Language of Creation

22 April 2019

2019.04.22 Personal Consults and Activations

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One of the things I needed to be sure about before I wrote this was what I felt was happening in Personal Activations and Consults. This is a simple paragraph and probably difficult to comprehend. What I have discovered in doing personal consults and activations since the beginning of the year is that people’s consciousness has shifted into dimensional realities that are just beginning to anchor into this the limitation of 3D in this reality.

It is only your perception that has you think you are still operating in the same reality. Have you asked yourself why you have a strong will about something but can’t seem to figure out the ‘how’ or ‘why’ or ‘what’ of it? Your perception up until now has come from the reality that was dimensionally challenged in a collapsed field that is like a symphony without all of its instruments. Your consciousness is beginning to register new realities. The minute I begin to speak in the consults and activations into where your consciousness is forming new structures of thought and comprehension, your system relaxes and you find yourself in thought and comprehension that has a sense-making to it even if you cannot yet fully persist in remembering what you comprehended or realized the next minute.

Never has relistening your consult and activation been so important. Every time you listen, you generate new threads of thought that fit with new realities that you are part of forming. The Activations allow your system to move into a higher octave response. The flesh and the mind need to re-sort into higher frequencies and they are attempting to. You need to support that. It is hard to walk around thinking you are somewhere or not knowing where you are when you actually are somewhere that is new and yet aligned with what you are forming.

The Creation Exercises are extremely important to support new neural pathways in your brain that connect you into your direct link with Creation.

To set up a consultation and/or activation

It is time to re-read or purchase and read Language of Creation. New book Mind of Creation coming out in September with the next two or three templates to work with.

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11 April 2019

2019.04.11 Chapter 5 The Path of the Miraculous

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I ended Chapter 4 with

“I realized that I need to be in Mt Shasta to hear. I need to see if it is time for me to go home or negotiate my staying as part of valid life-enhancing ways. It is not that I know. I have not heard the certainty I hear when I know I know. I don’t know if I’m going home or staying. There are lots of signs that I am at the end of something. Others are too though. While it doesn’t feel like physical death, it might be. Whatever it is, it is a quantum of some kind. I at least need the next right action and the synchronicities that go with them. I don’t know if this is the moment. If the marker has played itself out… I don’t know. I only know I do not live to be redacted only to expand.”

Well, boy did it!

In Shasta, I made peace with my fate so to speak. Just remember Fate is never what we think it is. I successfully got my book, Mind of Creation, in my head to begin to unpack it after I wrote a chapter that absolutely complied with the higher vibrational fields of Creation working with me to bring this book into reality.

I came back to where I was staying with a beloved friend whose dog Izzy is one of my dog Lily’s best buddies. A little white fluffy dog and a taller black sleek furred dog trotting together down the road. What a sight to see! I came back in time to go with a friend to her birthday celebration #2 with friends. I have lived in working environments of consciousness most of my adult life. It is fun to be with friends who are also at work in raising consciousness. She invited us to see A Tribute to Leonard Cohen in Sacramento. We have dinner on a paddleboat. The magic whispered in my ear as we searched for a parking place in the overcrowded river bank and the old buildings that once existed there. “There. Stop there.” Sure enough, there was a car backing out that was right in front of the boardwalk to the paddleboat.

During the Tribute, I cried silently. They let me, which I appreciated it. I was so sad to look at this not being where I should be right now in my life, but I have moved before I have never been disappointed. This felt different. I have moved so often I could not determine what it was until I was driving the birthday girl back to her car. She began to challenge my thinking. She didn’t let up. I do think she was my lieutenant in another lifetime. Something happened in our exchange. Especially when she said, “You need to decide if you want to live here, not us. Everything will rearrange into the right order if you get to your truth.”

I woke up still not knowing if I wanted to stay here. Parts of being here have been so hard. But something was different. It was as if a cloud had passed. I took Lily out for a walk and passed a man working on an old VW camper. My first camper was a 1963 VW Camper. My son Jeremy and I and our dog Cuddles had wandered up and down the east coast in that camper. Even spent the night with Buffet Saint Marie [click here for a song that has carried me through my life’s journey for many years.] who was sleeping under a fishing boat in Maine.

I asked the VW man his name. He said his name was Lance. I had been noticing lately that people’s pasts are coming back in strange and unusual fashions. It was as if we are experiencing the final chapters in events that happened at the beginning of our lives. Two things pinged. One was the camper was like mine only this one was a 1970 VW Camper. And Lance. Lance was my best boy friend when I was under five and lived on East Ravine in Kingsport, Tennessee. Both the camper and Lance had made my life very happy, safe, and secure. Both of these connections had also been followed by tragedy. I had to leave Lance, Susan, Lee, and Zaria, my bestest friends, to move to a ‘better’ section of town where I was miserable, afraid, and not secure. A series of events happened one of which was the camper in the late 1970s. Within a very short period of time, my son, Jeremy, died of unknown causes: I backed over Cuddles, not looking in my need to get to the hospital and killed her: I had restored a property on the Tennessee River for an older friend who was to give me the first right to purchase. He sold the property while I was in the hospital with my son.

This level of synchronicity got my attention.

I told the VW Lance who I was staying with and that I was there because I could not live in my RV. I shared the story you all have heard. First, he talked to me about if I got him the inverter, he could probably fix it or replace it. Then I shared I thought something was wrong with the wiring and that the wiring might have been compromised after being in the shop to have the RV’s warming blankets and screen door put in.

“Well then,” Lance said, “You need to talk to Duke. Let me get you his Facebook page.” Duke University is what saved my life when I was very young. I had had a rare blood disease and they developed a serum to save me. Ping! Of course, I managed to forget the name and look up the wrong Facebook, page but Lance in his roaring engine VW showed up again coming down the road, so we got it straightened out.

I felt that I needed to get hold of Duke before 5 PM. I had a call with my support people who were creating a space for miracles to happen. Before I called them, I wanted to see if perhaps I had my miracle. Jim had already found the man who actually created the wiring for the simplicity road track and he already told us he’s got us parts. That was miraculous. Janice had had a vision after I had had a reading where a very powerful reader had told me not to keep the RV – to get rid of it right away last year.

I called Duke and he called me back. I told him about my situation. He began to share with me that I was under warranty from the dealer but when I told him road track had gone bust, he was stunned. “They have been in business since the 70s!” I told him that Jim had gotten hold of the man who designed the wiring and who could get us schematics and parts. He was thrilled. That is one of the fundamental aspects of magic. Shared field. The next level of wholeness supports everyone in the field. Then he asked, “Where did you buy the RV?” When I told him where I bought the RV, he said. “Oh.” Clearly, he was disappointed at my choice. He had a few choice words and then told me he had been working on Roadtrek Simplicities for over 20 years. He also told me we would video him going through the entire RV so that if anything had happened that messed up the wiring, Jim and I could take it from there.

I realized when I had woken up morning, that if I could stay in the area, the only way I wanted to stay in the area was in my RV. I also want another sanctuary. But if I can’t have that, then I want to stay in my RV. Not only did Duke go over everything with me, but he also inspired me. He told me he works in the very RV park I live in repairing RVs and I realized I had seen him, and I knew who he was. Lance said he had a great reputation and worked out of his house because repairing RVs was his passion. Maybe I will be able to stay in my RV …and then find land to live as a community. You never know…miracles birth miracles.

Bingo.

I ended the call with Duke at 4:58 pm and got to call my friends with the miracle at 5 – on behalf of all life!

I will not be able to have him be with my RV and me until May 2. In the meantime I will go back to San Diego and do work was an amazing practitioner who shifts the past into a higher harmonic where it can be complete, having our lives exist more in a state of wholeness. There is another piece of magic that I cannot share here because it involves my children and their lives are not to be shared here. Just know it is another miracle. Not being able to share it doesn’t change its beauty.

I will visit my oldest son, go to San Diego for a week. Come back up and visit again before coming back here. We will see if the next level of synchronicity between myself, others, and creation keeps going. Do I doubt it? No. Just because I do not know what the next greater whole is, does not mean I don’t play my hand on behalf of the next greater moment of Creation. When your life rearranges itself suddenly especially these days, there is actually a larger reality at hand. We may not know that with our mental mind, but our consciousness does. I have been very sad, but not afraid. Very confused but trusting. Shaken, yet cared for. I am very glad I live in a collective consciousness with others in the field of Creation because in that collective consciousness there is simply more possibility of the synchronicity with all life to occur.

I may or may not be writing another chapter but thank you for listening it is been a precious revitalizing and reconstructing moment for me. In the meantime, I am running the Templates on behalf of ‘my home’ and posting them on Generating Realities of Unity – Through Creation Exercises on Facebook.

On behalf of all life,

Tantra Maat

31 March 2019

2019.03.31 Chapter 3 A Culture Restoring Their Unity with Creation

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Chapter 3

2019.03.31

A Culture Restoring Their Unity with Creation

So many people are having thoughts of this is enough already in their circumstances and in life in general. Little do they/we realize that we are on a threshold of new realities birthing themselves through the debris field of the old realities that had everything be separate. God separate from humankind, spirit separate from flesh, the eternal separate from the temporal, the physical from the non-physical, and so on.

In the Spirals, we rise into disruptions to see if there is the possibility of creation a pathway that is in unity with Creation. What humanity does not know is that we are the missing element…if is our hearts, our minds, our Being that is the animate magic of Creation here. We have a lab, the Spirals, so that we can be in discovery and develop our actual strength, stamina, and capacity to develop registers that register the pathways, the formings, the actualities, the doings, the havings that exist when our systems are restored to their unity with Creation.

I received a message from the dealership service department, but I could not make myself read it. I could not. I trust my gut, my solar plexus, and it is why I do solar plexus activations. I trust the eternal’s ability to enter into the temporal on behalf of all life. My own terminology to myself is, “I know when to wait on the power of G.O.D.”

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My message to The Spirals of Being – Sacred Labs operating on behalf of restoring humanity’s unity with Creation

When I started the Spirals, I knew that I would have to be in equal participation in opening up into the new matrixes of reality forming. When regard to my RV, I said I did not know what to do, I did not. When I said I knew what I what was mind to do and what was not mine not do, that was real. Out of that clarity, I knew I could be present to the not-yet-seen, the not-yet-known and to what I call ‘the forming’. The forming is where Creation and human beings come together on behalf of what grants life and has us exist as whole.

Dynamics of interaction began to form…a team so to speak…why a team? I didn’t expect a team. I, like most of us, was just looking for someone[s] to solve my dilemma, not the magic of what is it like in the transparency of life in a larger community who can share not only the wealth of being together but the challenges. I have had two incidents in this area around leaving where I was living, once because it was time to leave and once under duress. I needed to know if this time was a sign that I was not to be in the area. I couldn’t imagine it, but what if it were so. In the past, I had had two sanctuaries that were extraordinary and filled with people and activity and love and I cherished every minute. What had changed? I knew it had to do with my mission to be part of humanity’s moment once again time to evolve. I knew that I needed to be part of the activity of that evolving not separate from it. I knew that these years ahead including last year and this one that evolving would, of course, include who we are in our connection to our Selves, each Other, and Life. I knew we were moving from a separation-based, isolated individual-base to a unity-based, metapoint of self, other, creation-based paradigm – for me – reality.

I just knew I had to stay where I was standing until, or if, an interactive, interrelated, synchronic environment of Creation and human beings came out of the fog could form. The others, called, began to appear. There were those who sent me messages so I would not feel alone in this and, in that, some who began to respond within the possibility they were part of what there was to do.

I am writing them and writing my Chapter 3 today while I am doing what I love most, being there on behalf of life, in consults and planning. I will copy the letters here. This is my prayer,. That our engagement on behalf of all life melts the inanimate thinking that we have suffered that has left us at the effect of an inanimate reality separate from the life force energy of Creation and that we get to live together the stories of what we have only read by our tracking new pathways of Being as the on-the-earth new ways of being and doing rise.

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My letter to the first recursion of those who were called.

This is the letter sent to those who were called as the possibility of theirs to do…even if they do not know yet the pathways of doing in unity with all life and on behalf of our unity with Creation.

2019.03.31

In Unity,

I am such a survivor and my commitment to exist in unity with Creation is so intense and clear for me. It took until last night when ______ gave me hope to let the flood of emotions, pain, and sadness come in. I cannot afford reaction when I am listening but when I knew others were listening to, I could have room to falter. I also cannot afford to Band-Aid or coping here. I must be part of what brings everything into the next recursion. I also am holding the Field out past the edge and I can feel this event trying to distract me. I need to not be distracted. I am writing all of you who were looking at ‘doing’ as an action that you feel called to and in that who you are operating on behalf of life and having us exist as whole. First of all, I am putting the link to the tapatalk Alliance Transparency so that the Field of Tantra Maat has a landing place, as M said yesterday, for informing Creation and being with others in the field. As you see if it is yours to do ’together’ informing the field through this link, has it operate on behalf of a much bigger spectrum than just this individual incident.

I am including D on this because she has been past the edge with me in the Nature of Being before and she is ballast for what is occurring. I am including V because she is here with me taking care I have a warm place and a warm heart to hold my Lily and me. I am so technical that I do not show my emotions very much, but I am weeping. I deeply pray this becomes a marker, a stabilization point for the Field of Tantra Maat and all the Spiral members and our alliances.

Just like I knew to back off of PM and let the collective spirit bloom, I know I need to back off here. No idea about the forming. I only know I feel its seed of possibility.

I leave over to you Beloveds, my life, our life, Creation.

On Behalf of All Life,

Tantra Maat

www.tantramaat.com

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30 March 2019

2019.03.30 My Home Chapter 2

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My Home

Chapter Two

What is Mine To Do

2019.03.30

If I were writing a book called My Home. This would be Chapter Two. Chapter One would have to be titled: Where I Am Standing Even Though in Truth I Am Sitting. Chapter Two would be titled: What is Mine To Do.

The Field of Creation I am a part of is a landscape of consciousness. Once upon a time consciousness was our landscape. It was where we worked out our unique and essential expression of the whole. It was not about trauma or coping or dealing with the world around us the best we could. It was where we as conscious being through our Sovereign Natures, what some would call our divinity, sculpted out amazing territories to expressive life in remarkable ways.

At some point probably over time, this remarkable planet and her amazing ability to house our divine nature were compromised and the structure of existence here went out of tensegrity. Since I am not trapped in the illusion of separation, I remember these realms here and came back not just this time but many times before to be part of restoring the tensegrity which the structural design of our planet and of our bodies. You could say that this planet and her forms’ integrity are designed to float in a sea of spirit through an integral tension. Very different thought process than what is wrong with you; what is wrong with them; what is wrong with it. The blame game. It becomes apparent as you mature your consciousness that carries a territory where everything is part of everything else; everything operates on behalf of everything else; you are part of everything, and everything is part of you when the tensegrity is out.

More simply said from one who lives out beyond the codes of coping. I came to be part of generating new realities within which new future could rise. I came clear that problems are not humanmade which has had humanity spinning like gerbils on a wheel ever since the myth of original sin was created. It is a reality issue. The reality we live in here has gone out of balance and harmony – the principle expression of tensegrity.

Before I go on, and if you have not yawned, stretched, and gone back to more important things, as it says in the commercial where people are doing amazing feats at a death-defying level, do not think this is share is a how-to manual for all people. Only people who are trained to interact with ‘reality’ in a tensegrity way should take on ‘reality’.

In the Field of Creation of which I am a part, there are structures that generate this tensegrity between energy and matter, spirit and flesh, secular and sacred, the eternal and the temporal. They are simple codes of tensegrity. We don’t use the word tensegrity. We just the word transparency. We use the phrases “What is mine to do?” “What is mine to have?” “What is mine to be?’

The tension exists in resonant listening. Simply said, since I am talking for myself, “Do I resonate with what I am seeing, hearing, sensing, etc.” If not, I listen to what I do resonate with. Within this tension that trainings like Landmark work with is an integrity of ‘being’ that generates energetic environments with which the tension of life exists in a movement of creation that is gobsmack awesomely cool.

The Field of Creation I am part of works with the Nature of Being also that each of us has that is a territory of consciousness where each of us has are a Sovereign Nature of Being operating on behalf of life and what has life exist as whole.

This is a skillset of the original nature of our original design. In my resonant listening in unity with Creation, I am called to write this mini expletive. All of us know those moments when we recognize when something is ours to do. Doesn’t mean we do it, but we do know when we are called. You could say that the action of doing is the tension and the knowing it is ours to do is the integrity…hence: tensegrity.

It is my skillset. I deal with reality not people. I am aware of what realities operate on behalf of life and what realities do not. At this juncture, in the metapoint of the eternal and the temporal, what is not a structure of integrity and tension that operates on behalf of life is becoming apparent like a wart on the end of your nose. Some people, many of whom, I am getting to exist within this Field of Creation have simply stepped out of the reality of separation and are standing on the threshold of new futures that are generated by new realities rising.

I am standing at one of those thresholds. I am an at an edge, at this moment, between realities – ones that separate us from all life and ones that have us be in unity with all life.

The first question I ask myself is in regard to this dilemma of an out of balance and out of harmony reality rising in my midst: “What for me is really real?”

Answer[s]:

I love my RV and where I live.

I am clear that my RV and where I live are part of new futures rising.

I am clear about what is mine to do and not mine to do.

Yesterday, 2019.03.29 I wrote about what was mine to do. Oh, before I go there, I forgot to share – there are two types of time occurring in our human existence right now. One type of time is ‘Be Here Now.” The other type of time is EXHAUSTING trying to MAKE THINGS HAPPEN. This is an illusion of the human mind.

That we make things happen which is not true. What is true is a Be Here Now time where we are simply lining up with Creation, being one with Creation, and responding in unity with Creation. This is often referred to as intuition and/or trusting our gut. This is our best minimal language but does not get to the remarkable intelligence that resides in the language of creation behind the word intuition and the phrase trusting our gut.
There is a phrase ‘free will’ – again minimalized language – that simply means that we are free to do life anyway we want to until, because we are part of a greater whole that operates on behalf of all life and within which we exist as whole, collective actions of minimalized intelligence out of touch with the greater systems of response have slippage of integrity and tension moving into reaction no longer about generating a tension that brings our lives back into alignment with Creation. A phrase we are using in our global citizenry is ‘maintaining these edges we are finding ourselves on’. Free will operates in temporal time, being in the integrity and tension of Creation operates in eternal time.

In these three pages, I broad-stroked a background that is what gives me my foreground.

Today, I am sharing what is not mine to do.

I got a letter from the service manager at the RV dealership, but I am not called to read it. It is not mine to do.
I can feel that something or some things are not yet in tensegrity, so action not based in the integrity of Sovereign Nature of my own Being’s direct link with Creation is not yet available to me at this time.

What became apparent is where reality is rising and what is seeking to be generative as an expression of life is who we are as a community when we are, as a community, in unity with All Life. And in that, what is ours to do?

Curious, yes?

I wait to see if there is anyone who knows it is theirs to do to read the letter.

I wait to see if there is anyone who knows it is in their Sovereign Territory in unity with Creation to interact with the dealership.

All I know is it is not me.

Signing Off,

Tantra Maat

30 March 2019

A Day in the Life of Tantra Maat: Chapter 1

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My Home

Chapter 1:

Where I am Standing Althought I am Actually Sitting

2019.03.29

https://rvmiles.com/erwin-hymer-north-america-roadtrek-is-done-entire-staff-laid-off/

I found out today that the people that built my RV- Simplicity Rodtrek have gone out of business. That the incredible 55-year warranty on my vehicle I bought July 2018 is no longer valid. I bought the RV from Demartini, a RV company in Grass Valley, California. For a while, I had a lovely service person name David who help me with the wrong information I was given at the time of purchase. He also went over correctly how to run my RV. The information that it been told me incorrectly at the time that someone else had gone over the same thing. I was told the RV was good for any season and it was not. DeMartini either with grace or disgruntledness, I do not know which, put winter blankets on the RV so that I could keep her pipes warm during the winter.

I had also ordered a screen to be put in for the summer on my sliding door. When they put the screen in they disconnected an electric plug by the sliding door and the lights over the front of the RV no longer worked. David and I made arrangements to bring the RV in this spring to fix the problem created when they put it in.

My engine light came on in the Dodge engine that is the RV’s motor vehicle part. I called David to find out when to bring it in to Demartini. I also had no manuals for the vehicle so I did not even know what the engine was I had. I was concerned when I found out that he is left, but I asked to speak to the service manager. The person I got told me it was a Mercedes. I was pretty sure it wasn’t, so I called the Erwin-Hymer who still answered their phone then and found out it was a Dodge ProMaster. I called back and made sure I got the service manager and told him what the other person had said. It turned out it was him. He told me that I had to go to a Dodge dealer to get the vehicle part fixed. Let’s just say kindness was not in his speaking.

I went to San Diego this week, came up and picked up my RV and drove to my site. I did not know that’s the inverter battery had died. Demartini had replaced the battery that was dead when I purchased my Simplicity. They replaced it with a AGM battery not the lithium battery that was from the factory. I called Edwin-Hymer customer service to see if there was a simple fix and to find out what the warranty because my battery was not recharging. What I found out was that they went out of business and that warranties were no longer covered. I still put off calling DeMartini…making calling them my last option. I called Roadtrek road side service and was told there was no more customer help over the phone. I was so disappointed because when the battery had gone out in the winter an amazing young man had stayed with me on the phone for hours in the cold showing me how to keep warm, built back the charge, and even trained me in wattage and batteries and inverters. Now, the only service available was if the vehicle was disabled. I stay insistent until the woman confused by my conversation got another person on the phone and she actually got someone to try to help me but that person did not know about the Simplicity or inverters but did manage to get me able to call Hall’s Towing in Auburn, CA to come and do what he thought would reboot it. A lovely young man came out from Hall’s Towing and explained everything to me in detail. I learned about recharging a battery through trickling and jumping it. There was nothing he could do, but really was sorry he couldn’t help me. Wondering if the trickle was what I needed I called back Auburn Chrysler Dodge Jeep Ram to see if they could trickle charge it if that was what I needed since it happened while the vehicle was there. They were gracious and so service-oriented and I told them I would call back.

I then had to call DeMartini to see if someone would at least let me now if that would work and if I needed to turn off the invertor of leave it on and would that make in difference with me having the RV plugged in trying to charge it. I knew Tony would not call me back and he didn’t. At least I got confirmed that I had a AGM battery not a Lithium battery and that the trickle method would not work with it.

Last night I went to spend the night with a good friend. Today I came back and found out that indeed the battery was dead. The car part of the RV works. The water I think works. I haven’t turned it on yet. But there’s no electricity in the RV to run my heater, my lights, my refrigerator, etc.

I have no idea what to do now. This is my home. I love my home and I love my RV site. I love being here. Once I realized that I had no idea what to do, I sat down.

I thought, “Well, at least it is warm enough I won’t freeze to death. I can go get my sleeping bag to be warm. I think I’ll stay. In the work of Tantra Maat, the work I do, we do something called informing the field. I think I’m just going to inform the field of creation – what some people call God. And settle in for the answer.

There are lots of people needing me right now and I want to be there for them. So many of us are tired of the reality we were born into and really feel that another reality is possible. I am so clear. I am not a martyr or a victim. I am just clear. I will make do for now.

I don’t want to leave my RV and I do not want to leave my RV site. Before I bought the RV, I thought about camping out so looks like I’ll be camping out in the $72,000 vehicle that has no warranty and that no one can or will help me with.

I’m not afraid of being helpless and right now I’ve no idea how to get help.

I need to sit with this and be. Just sit and be until what is next is revealed to me.

I thought I’d let everybody know who is involved. I want to thank those who love me and care about me. I want to thank Hall’s Towing in Auburn. I want to thank Auburn Chrysler Dodge Jeep Ram. I, as well as others, hope DeMartini changes and doesn’t have its present reputation.

That’s the extent of my knowledge and my extended my awareness. This is the extent of my capability, skill, stamina, and strength for this moment.

Lots of people are in a worst plight than mine. I want to give over to what might be possible for human beings now and no longer at the effect of what is happening between people so many places. I want to give this dilemma time and not use the time that can be used so constructively in other ways. I love what I am part of now. I love doing my part and not being disturbed by what would seek to disrupt me and my love of life, people, and new futures. Turning these times, I have the opportunity to build a whole new reality within which trauma does not have a place so I’m not at all interested being traumatized by this. I’m not interested in being taken away from my home or my work. I have internet. I have an outdoor extension cord. I have camping equipment. And, I’m really good at sitting here thinking until thinking is fulfilled and not reacting to any fear that might masquerade as important.

I’m good. I’m really really good.

We all know that we are over the top with our own problems and I respect that. We are all over top in a world that doesn’t work. I have no expectations, nor do I want any one put out as too many people are having to walk away from their lives at the effect of circumstance. I want to be here until a solution to the problem manifests itself. I will think. Human beings and Creation is informed now. We will see what occurs.

Except for not having electricity, my world works, and I love my world. I have everything I need. I am not going to be made to leave it until something as wonderful and as fulfilling as this has been appears. I am not going to have DeMartini be part of what would have me leave it. I am not going to have Edwin-Hymer going out of business have me leave my home.

I want what is next that works in a way that is powerful and right made of love and tenderness and part of a new reality that has our lives be taken care of in fulfilling ways.

This is where you can find me. I would say this is where I am going to stand but I am actually sitting under my patio umbrellas shading Lily and me. But you can say, I am taking a stand. I could not take this stand if I were not part of a community of beloveds who are taking the same stand to be where life exists in harmony and unity with all Creation. This is mine.

Signing off now.

All my love,

Tantra Maat

24 July 2018

Not All Monsters are Nightmares-Caught in Misperceptions

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Wednesday’s Dialogue of Perception

I have really struggled to try to presence the importance of last month’s Dialogue as well as the one this Wednesday. I had a night of dreaming what looked like nightmares but then something would happen like realizing the Russian mafia man in the dream was not trying to sell the baby to the black market but trying to save it. AND he knew the territory and could accomplish the deed. In all the years I have worked with the solar plexus area of the body, never have I been so clear that our solar plexus is the guide right now leading us out of the forest and our inner eyes are trying to see beyond the misperceptions all around us. For us, the forest may be dark and foreboding like children who do not know their way, and it may be. But there is an intelligence rising in the unity points, the metapoints, between our gut and our inner eye that is leading us through the gut stimulating darkness of misperception into the illuminated sight of new realities rising as old realities are dying. I have never been as grateful to the Creation Exercises as I am now. The development of the solar plexus to be a response of Creation not a reaction to perception is the most powerful tool I have ever offered to humanity. And now, it is paying off.

All of us doing the Creation Exercises in the 90-Day Creation Project can feel ourselves being held in the wake of the waves around us sometimes blind but always carried forward even with our flawed perceiving and the hauntings from the past leaking into our present. I always knew the Creation Exercises were Arks built from the Golden Spirals of Creation, but to see how they carry the human mind beyond the misperception of our times into extraordinary realities that are unfolding before us returns me to the memories I had as a child that I was not alone and that there was a God who looked after me.

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18 July 2018

7.18.18 Consternation

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Dear Diary,

I woke up this morning at 4:28 am in a consternation. Several things elicited the consternation, but I think the organizing point was being asked twice what I thought someone should do about something and knowing I could not answer because, in the template of existence I was in, there was no answer to the question. Or perhaps better said, “The answer was obvious.”

Consternation 1:

I have no way to rationally address the consequences of not living harmony, balance, proportion, symmetry, and beauty with the world around you. If one knows the story of the bees, one would know without the bees, human beings could not exist. But no one thinks about that. They don’t know for the most part that a goal would be to operate on behalf of the bees because that is an organizing point for human existence.

Consternation 2:

There a handful of human beings that understand that there are real consequences for not taking care of our environment, but there are very few human beings that understand that the consciousness of a human being or a collection of human being generate realities. Simply said, “It matters what a collective group of human beings thinks ‘reality’ is because it will organize the physical playing field which is where reality is for most human beings – in the physical.’

Consternation 3;

I called Lara one day and said, “I need to tell this story as soon as possible!” She took dictation, cleaned it up and sent it to me and I never posted it. And here it is in my face again.

Consternation 4:

Now here I am at the story again. Luckily, in my diary, I can be obtuse. If you happen upon this, in my diary entry yesterday [see the date above], my engagement with the dream guardians spoke about there is a way ‘obtuse’ can get at things that ‘literal’ can not…safely. What almost all of humanity has no clue about is when the sacred is not taken care of shit happens. I think at least the statement is clear, but perhaps not the understanding of the sacred. In the Old Testaments of the major, at least today, religions there is a lot of talk about the wrath of God. There is a passage of comparing not taking care of that with is God’s which now in modern physics we can call the Generating Organizing Design of Creation with a fig tree and how the not taking care of life has Life not able to take care of you. Simply said if human beings do not take care of the harmony, beauty, symmetry, proportion, and balance of Creation, the Field of Creation that takes care of them collapses or at best weakens.

Consternation 5:

Memories: I am one of those Beings who came here many times, or at least several, to generate designs of matrixes where the reconnection to the generating organizing design of Creation can re-establish itself. This is easiest for me with nature as nature and I have not forgotten each other and we are busy doing what you do when you and the wonders of this planet – insects, birds, trees, weather, animals, the cosmos, the planet, the elementals, the primal forces, etc have an affinity with each other and work things out through that affinity. Human beings are not natural anymore for the most part. You don’t have to live naked in the forest (although I would probably like that except for quite a few things now I think about it) to be normal. You have to comprehend balance, harmony, symmetry, proportion, and beauty because that is the working design of this planet as its unique and essential aspect of Creation.

Consternation 6:

I fold my arms and squeeze myself…go further? Well, let’s see how long I can stay obtuse…I don’t think that literal is good to speak from at this moment…things are hanging too precariously in the balance or imbalance may I say of things. Let’s say from this magi’s perspective…in the reality of Creation that she has existed in for millions of years, human beings have come to a crisis point and it is showing up everywhere. Three obtuse things:

The strength of the sacred is returning: That means the environment, the reality, the landscape of the sacred is restoring here through the resurrection of harmony, balance, proportion, symmetry, and beauty of this planet and its forms whether some of those forms want to or not.
The human beings whose systems still register the sacred are responding.
With the powers and forces of this planet and the cosmos reconciling this planet’s design again that which is no longer in harmony, balance, proportion, symmetry, and beauty is experiencing more extremes: MORE -hatred and fighting, instability, lopsidedness, inadequacy, injustice, unfairness, inequality, ugliness, offensiveness.

Consternation 7:

As some human beings begin to go into a reconciliation consciousness in connection with the original intent of the original design here, they begin to change their own consciousness. Simply said, they are wary of hatred and fighting. They are constantly aware of the influences around them and working their butts off to stay balanced as every minute of every day imbalance is occurring nowadays. They practice symmetry and proportion by supporting each other who are in resonance with the sacred again. They stay in touch with the beauty of life and realize the dangers of letting in the ugly.

Consternation 8:

Last obtuse imprinting of the field in my diary. Being afraid is healthy. Organizing one’s life by fear these days is more dangerous than usual. Staying distinct from the world around you is different than staying insular. Staying distinct you are more respectful of what you let in your door, the conversations you engage in, and the realities you promote.

For instance, when someone asks me in the outside world what I should do about a situation, I say, “It is not mine to know.” And it isn’t unless it is in a consult where the unity-base between myself and another is held in the sacred and we have a sacred environment wherein we can both hear. Why because what is being determined by human beings is what is the reality that they are organizing for because that is the reality they will have. This has been said forever as a warning for humanity, but not it is really happening that way. What I can’t miss the reality that has captured so many people and how engaged some people are in looking for the boogeyman, figuring out the interact with ‘the enemy’, shutting out the natural world when it seeks to include them again, and most of all thinking the only reality is human beings. Dangerous… these days.

I aware that people think inequality, injustice, ugliness is the only real right now – a reality I have spoken about for as long as it has been building residency here in the human sector- reality of separation, but it isn’t. In fact, now things are getting more and more polarized the odds of experiencing the opposite of a reality of separation is rising stronger because the planets organizing principle of balance, harmony, proportion, symmetry, and beauty. It is like a pendulum swinging too far to one side. Humanity is polarizing. Some are instinctively moving strongly into proportion, symmetry, balance, harmony, and beauty as a way of consciousness now and in a constant awareness and consciousness of that during this times but also to be more powerfully on the side of that than ever to regenerate balance.

What is more exciting is as the many who are part of the reconciliation of balance, proportion, symmetry, harmony, and beauty grows the activity of the opposite becomes more apparent. The law of Creation is everything is always moving to the next greater whole. It isn’t going to be like this forever.

Have you ever swung back and forth on a rock face knowing you need to build up momentum to be able to get to the next rock to hold onto that is quite a distance away? Probably not, but you get my point. That is where we are building momentum for that which operates on behalf of life and has us exist as whole. Why? Because the entirety of Creation comes into play in these moments in time where things become so polarized that an out-of-equilibrium event horizon occurs and wallah! we move into the next greater whole. First in the non-physical of our consciousness and then into the physical of our reality all in the new symmetry, proportion, harmony, balance, and beauty here.

So there will be those telling the same old story…the enemy, who and what there is to fear, I’m right. They’re wrong, etc.

But…then there are the others who are listening to a new story…need I say more.

Well, one more thing. There are consequences that are natural when anything resists the restoration of the original intent of the original design here right now. It isn’t the wrath of God. It is going against what is trying to include you as part of a greater whole. bears for instance. more obtuse for some but not all not being able to register a higher order of symmetry, proportion, harmony, balance, and beauty is like slipping on a banana peel and careening down the steps into hatred and fighting, instability, lopsidedness, inadequacy, injustice, unfairness, inequality, ugliness, offensiveness. It takes muscle to stay in the space between.

That is why I am keeping a low a profile around me and as small an imprint on the space as I can. It is my social responsibility to, where things are still frozen in the old model of reality to not increase the imbalance around me by being too much in balance. To not increase the disharmony around me by being too much in harmony. This is symmetry and proportion. To not try to get rid of the shadow only make more room for the light. To not try to cure the imbalance just be more balanced where you are standing. Etc.

As you can see, I have stopped listing consternation because I have been able to speak in an as non-specific way as possible so the meat of the matter, not the circumstances I see are the priority. Someone I adore who knows more about proportion, symmetry, balance, harmony, and beauty is deeply engaged in not being polarized and being in the incredible wobble and wonkiness you go through in an out of equilibrium experience on the way to the next greater whole. We were never designed to polarize to the point of almost complete separation. Things break, things go out of existence, things deconstruct, things collapse if there isn’t a balance with all the various expressions here.

We are coming out of the era of right and wrong and into the era of a consciousness that considers all the expressions of Creation and generates environments of harmony, balance, proportion, symmetry, and beauty to include it all, just like our Earth does.

Final thoughts: Even time is going through a state shift. I listen as people say, “You can move in any time.” But I can’t. It has to be the time that becomes part of a reality of harmony, balance, proportion, symmetry, and beauty. I have found myself taking more time than ever not to move too fast, think too fast, decide to fast. What is so amazing about this is staying in the wobble, listening to my gut, being in a consternation, not settling on the first thoughts that rise a phenomenon occurs. I become clear. Clear as a bell. I am in a single moment clear my action and my perception of my activities are part of a new harmony, balance, proportion, symmetry, and beauty occurring and I respond to part of new realities of unity unfolding

Obtuse. Maybe. But right now that obtuseness that is not yet perceivable to many is real.

I want to add a quote from a channeled work…channeled through me in 1994. It is for me what is happening now. And in fact, the Being who downloaded it through my noggin told me this is when it would all happen – in 2017, 2018, 2019.

Actually, after reading this document again. I decided to simply attach it to this diary entry for those who are becoming aware.

The Matrix of Reality pdf

Creation Bless the Creation Exercises. I wrote them so human beings would be immunized for these times and their minds could shift with Creation and its working!

New Book in its final days: Mind of Creation – Beyond the Mental Mind

17 July 2018

Guí a dhéanamh ar réalta 7.17.18

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7.17.18 If we are to take this journey we are clearly on, then we must be able to be in the distortion of thought that exists beyond the linear rational thinking that has lost connection with our amazing minds that are part of a greater whole. Anne Tyrrell and I will be wiggling across Ireland letting our minds wander beyond. That’s right…Simply beyond. What Irish has in its language, the Language of Creation Exercises provide in our more stunted languages. I have two entries here. One is excerpts from an Irish linguist and the other is an excerpt from an exchange I had with the higher intelligences about the way things are coming to me these days.

I can no longer talk about something to you, I can only presence it for you. Your inner psyche will do the work if it is your work to do. If you are reading this, you may be on a journey you only now in this moment have encountered. I wish you well.

Guí a dhéanamh ar réalta…

The point is to read this even if you are not an Irish speaker. Anne sent this to me and when I looked at the time and translated to my time zone, I was having a dream. When I asked the higher intelligences what was happening in the dream they said this, 7.17.18 about 7.16.18

They asked me last night to let the exchange be a dream and there was one

Are you there?

Yes

Who are you?

The Dream Givers

Can I ask you a question?

Yes

Can you tell me about my dream?

Yes…your dream was about opposing forces not being opposing forces at all. They are simply different realms awakening and yawning their way back into the dimension of visibility. In so many of your dreams, you are in a house with many rooms with many levels often in what looks like in a bizarre fashion. This is the dimensions making visibility. Visibility is not a bad thing. Visibility is where things sort out. It is to you to let things become visible not with the intent to handle but with the intent to be sacred space of rest and courage as you have called one of your FB pages. You could say in your way of experiencing, they are squirming into this realm’s experience not consciously but drawn in from the memories of worlds that existed here that carried amazing potentiality. It will all sort.

Thank you. Thank you for the dream.

Can I ask another question?

Yes

What was the significance of Jessica, the tiger, and this place in the dream?

There are many energies here that are part of a larger spectrum of continuity. In your dream, you gave Jessica your Beloved a tiger so that she could be with an [difficulty translating] something like an embodied nature that works with you in ways you are not even aware of. This non-awareness takes care of things beyond human perception. Often it is felt as a guardian, a companion, but as you feel into the presence of the tiger that came from your realm by Jessica’s side, it is something else that the human nature has just to register. You could say the creatures that come to be with you bring a space – what you might call a dimensional space or spaces that widen the parameters of accepted reality here in a real way not only in a human way but in a cosmic planetary way. That is why the signs of the zodiac are named for animals as are monkey, dog, etc in Chinese astrology. They are not only gateways, they are what you would call addresses with landscapes that imprint in ways that keep realities coming into function.

That is all your mind can meta to right now. Awareness will come.

Can I ask one more question?

Yes

What was the significance of going to be with the young woman and her kids dressed in sloppy clothes but an amazing martial arts master underneath and something about who I was to be with to learn with me did not show?

You are on your own. Slowly we will make known to you what there is to know and it will come in obtuse ways. It is good you are going to work with Shifu Eileen to get the moves down for you in Tai Chi. Your body is a better receptor than you mind as your body is composed of memory elements from what the body was other times and even now in other dimensions. Yours is only to remember. Obtuse, incongruent, not quite landing, certain, not obvious, but felt, a bit distorting, makes you feel odd and odd with people when the elements show as they did last night. You are in an unfolding.

Thank you.

I am not alone in this. Writing this uncommon diary entry is part of my providing you what I am asked to provide in obtuse ways. 🙂

Anne sent me this email while I was dreaming.

Hidden magic in the Irish language

A single word can unlock the richness in our lives and landscapes, and affect our way of looking at the world – we need to rediscover the power of our native tongue, writes Manch án Magan

MANCHÁN MAGAN

What if we’ve been looking at Irish through the wrong lens all these years? Rather than it being a subject that causes heartache in schools might it actually be a periscope into our psyche and our souls? A path towards an entirely fresh way of seeing reality, transforming existence from a predictable and quantifiable 3-D dimension into a vacillating, multi-dimensional realm with the potential of bleed-throughs from other parallel worlds.

First, there are some truths about the language that need to be acknowledged, though the grammarians and language academics might not agree. 1 ) Irish derives from a world in which the unseen is as real as the seen; 2) It acknowledges the existence of other dimensions. 3 ) It is based on an understanding that nature and the land are vibrant, sentient beings. 4) At its most potent can be a language of incantation, meaning that it has (or might have) the potential to summon up wishes, behaviours, people and things.

These are bold claims, I realise, and whether any lofty academic linguist would agree is debatable, but let me explain with some examples of the many Irish words and phrases that can upend your way of seeing reality.

Words like sclimpíní, for example, which conveys the effect of lights dancing before one’s eyes – either real light or the supernatural; those glimpses we get through the veil of what lies beyond. A single word like this can shift one’s frame of reference radically, to question all one’s assumptions and offering the potential of a more holistic and limitless way of thinking and being.

Cáithnín is another fine example of how a single word can unlock the hidden richness in our lives and landscape. It means a speck of dust, a husk of corn, a snowflake, a subatomic particle and a miniscule smidge of butter, or anything tiny that gets into the eye and irritates it. But, most evocatively of all, it also means the goosebumps you feel in moments when you contemplate how everything is interrelated and how tiny we are in relation to the whole, like that feeling when you realise, or, maybe, remember, that we are all one – all unified.

In this way, cáithnín, becomes like a koan or mantra – a single word that brings you right around the universe from the infinitesimal to the infinite. It becomes a reminder from our past about how we once related to our environment and community, and how we might do so again.

Another example is scim, which means a thin coating of tiny particles, like limewash on a house or dust on a mantelpiece. These are good practical, pragmatic meanings that any lexicographer would be comfortable with, but there are other more nebulous ones which might prove more challenging for the limited claustrophobic way of thinking that we now ascribe to in this age of empirical reasoning and narrow-mindedness. For example, scim can mean a fairy film that covers the land, or a magical vision, or, best and most alluring of all, succumbing to the supernatural world through sleep.

Just consider that notion for a while and you get a sense of the gateways, wormholes and rabbit warrens that the Irish language allows us access to, should we dare open ourselves to it. Might our world in its current state benefit from a language that allows for fairy films that cover the land, a language that offers the potential of being whisked away to the supernatural world through sleep?

Surely children would be more intrigued if, as well as teaching them that ceantar means region or locality, we also teach them its equal and opposite, altar, which means the other realm, the netherworld. After all, this way of seeing the world is instinctive to the young, who have no problem accepting the potential of the alternate dimensions of Narnia beyond the wardrobe or Hogwarts beyond platform 9¾ of Kings Cross Station.

Consider the word crithir: its basic meaning is a particle or a spark of flame or light, or the tiniest portion of something, but it has other meanings that can act as a wedge to prise open perspectives that would otherwise remain hidden. It can refer to the vulnerability and insubstantiality of solid objects; such as a swamp, or the trembling of the land in an earthquake, or the crumbling surface of ploughed land when dry after rain. Crithir means all these things.

This notion that our world is not as rigid or dense as we like to believe, has become more relevant with our growing awareness of quantum physics and how electrons are forever materialising, then dematerialising and reappearing somewhere else. All we really know is that our bodies, fields, mountains and stars are elementary particles, vibrating and fluctuating constantly between existence and non-existence – swarming in space, even when it seems that nothing is there. The fact that any solid, dependable mass that starts to quiver or falter can be referred to as crithir makes it an ideal term for the unpredictable and infinitesimal particles that we have delineated as the building blocks of all life.

These concepts are a bit bamboozling to all of us, but they might be easier to an Irish speaker who is already comfortable with the notion that a word like púicín can mean a supernatural covering that allows otherworldly beings appear unseen in this reality (as well as being a blindfold, a goat muzzle and a tin shade put over a thieving cow’s eyes). As an aside, the Irish for bamboozling is meascán mearaí, which also means going astray into other dimensions.

Now, with regard to this incantatory quality that Irish may possess, the best way of seeing it is through the first words ever composed by an Irish man, The Song of Amergin , which our chief poet and druid, Amergin, is said to have recited upon arriving in Ireland on April 1st, 700BC. He immediately begun uttering an incantation, summoning up the world that we intended to create here through his words. Ancient languages, when spoken by shamans and sorcerers, seemingly had this ability to not only describe an item, but help condense it from a parallel amorphous world of potential into a tangible, crystallised reality.

Amergin’s first stanza “Am gaeth i m-muir, Am tond trethan, Am fuaim mara”, (I am wind on sea, I am ocean-wave, I am roar of sea) clarified the interrelation between this world and all other planes of existence – physical and spiritual. It was a declaration of the unity of all things and it’s what, more or less, everything in our lives has been based upon ever since. We’re all here because of Amergin – his incantation summoned us into existence, or at least propelled us forward. And ever since we’ve been here – farming, fighting, mating and, eh, baking.

Yes, baking. As a way of delving deeper into these issues I’ve created a show called Arán agus Im , in which I summon the powers of wild yeasts and invisible bacteria to perform alchemy on milled grain and water, transforming them into bubbly universes of sourdough bread. In the show, which the Abbey Theatre is touring to Limerick, Cork, Galway and Dublin this summer, I’ll be baking bread and delving deep into language issues, while the audience get to perform their own alchemy, creating butter from cream to spread on my fresh bread made of grains grown in Ireland.

The Abbey will also be touring my show Gaeilge Tamagotchi in which I bestow rare and endangered words upon members of the public who agree to nurture and nourish them, words like lóipín, the cloth fixed on a hen’s claws to stop it scratching the earth or the pieces of jute put on a donkey’s hooves to keep them from slipping on frost. Or seithreach, the wistful voice of a mare calling for her foal, or the sound horses make when they meet after an absence.

The truth is that Irish is an ideal tool to help reorientate us back to what we have forgotten about our connection with the world around us.

Its arcane structures and lack of clear rules can make it feel chaotic and uncontrollable, but therein lies its power. If we dare to dive in and escape the grips of its more pedantic gate-keepers and spirit-crushed naysayers, there are worlds of new perspectives and experiences awaiting.

Arán & Im and Gaeilge Tamagotchi tour to Lime Tree Theatre, Limerick, 20-21st July; Abbey Theatre, Dublin, 17-18th Aug, Town Hall Theatre, Galway 14-15th Sept; Cork Opera House, Cork, 21-22th Sept. abbeytheatre.ie

Anne Tyrrell-Gogan
Ballymac Lodge
Ballymacmorris
Kilbeggan
Co. Westmeath

+353 834192647

2 May 2018

Living a Reality of Unity

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There is a difference between learning about something and getting access to it. There are ways to comprehend that actually give us access to a reality of unity and how it functions right here and right now in the everyday world – even though often hidden from view in the reality of separation we were born into. Liz, a participant in the Architect Spiral, does a great job of presencing the access she got to her reality in new ways in her email to me. I asked her if I could post it in my diary. I loved her insights as well as her humor. Enjoy!

April 25, 2018

Thoughts on the Now

There are so many events and ways of being swirling around in my cells and being right now. I have been listening to the Direct Link Architect call incessantly since Sunday…it has become my morning practice. Inside that, each time I listen, I get visual pings and keep wanting to create a visual mandala, or roadmap of sorts as to what I heard…yes, a road map…this call didn’t lay out as a mandala, though I did feel such a spiraling as each of us shared. I just haven’t had time to put my pencils to paper and play with it.

Tonight’s Tantra Talk was fascinating. At the same time I was listening, I was in a shopping mall having to buy some appropriate attire for two events I am going to in the next two days. This was the only time I had, so I included the both/and of the experience. Tomorrow I am getting a rotary award…very honored, but had nothing to wear that was appropriate. Friday, we are going to my daughter’s school auction and I had nothing to wear for that. So at the same time I am hearing Tantra ask us to take out pencil and paper, I am walking down an escalator. I included it all and knew I would listen again and take notes. I am glad I just listened. I had to include a lot as I listened. Mall music in the background, people talking, the bright lights of a store, but interestingly, those distractions really fell away, and I was buying what I had to buy at the same time as I was very intent upon the conversation coming into the body…fascinating being in the both/and!

A couple of things pinged especially. One about not being able to language something. I had an ah-ha around this. Last week and on Monday, I assessed a colleague’s 4th-grade daughter. We thought the child might have math challenges. I gave her a math test I wasn’t familiar with, so there was a huge learning curve for me, and I wasn’t feeling confident about scoring the test and being able to speak confidently about it. On Monday, I realized I had to give the entire test, and not just a few sections, as I had hoped I would be able to do. As I asked the various test questions, the child would ask these pristine, stellar, stunning questions back that completely clarified the concept being tested. I was stymied as to how to language the thrill I felt when listening to this child, and how to report out on her clarity of being. She is really smart, does not have math challenges, just lacks some confidence in a few skills. As I heard Tantra talk around this way of being, of not being able to give language to things, I realized that not only could I not find the language in the meeting with the mom/colleague this morning, but that it didn’t matter. What I did convey landed perfectly. The mom lit up like a Christmas tree as I fumbled through what I had to say. But more importantly, I realized it was the field we created together, myself and the child, that was what I couldn’t language. There was a crackling electricity when that child asked her beautiful questions. At the same moment, as I felt the energy, I observed her voice resonance and looked at her hands. Inside my being, I heard the words, “She’s perfect!” The clarity that is this child’s field was so pristine, I wanted to weep. What IS that? I know it is something REALLY big! I could sit here and speculate for days about it. But what I want to train my lens on is the way I felt, and what I was present to. It’s a new reality! It’s a new way of seeing/being with a human being! I couldn’t language this to the mom, though if I had said this, she might have gotten it. She knows me well enough to know when I speak, even if she doesn’t hear everything, that I have her children’s best interests in my heart. This whole thing was so magical! I would have to say this is the first time I have felt a child’s field in this way. So I will track this now and see what happens.

The other piece I really got was the conversation around percentages of ways of being. I really like that and want to try it on. The other part of my very long day today at work was that I was feeling vulnerable. I had a latex reaction last night after I was tying latex balloons in preparation for the school auction Friday. Steve got me Benedryl, but my body was feeling a tad out of balance today. I spoke with my eyes, and immune system, thanking them for working on my behalf. I said I knew I was a tad out of balance and said that I would do my best to work with everyone in letting the systems balance out. I know the vulnerability is part of a new recursion coming online, and I allowed myself to just feel the vulnerability and be with it. There were some moments when I became very stressed and felt old paradigm drama come into play around how I was feeling. I recognized it, and immediately thought, okay, what is the good part of this situation? The stress was coming from the paperwork that needs to be done over and beyond what I expected and how was I going to accomplish it all with integrity. I have a new supervisor whom I know and worked with last year. She just started yesterday and met with my team today. She said I would need to generate the paperwork and have three extra meetings I wasn’t counting on. At the same time, I was freaking about having to schedule meetings and do the paperwork, I was saying to myself how thrilled I was to have her on board because I trust her implicitly, and know that she will take our cases to our director and lay them out with integrity. I couldn’t think in percentages, but I could think in duality, non-duality. So as I was telling her I wasn’t certain about being able to write goals for a student that would be accurate enough, she was telling me she knew it would all work out and be fine. I believed her. My whole day has been like this…whole week actually. While one thing would have me become present to stress, the next would mitigate the stress.

While I was shopping, I saw how much money I was spending, and getting nervous about it. The next minute, the cashier worked a deal that saved me a bunch of money. Seriously…the next minute! She even told me when I chose shoes to come up to her and she would discount those too! She gave the shoe guy his commission too and didn’t take it for herself. I promised her I would do a survey on her behalf. Was she just helping me out to do well in the survey? No! That’s the way she was! I was so grateful and told her so.

In another moment on the call…this one is pretty funny, I was trying on a bra because I needed it for the dress I bought. As Tantra was talking about percentages, I literally got stuck! I couldn’t get the bra off! It was hilarious! I had one headphone dangling down the front of me, and one in my ear, as I am trying to be present to not panicking! So…I went, hmmm, what percentage am I stuck here? 50%? Okay…I took some deep breaths, and calmed my breathing, and slowly got myself unstuck. Breathing, laughing, and hearing Tantra and feeling the field all helped me handle the situation! I didn’t get that particular bra size, needless to say!

Being immersed in the language of the field has been wonderful. I feel it inside my cells, inside my mouth, and my hands, and my whole being. I feel it everywhere. It is palpable now.

29 April 2018

To the Spirals 4.29.18

Tantra Maat Creation, Language of Creation, Mind, Unity 0

We are at work in the second level of consciousness, Mind of Creation, that we are maturing through our time together. In May, we will work to mature [or evolve if that word can be kept out of its historic entrapment] the corpus callosum of our brain. This part of our brain in where the syntonization of the right and left brain functions take place. It is also where our biological structure that has not matured to meet our evolutionary needs is having a very difficult time. For me, bipolar is one of our evolutionary challenges, not a psychological disease.

Please take a minute and go to this website called the inner body. Look at everything between the corpus callosum and the pituitary. Get to know your corpus callosum, hypothalamus, your thalamus, your pituitary and your fornix.We will discuss this on May 5th when we begin our focused work to develop a direct link with our brain. When you go through the areas between the corpus callosum and the pituitary, think beyond the biochemical functions. Think from a perception of consciousness. What is the biological mechanism of your consciousness in your brain? For instance, isn’t it interesting that your nostril fibers and your optic fibers come together in the area often called in eastern tradition the third eye? What does that say about what is possible and what could be amiss without you being in a direct relationship with this extraordinary design of Creation?

To find this website was a godsend because I have been looking visuals to support our ability to get ‘into’ our brain and be ‘one with our brain’. Finally, in my metastate this morning, the patterning of our exploration came to me. I imagined I was walking through the metapoints duality/nonduality worksheet looking at what was coming into existence as something was going out of existence. I was looking at what was expanding as something was collapsing, and what was constructing as something was deconstructing. As I did this, I remembered the work I had given the Architects regarding percentages. In simple terms, ‘something’ cannot be all that is in existence or there would be no existence. Existence in the physical world includes thinking, feeling, sensing, etc. This is what fouls up affirmations and intentions because as something begins to come into existence, what is reflected upon is where it is not in existence, not where it is in existence. That is why percentages are so important as a brain exercise because you want something to come into existence only enough that it can sustain its existence in your reality but not to take over everything. This is why often people who win the lottery or have sudden fame broke inside because they have no ability to be both famous and not famous, wealthy and not wealthy. You must make peace with duality before you can gain entrance into the kingdom of nonduality. Our topic for May.

As I was meandering through my mind, I was doing the duality/nonduality worksheet in my thinking. I was thinking my contentment percentage being with my oldest son and his family who I have not been with for two years. Here was the thought, “I am 87% content and 13% is still misfiring.” I was so struck by the word misfiring because of a question I have been asking my inner awareness for some time. It wasn’t that I was 13% discontent which is usually how duality works here and where we begin to come into unity with the dual systems here. I realized that I was on the border of the next recursion of Being in which the baseline would be 100% content. What that means is that I would cross from duality into nonduality where metastates exist that become the ‘water of consciousness’ we start to exist in. We do not have the dual ‘state’ there where something has become embodied. For instance, I can tell as a state of being I exist in a metareality of happiness but I am not always happy. It means I can still find happiness in myself systemically even in my worst days where I am overcome with unhappiness as an emotion but not as a state of being.

What was the question I had been asking myself for some time? It is, “What is it I do?” I know what happens out of the work I do. The core nature of a human being begins to re-member itself as its extraordinary design. This is the simplest way of saying it. It is why I keep working because I know that the core nature of a human being has been displaced by needing to belong to so many structures that have no interest in what a person is – only in what they do. I have rarely if ever answered the question, “What do you do?” I have often answered, “I give you what you don’t know you need.”

Somehow wandering around in the depth of my higher consciousness, the answer came. I woke fearful to say what it was. I found that interesting because the odds are people won’t understand what I do any more than they did before. It was just that it was so spot on. I have made a promise since the beginning of the year to not try to bridge to the popular reality of separation nor try to bridge to the perceptions connected to that reality. I promised to stay true to the reality of unity rising in the midst of the reality of separation we were born into. That doesn’t mean it isn’t challenging. But if I don’t state what I know to be real [in the Creation Exercises 3 ‘what I do is for me is] then how can I be there for others who find their language of creation and are able to finally language themselves as their direct link with Creation.

Here is what I found language for in the question, ‘what do I do’. As the language unfolded, I realized that a part of me that did not yet have language has always been completely aware that is what I do. I just didn’t have language for it. I want to restate there is what you do and what happens out of what you do which is for another day. What happens goes what beyond what I do. In my case what I do begins to reset the entire field within which the human beings exists so that they can ‘be themselves’. I am actually quite excited about getting the language and can’t wait to have that language in the second part of the Crystalline Grid activation because it will give others a way to be consciously conscious in their systems of Being also.

What I do:

I repair the firewall* between the sensitivities, sensations, and ‘bit‘s** of intelligence that exist in the person’s nature of Being and the personality framework that was created to survive in the reality of separation they were born into. Then I create a buffer made of their Being to regenerate the trauma of not being able to be in connection with themselves into the life force energy of their direct link with Creation.

*A firewall typically establishes a barrier between a trusted internal network and untrusted external network

**A bit (short for binary digit) is the smallest unit of data in a computer.

Use your imagination to see the correlate!

I have made this letter to you as part of my diary. I am so proud of the work we are doing. I love it when people work on behalf of themselves as well as the consciousness of all.

Do you see me dancing?!!!

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