When I am doing the Activation of Our Sacred Tail, Kea and I will be streaming across the soft waters of the Primordial Mother toward Freeport in the Bahamas. Am I on vacation? No. We will leave the evening of the 10th of December and return on the morning of the 12th. It is no accident that I am doing the second of a series of activations while we are on the waters. It is also no accident that it is our sacred tail. that we will be activating. Even as you read this, don’t you feel the aquatail going down in the water of the Mother and then lifting high into the cosmic sky. And then, other Geometries coming awake to the movement, to take in and open up into the cosmological being you are. I am fine if people want to stay corruptedly spun in the mediocrity of form that has them handicapped and broken in a matrix of separation that is mistaken for reality. Me, I am thrilled at how, in the midst of the destruction, our ancient original forms are rising. You can read more about that below.
Also for me, we are in this together, as conscious beings, operating on behalf of life and what has us return to that which is the whole system of which we are a part: paradise. I am not only a cellular empath, but I am also, as a Being, a geopathic and electromagnetic empath. I empathically move between human beings and the forces and powers of creation seeking the algorithms of harmony, balance, symmetry, proportion, and beauty. I deeply appreciate those who use my capacity and support it. I was born this way but never have I experienced more dimensional restoration happening the higher octaves which will over time, with our help move faster, restore the greater dimensional grid of so above, so below that once existed here.
It is this nature of Being I carry that is taking me to the Bahamas. The Maat of it: the primordial unity between the cosmos and the planet that brings about harmony, balance, proportion, symmetry, and beauty. This is what we are part of, what we are made of, and what we are designed to have an awakened consciousness regarding. We cannot restore the human spirit here in the ravages of the destructive path that the reality of survival has set upon us. We can, however, go into the higher etheric and find where the remembrance, point of origin, algorithms [so many ways to say it – few understood] still is maintained. Then draw its remembrance back into the planet and back into her forms. This is an active activity not passive. This activity deletes the pathways of trauma in the human spirit and brings back the strength, stamina, and capacity to build again without trauma a pathway back to paradise.
Do you know that even if the matter of the Bahamas goes beneath the waves, which I am not saying it will, that the spirit of paradise that was associated with the Bahamas will maintain until conditions are right for the essence, the algorithm of its point of origin to rise again…just like Atlantis. For now, it is important to me that the people of the Bahamas and their spirit is renewed and refreshed by the harmony, balance, proportion, symmetry, and beauty through the restoration of their higher consciousness. This is why I am going to the Bahamas. Part of the etheric track to not only restore the matrix of paradise but have the spirit of paradise not be destroyed by human folly and the victims of that folly.
In December 2012 I began a series activating the Sacred Geometries of the Human Form.
At that time, I wrote that we must begin to know ourselves as Energetic Beings. Since that time, we have paid more attention to our energetic form. Now in 2019, as we move more and more into our sentient intelligence – our direct link with Creation, we may actually have restored our energetic forms without having the registers for them. This produces a conundrum because our bodies have adapted to survive without them. But only to survive, no longer able to experience the profundity of our natural natures.
These Activations will facilitate a huge awakening in our ability to register and comprehend our energetic structures.
We were never meant to be separated. We are a FleshSpirit, EthericPhysical, TemporalEternal Being. The conditions are amazing now. We are in metamorphic anomalies of restoration at this. It is important to support our matter in this as our physicalness has been conditioned to forget and only operate in survival. There is resistance and this is sad for me. We should be able to revel in the restoration of our systems. The Activation is about relaxing the system so it can remember and revel in how these sacred geometries connect us to a system of paradise beyond survival.
I am thrilled that the next recursion of one of the original natures of our original design is coming online. It will be fascinating to see our experience after all these years.
Yes, I am clairaudient, clairsentient, and clairvoyant. Yes, I am a prophetess, a mystic, a seer.
After over half a century of doing consults and living with the great mystic realms that lay in wait for their human counterparts, at 73, I am what I am and glad for it. In that vein, I invite you into a story that is quite real, and yet, not for everyone. Therefore, l will seek to present it here, as graciously as I can, as a story.
I have never understood why when the voices come to me they are either masculine or feminine. Except for the Beings from the Cosmos that invited myself and others to Shasta. They were neither masculine nor feminine.
I know there is such a bogeyman about this. “Oh, my child, only that which seeks to do you harm will whisper in your ear, compelling you to its bidding.” What a pity for we are not alone and without what loves us beyond measure and operates on behalf of life here, we are lonely beyond measure.
I also have evidence as well as there are people who have walked with me this lifetime, that have realized, I am, indeed, the real deal. Baby bears come to be with me. The ancient planetary gods and goddesses of Ireland come so that I may be counseled. My family’s gardener, Frank, when I was young came screaming into our kitchen bug-eyed! Thank goodness, no one else was home! He would have been fired for being crazy. He had met my friend, my male fairy friend Tomsy. They were both equally startled. Tomsy had a better sense of humor about it. I think today, 2019. 11.03, I am just tired of trying to frame what is hidden from view beyond most people as only my imagination. Why? because global warming and human folly for those who have become separated from the original design here are not only putting at risk human existence. What is at risk is the very life of this planet and her ability to birth, nourish, and care for all her creations that were made from the intelligence of the cosmos.. what humans refer to as consciousness.
I forgot to set up a Building the G.O.D. Matrix Call for Saturday, November 2nd, 2019. A few days before the call, I was sent an email I never saw.
“Some precious part of me is craving today’s monthly call regarding BUILDING A G.O.D. MATRIX WITH CREATION! And so I wonder if it is happening as I don’t see it on the Upcoming Events on your website.
I look forward to hearing from you whenever the time is right : )”
Then yesterday, I was sent another email,
With Love, Anne
She sent another email the 1st I never saw, and finally on Saturday, the day of the call, in the afternoon long after the call was scheduled. Below are her email and my reply.
“Holy mother Anne! I can’t believe I dropped it out. Wow! I was just in a conversation about this yesterday and it completely went out of my head. I will have to look at how to rectify this as I broke my word with Creation. Bless you…I can’t wait to see what this was about. I love you sooooooo much. Tantra Maat”
“Oh Bless and thank you Tantra, and I look forward to hearing you ‘seeing what this was about. Something’ just nudged me to ask you about the call and it felt important… even though it took a little courage to ask, especially on the double! You have possibly by now seen the second email I sent you… so I did persist!”
For now, I’ll say goodnight.
I love you, Anne
Something’ just nudged me to ask you about the call and it felt important.
This is the way of it. When the powers and forces of Creation are making contact. What is curious is I had been so excited. The structure of consciousness that had presented me with this not-of-this-reality-of-separation activity had finally begun to give me what the G.O.D. activity of unity with the power and force of Creation was all about. I actually couldn’t wait to the call.
Then, there had been knowing, after we had done the in-person Timeless Time Day in the summer, that I needed to set up a 6-month activity to build a new consciousness in people that were clearly rising. When new realities are forming, they have their own Time Quadrant that is not like the realities that are passing away. I need to introduce people to what was rising in them regarding Time. What I did not expect was the overwhelming response.
People are listening
I told Anne that I couldn’t wait to see what my missing the call, not even scheduling it was all about. It didn’t take long. I was supposed to do a ritual on Friday that was scheduled in my work with Damanhur. I really did not want to do it and was really fight doing it. The people I was coming to do it with miscommunicated and I came after the scheduled time and I admit was relieved. I am sometimes very cantankerous around not doing what I don’t want to do. I was thrilled. The rebellious side of me had won. Until they let me know that the other window was today, Sunday and they set up everything so I could do it then plus I would be doing it with one of my Beloveds and I would never mess with that.
How do I tell you?
I love the G.O.D.s of Creation of which I am a part. I can’t even wiggle out of that amazing bond if I wanted to. I am so taken care of and loved and also stopped when I need to be so I am always moving with the powers of Creation that operate on behalf of Life and what has us exist as whole.
The last few days were a way of providing evidence.
Anne, following her nudge and contacting me. I might have never remembered. The people coming on board for Timeless Time with really no mental concept of what it was all about. The threads of the dimensional meeting places of ourselves and that which we are a part of in the Realms of the Beloved. All growing more and more palpable every day. I have to smile. There is a Time beyond the linear time quadrant that is the interactive, interrelated, symbiotic Time of who we are and what can be created when we find ourselves in unity with Creation. This is the new futures rising I had spoken about for many years. We have arrived.
I would not have been writing this journal entry of the above series of events that hadn’t happened.
And besides, the G.O.D.s of Creation don’t exactly follow the linear path of the first Saturday of every month, do they?
All in G.O.D.’s [the Generating Organizing Designs of Creation] good time.
“Dear Trudy, thanks for making our stay here so jam-packed and fun-filled. Sorry to abort our mission — it is not over, just temporarily scrapped. We have been ordered to go to a higher bio-vibrational plane. Just wanted you to know, the neurochemical imprints of our cardiocortical experiences here on earth will remain with us always, but what we take with us into space that we cherish the most is the ‘goosebump’ experience.”
from The Search for Intelligent Life in the Universe
written by Jane Wagner & Lily Tomlin
The month of November is dedicated to the power of our Primordial Mother who is gathering her forces and powers on behalf of All Life here We will need to cope successfully with this. The call has gone out to the cosmic kingdom to come and aid her Beloveds. It is not mine to know if they will listen. It is only mine to know that I will provide what is needed where I am standing so that those who are part of the new futures rising can awaken on behalf of all life here.
Before I stress the critical nature of this course, I wish to let you know a few things. One is the course is always available to you whether you attend or not. The course will be available for purchase after each live course is complete. I did Timeless Time in one day and people purchased it later. It was done in person so people did not really have any idea what was going on, but they shifted anyway.
How do I tell you what your ears cannot hear and your eyes have not seen? How do I advertise what is beyond what you have been told is going on here. Most of you getting this email have done consults with me – some of you recently… Isn’t it amazing how you could hear what you knew was there but couldn’t hear before the telling? This is the same as Timeless Time. It fills in a gap in the emptiness of new threads of new realities rising. I have read so many people lately who are of the new beginnings. I can empower your direct link with Time because we need your direct link.
The future depends on you. You have to look where you haven’t looked before to see it.
…not linear time
….not eternal time
…time that is unfolding within you
Then you can interface with the realities that were generated within other forms of time.
Let the future that is unfolding unfold you as part of new futures rising. You cannot do that without establishing a new type of Time.
Try to purchase every call. There is a barrier between you and Timeless Time. We have to move through collapsed consciousness and lost registers to find it.
Might be a good idea for us to get out of the way. And something that’s so hard to hear really shows life that we love life in whatever form it comes to us. Really shows what gave us life, that it was worth its time to create us. That we remember that we’re born of wonder. And in this particularly murky time, that there is still that dove, there is still that hummingbird, feel the light coming from dusk to dawn, still good movies, good food. Still, environments in our world that are really beautiful, there is always something. There is never nothing.
I would like talk with you regarding money. I’d like to talk with you regarding architecting the reality of money. Perhaps I am a future being and what I speak of may not be common for humanity for centuries to come. Perhaps the only lens that humanity can see through is the lens of reality we were born into that separates us from ourselves, from others, and from life. But even if this is so, what I have learned, as a cellular empath, is that the cells of human beings remember. Encoded in the cells of many human beings is another reality. In that reality, we as a species in unity with Creation, create our physical reality through what we do, how we design, and how we operate.
It is time to screech to a halt and realize that we are the change we seek. We are the architects of our own existence even within the confines of the world we were born into. Even within the confines of the world we were born into, we need to make space to be ourselves.
The most common challenge in the thousands of people whose lives I have engaged with is that the Template of Creation within them, cannot seem to manifest here. What do I mean by a ‘Template of Creation’? Your ‘Template of Creation’ reveals itself in a phrase like, “I feel there is something I am to do here, but I can’t find it”. The problem is that most human beings seek to find what’s there’s to do in this reality. We must halt and realize that the reality we seek is ours to create in whatever small to large manner we can.
At this time, many human beings carry the seeds of new realities. This means we came to architect own existence according to our own terms of engagement. We often see this in art and music, but we do not always see people’s ability to architect within the structural functions of their everyday lives. One of these functional structures of our society is money.
Pardon me as I mention G.O.D. The definition of “God” that I use, is a generic term. We exist in a creative universe that is organized and designs zillions of realities. This creative unity has a Generating Organizing Design, (G.O.D.). These larger systems of Creation are irrefutable, innate, viable and natural. We experience this G.O.D. in our instincts, our intuition, our vision, our hunches, and the compulsions of our ‘need to create’ natures. We often say we feel in sync, or we feel a synchronicity, or that life is being serendipitous. There is a freedom when we are connected to the greater whole of which each of us is a unique and essential part. What we feel is ours to do resonates even in the face of great opposition, some of that opposition exists in our own mind. i.e. why I created to the Creation Exercises was to increase our capacity to create from our G.O.D. that exists in unity with Creation.
One of the challenges of humanity is the Generating Organizing Design of Creation that is what we are and what we are a part of has been misconstrued. In other words, much of humanity has lost touch with being part of the greater systems of Creation. Whether these systems are perceived as being part of the universe, or part of deistic principles, somehow humanity lost its way. While it has not been my experience after reading thousands of people, that we were the cause of being lost, nonetheless, something did happen that had us lose our way. During these times, many human beings, however, are finding their way back in compulsions that are their direct link with Creation. Their G.O.D.
I have spoken of 2018 and 2019, as years of new forms. These new forms are pulsing into our everyday existence. How we do our day? How we organize our time? What we stand for? What we find ourselves risking regardless of what we put ourselves through. What we find we can no longer tolerate. And then there is the final hour. The beauty of the moment. While for millennia, humanity has been conned into looking to authorities outside themselves to tell them what to do. That is no longer the case. Now we are confronted with going into ourselves.
Many human beings are beginning to self-source. How we do our job, what job we do, how we do relationships. HOW we live is starting to matter more than any threat, real or imagined, of our survival. This is what I mean by the term, “self-sourcing”. It is a given that those human beings who tap into their unique and essential design begin to self-source.
On a humorous note, years ago when I did the work of est with Warner Earhart, they had you do a process. You shouted at the top of your lungs, “If we’re not going to do it my way, we’re not going to do it at all!!” While I’m clear that was to break a pattern of reaction, what I took away from it, was “if I’m not going to do it my way, I’m not going to do it at all”.
I know this could be a radical statement and lends itself to assumptions like “how selfish”, oh so “self-absorbed”. But now, in these times, slowly but surely, the consciousness of humanity is changing. We now have phrases like to “To Thine Own Self Be True”, and “Know Thyself”. These phrases do not come from the selfishness and self-absorption bred from a reality of separation. “Know Thyself” and “To Thine Own Self Be True” come from a reality where we exist in unity with Creation, in unity with ourselves, and in unity our lives. You could say that self is the Self of Creation that is aware of what is his or hers to do, to be, and to have.
These last fifty years of working with human beings and supporting them and restoring their direct link with Creation has been profound. That journey has led many of us to this point in time. Somehow, as a culture, money has become for many their main G.O.D. – the controlling force of their lives. Not only those who accumulate it regardless of the cost to themselves, to others, and to life, but also to the general masses who labor under the bondage of their income that they fight every day to not have it define their worth.
I, like many of you, have been struggling out of this bondage much of my life. At one point in my life, I was quite financially affluent. Then one day, to make a long story short, I was watching an interview of myself on television in the Washington D.C. area, I was so fake. While I was smart, and actually had great knowledge, I could see somehow in all of that, I had lost myself. I had one of those realizations that change your life forever. I closed up shop and except for consults, did not do any group work for quite a few years. I did not keep doing the consults because of my fear of survival without them, I continued to do the consults because they were the one place I knew I was faithful to the design of the people I read. In being faithful to their design, I would be faithful to the next level to my own. There are many of us nowadays, who are aware of a reality, a way of life that does not presently exist as a collective. That makes us the leading edge of a new reality starting with our own personal lives.
We are the seeds of a new Renaissance and Our Time is Now.
It isn’t easy, but it is becoming more and more compelling. There is a practical side, to no longer being under the bondage of money as our G.O.D. You have to think things through. Figure out what you can impact and make peace with what at the moment you cannot. The decision you make within you, to no longer to be held captive, will slowly but determinedly untangle you from that which has bound you. AND what you are actually designed to be is growing stronger.
This is what makes it a Renaissance. Many of us will begin to generate ethical, moral and integral ways to support new realities of unity that are rising. A reality of unity is very simple. We would be our way of equity. Equity is the balance-point of care of ourselves, care of others and care of Life.
Now let’s look at money.
I am aware that the present structures of money entangle us in debts. I am aware that money has created a huge social imbalance. I’m aware that more and more for many people, their income does not cover even basic expenses. I’m also aware that while many people who are affluent, heap and hoard the wealth, there are also equally if not more, who do not.
I think it matters that we look at our relationship with money and empower our ability to bring our values to it.
I have had the good fortune to be self-employed. While I’m pretty sure my self-employment was generated by my intense need to be free, in the beginning, I had no idea what freedom really was. While now years later, in my seventies, facing the final section of my existence, it seems counter-intuitive that for the first time for me, freedom is at hand. As I look at what is the best place for me to contribute and how much time to I want for myself, I also have to look at my income and my expenses. I found I am grateful for all the struggles I went through making equitable choices regarding my pricing and my life.
I thought I would take a minute to share my own history regarding money. Also, in a moment of transparency, I wanted to share how I have constructed my present pricing in our changing times. It is my hope that is in some way you are inspired and that you are inspired to be more aware.
I always looked at my pricing from the perceptive of how the pricing supported my own and another’s growth and development. I have never gauged my pricing by any kind of norm. I have never charged two-hundred and seventy-five dollars for an initial consult because I thought it was my worth. I charge two hundred and seventy-five dollars for an initial consult to secure a person’s investment in themselves. And, to challenge myself to always be the best I can be.
When 2008 came, as a seer, I had already ‘seen’ a crisis around money coming. I had been fervently reducing my debt when the crisis came. Instead of charging two hundred and seventy-five dollars for any type of consult, I dropped the price of a follow-up consult to one hundred and eighty. Instinctively, I still felt the need for a human being to invest in themselves was essential. I knew in 2008 we were headed into difficult times. I saw that the more people paid attention to themselves and had a way to restore their true nature, the more they would be able to make it through these now occurring years.
In the 1980s, I walked away from a rapidly growing business and made a decision to not be a spokesperson for the masses. I intentionally stepped out into a growing reputation to search for the people who I felt would be essential to the new realities that would form twenty years later.
That Time is Now.
As we moved through 2012, I watched a crisis building in the misalignment of our relationship with money. I knew, however, people would rise to the occasion and face their fears and work to create their financial lives from a place of value not only to survive and accumulate. I knew that soon, it wouldn’t matter the age or the income. I knew that there would be visionaries who would be visionaries within their own lives. I knew a new renaissance would rise where we would begin to create newly our relationship to money, wealth, and what defines survival.
Now, in 2018, there is a very clear division of wealth. Many more clients are struggling financially. What we used to be able to make is shrinking and the cost of living is increasing. I knew it was time to reflect on this division of wealth ethically, morally and integrally in my pricing.
I have the opportunity to engage with people who are quite affluent and deeply committed to the future of humanity. I also have had the opportunity to engage with people who have given up their lucrative jobs to follow their own equity. I have had the opportunity to work with people who have left their jobs, to care for their dying parent, even in the face of no idea what they can do in the future. And I’ve had the opportunity to work with people who are resetting their direct relationship with their lives, to be more the lives of who they came to be. We are redefining even what we consider wealth. I predict that in the near future our definition of wealth will be our value of life not the number of zeros in our checkbook. More and more people are finding the value of themselves in themselves and no longer define themselves by their income, by their status, or by their life challenges.
These are challenging times for us all. Who we came to be is our equity: our ethical, moral, and, integral existence. The new Renaissance, that we are part of, is the restoration of the foundational value of Life.
I now have two pricing structures. You will see there are two sets of prices. This is to take care of our times. This is what I need to do so that I’m available to those to whom I can be of use. In my structure of equity, the baseline of all my actions is that we be aware. This is why I continue to do consults. For when we are aware, we have the ability to choose. We have the ability to see what is before us and make good choices. When we are not aware, we cannot see and are at the effect of our fears. Our ability to choose is compromised. This is why I wrote this blog. It is important to me, that you are aware of the structure of pricing I architected in honor of our times and to support the new realities rising. Inspire yourself with your courage. Especially your courage around money.
Live on Facebook A Sacred Space for Rest and Courage tomorrow 6:30 am pst April 1st
I will be on instantteleseminar also. See information below. If you are reading this blog later, the replay link is listed.
So much is happening in the moment. We are being awakened into another reality that is not only emerging and disrupting this one but is now the very vibrational energy field that our physical and mental systems are reacclimating to. I have been calling what myself and others are in a ‘vibrational detox’. I want to talk about it, raw feed because it is happening in the now. This is very different than what we will decide happened to us during these times later. This is our now.
I especially think talking about what I am present to tomorrow is spiritually important. After all, Jesus is one of the many who predicted these times and whose field phenomenon of unity gave me the strength to trust my own love, my own experience of existence beyond suffering, and my own delight in our original design. It is very possible for those drawn to the Awakening into the Christ Consciousness – that time is now.
“The idea of rising into a higher state of being is an exciting premise I so well remember during Easter. Not the punishment, not the sacrifice, but the renewal and ascension back to a place of which we began.”
I wrote on FB A Sacred Space for Rest and Courage: “I have been wondering this morning about what use it is to share anymore. I am so clear and every day there is so much more evidence that there are human beings who systems are shifting into a new paradigm of reality – yes I’ve been saying it for a while – “a reality of unity”. How many more of us are there?
I don’t want to reach the masses because by all accounts the masses don’t catch on right away.
I would, however, like to find those who systems are shifting and support them. The problem right now is perception. People whose systems are shifting are still caught in perceptions of who they were and what is happening from the past. Those perceptions are no longer valid. The new perceptions are happening in hindsight when we rethink something profound that occurred that doesn’t fit with our present norm. This is what makes it so strange. There is an undercurrent of trust and awareness that is in truth the rising of a new way of existing but more importantly, a return to our original design of being. It’s actually beautiful and yet challenging because we are no longer who we were and we do not yet perceive what we are now. So much has happened these last three weeks. I would perceive an experience I had and a certain way and yet when I reflected back on it later I was stunned to find an awareness hidden in it that was so profound of such great value. Some of us are an emerging self in an emerging reality. I would love to share that with others but I am in a quandary about whether to do that or not. Perhaps this awakening is only for me. Frankly, I think that would be a shame.
Decided to do a Special Spirit Hour tomorrow at 6:30 am just in case that higher vibration that is reconstituting me at an atomic level is also vibrationally reaching out to others. Actually, tomorrow would be perfect. This is what Jesus, whose death we celebrate tomorrow, predicted.
My muse, Lara, read what I wrote on FB and this was her response:
It sounds like things coming to a head, a culminating point – unity future crashing into the now. Tantra, social expectation of developmental mainstream ways has never been your norm. You’re guided by the primordial source of existence itself. I think Creation will guide those into your field who innately resonate with the frequency of your support, your words that create worlds.
Maybe few or many who knows.
Well, to whoever is out there who feels the call! Going to give it a go….can’t not do it so it is mine to do.
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Love is not just an emotion. It is our DNA. Love is not just random experience. It is the very foundation of our health and happiness. It is in truth the only thing that is ours. We human being have sought love through connections outside of us and sometimes been bitterly disappointed and sometimes well rewarded. But that is not where love exists. You were always the ones who brought love to the table. Love is yours regardless of what called it to the surface. That is what there is to honor. Your Love.
I did a recording for several people who are challenged by incredible losses around love. I recorded because what I care about is that their love does not die and what they brought to the relationship whether it was a partnership relationship or a guru relationship, how the brightness of life was increased because of their love. Love heals all. Love reweaves our reality into a reality of unity. Love is what binds us together as a human family. We have talked about forgiveness, repenting, judgment, protecting…but none of that matters if we just work hard in any way we can to keep ‘our’ love alive.
The written edited and added to the version of the recording.
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When I was a little girl, I had the opportunity to exist until I was around three years old in a reality of unity. It was right here on this Earth. It was in my connection to my dolls, to my dog, to my kitty. It was right here on Earth. It was when I was eight months old. Then I remember pulling myself up cause there was light outside that I now know were my windows. It was right there. I wasn’t separate from it. And it wasn’t separate from me. The only thing in that reality I found confusing was the taller people -didn’t know they were people at the time – who came to take care of me. They seemed disconnected.
And then one day, I got into my mother’s mind. And although I was only three years old, I knew that something was terribly wrong. In that brief moment of seeing through her eyes, I saw the world from a whole different place. Painful, frightened, but the worst part was my world slipped away. Everything but its memory.
This year, I’ll be seventy-two years old. Sixty-nine years later, and I’m grateful for those years because that memory was of a reality. It wasn’t a memory of a people. It was about a reality. So, my entire life I have been fighting my way back to that memory. I knew it could live here, and that it did: in Nature, in the Elements, sometimes inside us.
As I got older and became wizened in my otherworldly ways, I realized that someday, humanity would have to realize that people are not the problem. There seem to be two realities that have woven their ways into this place. One reality operates consistently with the planet Herself: all life operates on behalf of all life. There were smaller units of life and larger units of life, all in unity with each other, and they all make up this extraordinary texture, sound, visual environment of Creation.
It actually seemed that the only place that had become damaged was a human being.
Oh yeah, I know the story…
“We fell from Grace. We’re working out karma”
I just disagree.
Because there is not one human being that doesn’t walk out the door of their home, and at some moment pause to look at the sunset, or stand under the stars, or turn to kiss the forehead of their child, regardless of what they’re about to do during their day.
Has something corrupted the integral Design of this species?
I think so.
But I don’t want to get into that today…
2018 is a year, like no other year, maybe in all of human history.
It’s all about L.O.V.E.
We’ve learned through vibrational awareness that L.O.V.E can be experienced as tragedy, as trauma, as addictive need, as co-dependency, or as unconditional and eternal depending on the level of frequency you vibrate in.
But what is our Design?
Isn’t our Design to L.O.V.E. without measure?
To have our L.O.V.E. not conditioned in any manner, even if we don’t know how to express it unconditionally. It doesn’t matter. We know inside. We know inside who we are. We know that our greatest desire is to experience L.O.V.E.
I know that this conversation isn’t for everybody. There could be plenty of people that are not interested in love anymore. But I am and I believe others are.
This Is For You… Hold On, Hold On To L.OV.E. Nobody Can Take That Away From You. No Evil, No Human, Nothing Can Take Your L.O.V.E Away from You.
This unity-lateral, inseparable dominion of connection I once swam in I later realized was what we call L.O.V.E. Do you know that in a reality of unity, L.O.V.E. never dies. It is Life Opening up into the Vibration of the Eternal. And the eternal never dies.
I also learned that there is a boundary-marker. It’s actually a psychic boundary-marker. “Psychic” comes from the word “Psyche” – which means “the Mind of the Soul.” A blockage in our mind between the mind of our soul and our human mind. “There be demons there!” an old evangelist preacher once told me.
I went through this many years ago, through this boundary-marker. It has very clear parameters. You can think of it in an electrical sense. The shock of it is so severe, it could collapse you forever. There are unsavory natures at that boundary-marker. They have three names: One is Betrayal; the other one is Rejection; the other one is Abandonment.
When I hit that shock-field… Yes, there were circumstances that precluded that moment…I knew I had a choice. I could fall victim to the betrayal of another human being, someone I loved. I could fall victim to the rejection of all my ideals that lived in the love of that human being. I could fall victim to the threat that love would abandon me.
I wouldn’t have it.
But it wasn’t easy.
It took me about two years of rigor, but I was not going to give up my L.O.V.E. Not the objective, the object of my love. The objective, the object of my love was gone. I was not going to give up L.O.V.E. itself.
It Was My L.O.V.E. That I Was Not Going to Abandon.
It Was My L.O.V.E That I Was Not Going to Reject.
And It Was My L.O.V.E. That I Was Not Going to Betray.
We say so flippantly, we don’t know why we love a person, and then we spend… What is it? CENTURIES!… trying to figure out if it was a good love or a bad love. But that’s not L.O.V.E.
That Idea of Love is all gathered inside a reality of separation where we’re constantly fear being abandoned; fear being betrayed, fear being rejected. That fear underlies everything where we have been separated from unity with Creation.
When I was twenty-seven years old, my five-year-old boy, Jeremy, went into a coma for five days. He was on life-support. A Christian Science practitioner was there with me. We took a walk outdoors one day. Boy, did I hate God at that moment. I hated life. My love for my child was tearing me apart. I wanted it over, the pain, the anguish, what looked like years of unrelenting sorrow. I spit all this out at her.
I said, “This life is nothing more than that ugly, ugly sky.”
Storm clouds were rolling in everywhere.
She looked at me and smiled. And she said, “Then look higher”
And there were blue skies through the dark black turmoil.
I never forgot that.
Combining that experience and others. Years of exploration of the what restores unity in a human system. It was always L.O.V.E. I have seen as people repair their systems, their capacity for L.O.V.E. increases. Some people now understand that different realities exist at difference oscillating frequencies of energy and that L.O.V.E. is sustained and maintained in those higher frequencies. Some of us have discovered that in those higher vibrations that haven’t become personified, objectified, L.O.V.E. cannot be destroyed and is the very fabric of Creation.
I took two years claiming my own love. Not only claiming my own love, but my right to give my love wherever love might find me…regardless of circumstance…regardless of what looks like betrayal, abandonment, or rejection.
I made it through the boundary marker between the reality of separation I was born into to the other side where realities of unity still flourish.
And in that unity with all life, Nothing Takes Away My L.O.V.E. NOTHING.
I talked to someone who I L.O.V.E. very much last night. Their heart is broken. They have clearly in human terms, been betrayed. They have clearly in human terms been rejected. And in one of the most horrible ways I’ve ever heard, they’ve also been abandoned.
They said to me,
“I can’t stop loving them.”
And I said:
“Nor should you.”
And I shared that my whole life I had transformed and transformed… until Betrayal, Abandonment and Rejection Had No Home in Me.
2018: We are in a paradox right now. It would seem there is a reality that we were born into, and that, yes, we adapted to. A reality would have us trash love. If some of you made it so far in this reading or recording, you may be one of those who trashed love and maybe now reconsidering.
But what I have seen in the last few weeks is chilling.
In relationships that never had a problem, suddenly one of the partners abandons, betrays, and rejects the other partner in violent ways, emotionally, mentally, spiritually. It got my attention. It really got my attention. Then I started seeing it in small spiritual communities. It may even see it around me. Who knows. I started seeing the people who had stood for L.O.V.E; people who had been fighting for the Rights of others to love; the Way Showers; some who had dedicated their entire lives to the hope that humanity could remember. I saw it start to happen to them: this kick, this hit. This attempt to destroy L.O.V.E.
Realities are active fields they fight for their existence, just like a human being does. And what infested this world, has been fighting for sovereignty here. And it has one mission and one mission only: To Destroy L.O.V.E.
You can stay barbaric and ignorant and stuck in the black tar of ‘it’s all about people”, but it isn’t.
When YOU start to reclaim the rights to your love and to love again, L.O.V.E. can live again, and the realities of unity will thrive here once more. Some of you were trained by the best. It is my considered opinion that where people worked hard to get to a place of L.O.V.E., a wave of destruction is trying to take those places of L.O.V.E. down whether individually or collectively. I know. It has been happening for a long time. It has simply reached a peak now because L.O.V.E.is restoring and, within it, realities of unity. We are needed more than ever right now to cherish our L.O.V.E. regardless of the backlash around it.
It’s the other thing I’ve gotten to see on my journey…
I’ve watched a human being even gain divine status, begin to experience themselves as one with all of Creation and hold that field for others.
Wouldn’t you think they’re a prime target?
Don’t you think there would be an advantage to destroy them and in that destroy the L.O.V.E those that had learned from them had been given?
It is why I why I have always stood on behalf of Masters. And I have never abandoned them. And I’ve never betrayed them. And I’ve never rejected them because I too have felt the ‘hit’ when I go be there for others. I too have seen people’s love for me be destroyed. It is a revealing moment.
I got: Not my business. What others do with their L.O.V.E. is their business, not mine.
My business is To Restore a Reality of Unity That Exists Here, And in Every Human Being.
And We Are At That Epicenter Of What We Have Been All Been Working For Who Have Lived In The Name Of L.O.V.E. We Are Now The Ones Who Must Claim L.O.V.E. Our Own L.O.V.E. And Our Right to It.
What I did for L.O.V.E.: Sometimes it was valuable. Sometimes it was even very good. Sometimes it was foolish. A lot of times my L.O.V.E. fell short. I stay a constant new learner because of L.O.V.E.Below is a transcription of a conversation I recorded for those who are in the activity of love and the challenge of love before us. If you would rather listen to the audio click here. Is The Very Substance That This Species Was Designed To Exist As the Embodiment Of. It Is Not Outside Of Us Anywhere. It Is Our DNA.
2018 is a rough year for those of us who have lived in the Name of L.O.V.E., and for those of you who have lived in the Name of L.O.V.E without even realizing it.
All Those Aspects of Us Where L.O.V.E. Felt Abandoned. It’s Ours to Reclaim Now.
All Those Relationships That Hurt Because We Felt the Electrical Shock Of The Reality Of Separation razor Into Us like Barbwire. It’s Time To Not Have It Matter. It’s Time to Just Make It Past The Boundary. To Take the Shock, To Take hit of the Barbwire and Keep Walking… Until L.O.V.E Lives In Us Again, L.O.V.E and Its Rights, L.O.V.E. Wherever We Find It.
So Today is March 25th, 2018.
Even as a mystic, as a seer and as an otherworldly human, there is still a very real little old lady living on top of a hill who has walked this walk for many years. I chose human love. Even the gods know its power.
I Wish us luck… L.O.V.E. It is all coming to a head now. It’s up to us. We’re the ones who live here. We’re the ones that L.O.V.E. lives in.
I woke up into ‘we are in the disease’. We are not the disease. But, right now, we are in the aggravation of it.
The disease that separates us from our bodies, our mind, our spirit, and our connection with existence.
I don’t know if I can in any way fully unpack what this meant to me, but it was profound. Many people are physically, emotionally, spiritually, and mentally weaker right now.
This is what I wrote a client whose body is not winning against ‘the disease’. “There is a pressure that is challenging the system and making it harder for people who are more compromised to heal as well as those who are not being challenged because we felt a shift in the field toward unity, and then something came in and maligned it. None of this is permanent but it is something we are going through that is in activities of creation greater than ourselves. We are in a focal point in Creation where there is a powerful activity of resurrecting the original design of the original intent here and there is that which has taken up residency here that is not letting go of the malalignment here without a struggle.
In a call with my Architects Sunday, we spoke about who we would have to be to keep going for something that we knew was real and really mattered to us regardless of the odds. There is a feeling right now that we are working as fast as we can but time is slipping away. It is an eerie feeling and one I have not yet found the stopgap to by myself. This stopgap only happens when enough human beings become clear that they are not the problem. They realized in their own way that there is a reality that goes against life that they were born into and that they have had enough of it. Many people are simply stepping out of the reality of darkness and into the reality of light where awareness, beauty, wonder, love, excitement still dwell. This is a collective human event for those who care. We are in the time of that collective event now. I have filled with the power of this immediate time ahead. Even if we never see each other or know each other, those of us who came for this time are rising. Some privately. Some publicly.
It is in an activity between that which goes against life and that which operates on behalf of life. It is time to pay attention to and be on the side of that which operates on behalf of life. We humans are now in the toss and tumble of higher powers who love and care for us regardless of what you name them. Those forces are working to reclaim the earth because we have been remembering. During these times, while many people feel they are alone, we are not. We are filled with the powers of life that support us and keep us standing under terrible conditions and severe heartache. As the life forces energies engage with the corrupted system, we are not as able to be as well cared for so we must do our part. The waves of that which is against life will be felt as those waves fall upon us and create a ripple in the force of life. We are not lost. We are in the tsunami of it. Breathing where we can. Doing what we can and bringing our shared power to bear when we can.
I meant it when I said there are realities of unity and realities of separation. They have their powers and forces. I trust what created me for that place is the power of unity that created this planet. I trust that which has guided my life and taken care of things I cannot. I also trust that I must tend to myself and others with overcompensating vigilance while the higher forces are engaged with taking territory back from what has taken root here. This knowing is changing the very fabric of what I am moving with.
If people need to go back to ignorance and just take care of their everyday life and ‘their’ everyday problems, they need to do that. Get out of the way for now.
As was said in A Wrinkle in Time. Right now we need the warriors, the caretakers, and those who can operate beyond the linear playing field.
It is the human being who lives here who must crave being here and having here be the most magnificent place ever.
We will do our best.
Take a sabbatical if you think this is business as usual. Get out of the heat.
If you are a warrior during this time, be extra precious, more deeply related, vigilant in the face of unworkability, be there for the endings and the fragile beginnings, practice more than ever during this time self-care, and empower the clarity of your magnificence.
You are standing with myself, others, and the powers and forces that created this miracle of matter we live with at the Horizon.
We have put our foot down.
“To that which goes against life, and operates to separate us from ourselves, others, and life, “NO MORE!”
A Quote from A Winkle in Time
“Itt iss Eevill…”
“What is going to happen?”
“Wee wwill cconnttinnue tto ffightt!”…
“And we’re not alone, you know, children,” came Mrs.Whatsit, the comforter. “…some of the best fighters have come from your own planet…”
“Who have our fighters been?” Calvin asked.
“Oh, you must know them, dear,” Mrs.Whatsit said. Mrs.Who’s spectacles shone out at them triumphantly.
“And the light shineth in the darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not.”
? Madeleine L’Engle, A Wrinkle in Time: With Related Readings
While there is much afoot in the reality of trauma, there is also something else rising. Trauma builds in the body like packing mud until it becomes hard, rigid, and unyielding. We, as a people, do not know what reality is like when we are no longer impacted by trauma. Trauma is not the problem. Being impacted by it is.
“Muscular armoring is a term introduced by Wilhelm Reich and refers to muscular rigidity that builds up as a self-protective mechanism when we repel or suppress our emotions. There’s usually a lot of muscular armoring in the belly and solar plexus (especially when suppressing fear), but also in the pelvis, chest, neck and face.”* http://www.tigerfreedom.com/2-simple-exercises-to-break-muscular-armoring/
Those repelled or suppressed emotions are generated by memory. Unpleasant or frightening experiences are met by our body with resistance. The body armors itself from the pain or fear of the experience. Hence, muscle armoring.
Many people have been doing the Creation Exercises over a period of time and have been experiencing lessening of pain, muscular release, and less resistance to taking on what they have feared like being in love again or doing something they once would have fled from because they knew they wouldn’t be good at it in the beginning…and more.
The Creation Exercises are designed to transmute trauma into life force energy by your directing where you want what you crave to go. As you direct where you want what you crave to go, you release the stuck energy of trauma that has your system packed down into immobility. Release begins to occur.
What is little known is, as the trauma is released from the body, it is transmuted into life force energy. As it transmutes into life force energy, the effects of memory that held people back from deeper feelings and taking on things that might be challenging but deeply craved rise. What is so brilliant and intelligent about the body is it is our first responder long before we understand what is happening. The amount of people who are beginning to experience trauma release is staggering. It doesn’t look rational in view of the conflict that is everywhere. Yet, the body would not be releasing trauma unless another reality free of trauma was rising.
It isn’t just that we walk our talk now. We are beginning to embody a new paradigm of reality that operates in unity with all life, in a cooperative relationship with what gives life and has us exist as whole, and in the vitality of aliveness that is our birthright. This will emerge more and more in an environment of consciousness that is trauma-free.
On behalf of the work we are about in the Spirals, I am dedicating this month to the emerging of an unknown reality that is ours to crave and create from the life force energy being repurposed from our cellular memory of trauma.
Sharing from those using the Creation Exercises
“My body is responding. The pain is not as severe as it was. My thoughts that are self-defeating – well, doing even a couple of templates in my mind diffuses the emotional charge.”
“I now see that that I didn’t even know that my body was frozen until my shoulders began to move again. It was amazing to experience them becoming more and more mobile. The life force energy released from the trauma memory translates into the rigidity of the body being released also. Amazing!”
“I feel called to confront feelings about myself and the work I want to do now. I feel more strength, stamina, and capacity to take on what I crave than before. Something has changed in me since participating in the 90-day Creation Exercise project. It isn’t that I’m not scared. It is more that something internal is more able.”
I put on my Golden Om music at 4 am and finally went to sleep. Then on cue at 6am, Lily woke me up and demanded her walk down the driveway to poop and pee. On return, I slid into the silence, closed my eyes, and slept. The linkage began again.
The words of the higher octaves are often so misinterpreted by humans. The higher chords of Creation rebuild the light/sound threads when generated by human love. Then words come that are the best resonance available to mark these higher octave moments. It is a shame we were taught we were here to be punished when we were here to love. This is why our love for life, ourselves, and each other is so powerful. What if we heard all words as words of connection, appreciation, and love? I wonder?
The linkage started with a sound in the spheres that opened up into the light highways beyond individual agenda. I was shown a gathering place of human communications that were part of a higher resonant field of consciousness.
I saw where the comments a young man from Parkland had been gathered. He spoke about the several teenagers who had spoken out on behalf of human life. “All of us who spoke and rallied others around us have come together as one force. This is how we change things.”
I watched in this dimensional playing field of extraordinary wonders others whose actions and statements spoke of. I could see the unity-based forms rising this year between humans and the divine. I use the word ‘divine’ as a placeholder for all higher creation that brings us back into unity with ourselves, others, and life.
The dream I had dreamed last month about rallying points came back to me. Rallying point in the work we do is called metapoints – where things come together and go beyond. I realized, that in the higher clarity of the greater wholes, that rallying points of humanity operating on behalf of all life and coming together in structures of love, of life, of unity are building energetic structures out of the chaotic energies of collapsing realities. I was in the most wonderful experiences I ever have in the higher systems of Creation when they are responding. I realized, even more profoundly, what I felt when I wrote the Creation Exercise at midnight was about, especially the word reborn. I felt the resonance flowing into our matrix-unity with Creation strengthen even more in this second linkage of this morning. The reborn are those rising out of what goes against life and leaves us dead into moving into shared unity structures that hold the frequency of the so above so below shared love. This is why Damanhur and I both know that there is no hope for humanity without building realities through structures where we work together in the higher octaves.
I, we, they – several of us woke in the midnight to four range of Dream Time. We had felt the unfolding of higher unities through our love of our shared actions with Creation operating on behalf of all life. I realized that I/we/they had returned the Institute to its original higher resonance that requires shared actions of unity with Creation. Without those shared actions of unity with Creation, nothing can form as part of the greater creations.
I know that the time after midnight until now with the higher realms was for me also. I knew they had come to be with me because they know I get weary in a world that has lost its connection to the greater realms from which we come.
I woke again at 10:30 am. The template of action alive in me, where I, with others, could now build unity-based forms regardless of personal issues or agendas. I would start with the seed of the original intent of the original design of Creation wherever I would find it in the forms I had generated out of my love for all life. Whether it would be honoring the actions that ‘we’ would put into our activity of Creation in the Institute and other of our structures or showing up at the rallies our young people are forming. I knew a doorway had opened and that wherever the seed of the original intent of the original design of unity with all life operating on behalf of shared love rose there I/we/they would be.
Taking care of my body and its stretch into the eternal, I got in our hot tub out on our porch overlooking our valley almost immediately after waking.
Out here in the hot tub, the water soothing my physical form, I would construct an energetic matrix between the higher vibrational fields and where I/we/they are standing. I would construct a complex matrix to hold the vibrational activity that was present in the field: the metapoint of shared action, shared unity with Creation, shared building of form.
I realized that what had been predicted for this year was so active in me I was collapsing and expanding with it. I realized that even at the biological level, higher states of wholeness were coming into existence as old broken matrices of body where going out of existence. Even at the mental level old thought forms were being deconstructed as new thought forms were constructing.
I could tell because in the meeting last night that I recognized the thought forms that were coming from creations that exist in higher octaves as I spoke. I was expanding, forcing open the collapses that had occurred for all of us in the reality of separation we were born into as well as in me.
I know many of us are being vigilant during these times as our bodies’ old broken patterns would collapse as new systems of body unity would rise. In the wake of the after- midnight morning, I could see, feel, and think clearly. Having a concentrated period of freedom from the effect of the jagged edges of broken systems and humanity’s separation from themselves, others, and life-giving forms worked its magic in me. I knew the greater kingdoms of Creation were at hand summoned by us and flowing back in joy to be once again in unity with us. As Jodie Foster who portrayed, Dr. Eleanor “Ellie” Arroway in the movie Contact, said, ”I cannot prove what I saw and experienced, but it does not make it less real!”
That is why I decided to post the two event horizons on my blogsite. I cannot prove to you what is happening, but that does not make it less real. J
Embedding the Matrix in the Field
C1: Craving the metapoint of shared action, shared unity with Creation, shared building of form creates the metapoint of those who reinstate present forms into a unity-based forms with me, those who rise into bringing light and love into action with me, those who create with me the forms given to me by the higher landscape of Creation that hold human beings to be ‘The Beloved’ of Creation. Creating the metapoint of those who reinstate present forms into a unity-based forms with me, those who rise into bringing light and love into action with me, those who creates with me the forms given to me by the higher landscape of Creation that hold human beings to be ‘The Beloved’ sustains and maintains the metapoint of regenerated form in the ‘with another in the field’ octave, actions done on behalf of what is rising in our shared unity of mind within the Mind of Creation, those entering into the discipline of in the world actions that elicit the generative linkage of so above, so below forms. Sustaining and maintaining the metapoint of regenerated form in the ‘with another in the field’ octave, actions done on behalf of what is rising in our shared unity of mind within the Mind of Creation, those entering into the discipline of in the world actions that elicit the generative linkage of so above, so below forms embodies setting in play the In Unity with Creation field now present.
C2: Craving the metapoint of shared action, shared unity with Creation, shared building of so above, so below form creates the metapoint of trusted instructions, trusted actions, trusted forms. Creating the metapoint of trusted instructions, trusted actions, trusted forms sustains and maintains the metapoint of secured ‘with another and others in the field’, secured collective operating in unity within the Mind of Creation, secured vibrational chambers emanating out nourishing those rising on behalf of all life in unity with all life. Sustaining and maintaining the metapoint secured ‘with another and others in the field’, secured collective operating in unity within the Mind of Creation, secured vibrational chambers emanating out nourishing those rising on behalf of all life in unity with all life embodies The Spirals of Being, The ‘In Unity with Creation’ Institute, and The Unity of Care Community.
C3: Craving the metapoint of shared action, shared unity with Creation, shared building of so above, so below form creates the metapoint of more connection with the higher octaves, more clarity of what is ‘being with others in the field’, more activity of consciousness that builds the unified linkage of so above, so below. Creating the metapoint of more connection with the higher octaves, more clarity of ‘being with others in the field’, more activity of consciousness that builds the unified linkage of so above, so below sustains and maintains the metapoint of the higher octave, the existing Creation based forms, the higher consciousness of others with me. Sustaining and maintaining the metapoint of the higher octave, the existing Creation based forms, the higher consciousness of others with me embodies the second primary level of consciousness secured in the physical linear reality of the here and now.
CC; Craving the metapoint of setting in play the In Unity with Creation field now present, The Spirals of Being, the ‘In Unity with Creation’ Institute, and The Unity of Care Community, the second primary level of consciousness is secured in the physical linear reality of the here and now creates the metapoint of higher frequency intelligence, the high heart, whole system body response. Creating the metapoint of higher frequency intelligence, the high heart, whole system body response sustains and maintains the metapoint of vanishing separation, vanishing broken systems, vanishing pain-based emotions. Sustaining and maintaining the metapoint of vanishing separation, vanishing broken systems, vanishing pain-based emotions embodies the field of protected harmony, balance, and love in Unity with Creation.