I had a night of dreaming what looked like nightmares but then something would happen like realizing the Russian mafia man in the dream was not trying to sell the baby to the black market but trying to save it. AND he knew the territory and could accomplish the deed. In all the years I have worked with the solar plexus area of the body, never have I been so clear that our solar plexus is the guide right now leading us out of the forest and our inner eyes are trying to see beyond the misperceptions all around us. For us, the forest may be dark and foreboding like children who do not know their way, and it may be. But there is an intelligence rising in the unity points, the metapoints, between our gut and our inner eye that is leading us through the gut stimulating darkness of misperception into the illuminated sight of new realities rising as old realities are dying. I have never been as grateful to the Creation Exercises as I am now. The development of the solar plexus to be a response of Creation not a reaction to perception is the most powerful tool I have ever offered to humanity. And now, it is paying off.
All of us doing the Creation Exercises in the 90-Day Creation Project can feel ourselves being held in the wake of the waves around us sometimes blind but always carried forward even with our flawed perceiving and the hauntings from the past leaking into our present. I always knew the Creation Exercises were Arks built from the Golden Spirals of Creation, but to see how they carry the human mind beyond the misperception of our times into extraordinary realities that are unfolding before us returns me to the memories I had as a child that I was not alone and that there was a God who looked after me.
I woke up this morning at 4:28 am in a consternation. Several things elicited the consternation, but I think the organizing point was being asked twice what I thought someone should do about something and knowing I could not answer because, in the template of existence I was in, there was no answer to the question. Or perhaps better said, “The answer was obvious.”
I have no way to rationally address the consequences of not living harmony, balance, proportion, symmetry, and beauty with the world around you. If one knows the story of the bees, one would know without the bees, human beings could not exist. But no one thinks about that. They don’t know for the most part that a goal would be to operate on behalf of the bees because that is an organizing point for human existence.
There a handful of human beings that understand that there are real consequences for not taking care of our environment, but there are very few human beings that understand that the consciousness of a human being or a collection of human being generate realities. Simply said, “It matters what a collective group of human beings thinks ‘reality’ is because it will organize the physical playing field which is where reality is for most human beings – in the physical.’
I called Lara one day and said, “I need to tell this story as soon as possible!” She took dictation, cleaned it up and sent it to me and I never posted it. And here it is in my face again.
Now here I am at the story again. Luckily, in my diary, I can be obtuse. If you happen upon this, in my diary entry yesterday [see the date above], my engagement with the dream guardians spoke about there is a way ‘obtuse’ can get at things that ‘literal’ can not…safely. What almost all of humanity has no clue about is when the sacred is not taken care of shit happens. I think at least the statement is clear, but perhaps not the understanding of the sacred. In the Old Testaments of the major, at least today, religions there is a lot of talk about the wrath of God. There is a passage of comparing not taking care of that with is God’s which now in modern physics we can call the Generating OrganizingDesign of Creation with a fig tree and how the not taking care of life has Life not able to take care of you. Simply said if human beings do not take care of the harmony, beauty, symmetry, proportion, and balance of Creation, the Field of Creation that takes care of them collapses or at best weakens.
Memories: I am one of those Beings who came here many times, or at least several, to generate designs of matrixes where the reconnection to the generating organizing design of Creation can re-establish itself. This is easiest for me with nature as nature and I have not forgotten each other and we are busy doing what you do when you and the wonders of this planet – insects, birds, trees, weather, animals, the cosmos, the planet, the elementals, the primal forces, etc have an affinity with each other and work things out through that affinity. Human beings are not natural anymore for the most part. You don’t have to live naked in the forest (although I would probably like that except for quite a few things now I think about it) to be normal. You have to comprehend balance, harmony, symmetry, proportion, and beauty because that is the working design of this planet as its unique and essential aspect of Creation.
I fold my arms and squeeze myself…go further? Well, let’s see how long I can stay obtuse…I don’t think that literal is good to speak from at this moment…things are hanging too precariously in the balance or imbalance may I say of things. Let’s say from this magi’s perspective…in the reality of Creation that she has existed in for millions of years, human beings have come to a crisis point and it is showing up everywhere. Three obtuse things:
The strength of the sacred is returning: That means the environment, the reality, the landscape of the sacred is restoring here through the resurrection of harmony, balance, proportion, symmetry, and beauty of this planet and its forms whether some of those forms want to or not.
The human beings whose systems still register the sacred are responding.
With the powers and forces of this planet and the cosmos reconciling this planet’s design again that which is no longer in harmony, balance, proportion, symmetry, and beauty is experiencing more extremes: MORE -hatred and fighting, instability, lopsidedness, inadequacy, injustice, unfairness, inequality, ugliness, offensiveness.
As some human beings begin to go into a reconciliation consciousness in connection with the original intent of the original design here, they begin to change their own consciousness. Simply said, they are wary of hatred and fighting. They are constantly aware of the influences around them and working their butts off to stay balanced as every minute of every day imbalance is occurring nowadays. They practice symmetry and proportion by supporting each other who are in resonance with the sacred again. They stay in touch with the beauty of life and realize the dangers of letting in the ugly.
Last obtuse imprinting of the field in my diary. Being afraid is healthy. Organizing one’s life by fear these days is more dangerous than usual. Staying distinct from the world around you is different than staying insular. Staying distinct you are more respectful of what you let in your door, the conversations you engage in, and the realities you promote.
For instance, when someone asks me in the outside world what I should do about a situation, I say, “It is not mine to know.” And it isn’t unless it is in a consult where the unity-base between myself and another is held in the sacred and we have a sacred environment wherein we can both hear. Why because what is being determined by human beings is what is the reality that they are organizing for because that is the reality they will have. This has been said forever as a warning for humanity, but not it is really happening that way. What I can’t miss the reality that has captured so many people and how engaged some people are in looking for the boogeyman, figuring out the interact with ‘the enemy’, shutting out the natural world when it seeks to include them again, and most of all thinking the only reality is human beings. Dangerous… these days.
I aware that people think inequality, injustice, ugliness is the only real right now – a reality I have spoken about for as long as it has been building residency here in the human sector- reality of separation, but it isn’t. In fact, now things are getting more and more polarized the odds of experiencing the opposite of a reality of separation is rising stronger because the planets organizing principle of balance, harmony, proportion, symmetry, and beauty. It is like a pendulum swinging too far to one side. Humanity is polarizing. Some are instinctively moving strongly into proportion, symmetry, balance, harmony, and beauty as a way of consciousness now and in a constant awareness and consciousness of that during this times but also to be more powerfully on the side of that than ever to regenerate balance.
What is more exciting is as the many who are part of the reconciliation of balance, proportion, symmetry, harmony, and beauty grows the activity of the opposite becomes more apparent. The law of Creation is everything is always moving to the next greater whole. It isn’t going to be like this forever.
Have you ever swung back and forth on a rock face knowing you need to build up momentum to be able to get to the next rock to hold onto that is quite a distance away? Probably not, but you get my point. That is where we are building momentum for that which operates on behalf of life and has us exist as whole. Why? Because the entirety of Creation comes into play in these moments in time where things become so polarized that an out-of-equilibrium event horizon occurs and wallah! we move into the next greater whole. First in the non-physical of our consciousness and then into the physical of our reality all in the new symmetry, proportion, harmony, balance, and beauty here.
So there will be those telling the same old story…the enemy, who and what there is to fear, I’m right. They’re wrong, etc.
But…then there are the others who are listening to a new story…need I say more.
Well, one more thing. There are consequences that are natural when anything resists the restoration of the original intent of the original design here right now. It isn’t the wrath of God. It is going against what is trying to include you as part of a greater whole. bears for instance. more obtuse for some but not all not being able to register a higher order of symmetry, proportion, harmony, balance, and beauty is like slipping on a banana peel and careening down the steps into hatred and fighting, instability, lopsidedness, inadequacy, injustice, unfairness, inequality, ugliness, offensiveness. It takes muscle to stay in the space between.
That is why I am keeping a low a profile around me and as small an imprint on the space as I can. It is my social responsibility to, where things are still frozen in the old model of reality to not increase the imbalance around me by being too much in balance. To not increase the disharmony around me by being too much in harmony. This is symmetry and proportion. To not try to get rid of the shadow only make more room for the light. To not try to cure the imbalance just be more balanced where you are standing. Etc.
As you can see, I have stopped listing consternation because I have been able to speak in an as non-specific way as possible so the meat of the matter, not the circumstances I see are the priority. Someone I adore who knows more about proportion, symmetry, balance, harmony, and beauty is deeply engaged in not being polarized and being in the incredible wobble and wonkiness you go through in an out of equilibrium experience on the way to the next greater whole. We were never designed to polarize to the point of almost complete separation. Things break, things go out of existence, things deconstruct, things collapse if there isn’t a balance with all the various expressions here.
We are coming out of the era of right and wrong and into the era of a consciousness that considers all the expressions of Creation and generates environments of harmony, balance, proportion, symmetry, and beauty to include it all, just like our Earth does.
Final thoughts: Even time is going through a state shift. I listen as people say, “You can move in any time.” But I can’t. It has to be the time that becomes part of a reality of harmony, balance, proportion, symmetry, and beauty. I have found myself taking more time than ever not to move too fast, think too fast, decide to fast. What is so amazing about this is staying in the wobble, listening to my gut, being in a consternation, not settling on the first thoughts that rise a phenomenon occurs. I become clear. Clear as a bell. I am in a single moment clear my action and my perception of my activities are part of a new harmony, balance, proportion, symmetry, and beauty occurring and I respond to part of new realities of unity unfolding
Obtuse. Maybe. But right now that obtuseness that is not yet perceivable to many is real.
I want to add a quote from a channeled work…channeled through me in 1994. It is for me what is happening now. And in fact, the Being who downloaded it through my noggin told me this is when it would all happen – in 2017, 2018, 2019.
Actually, after reading this document again. I decided to simply attach it to this diary entry for those who are becoming aware.