Do you know you have a double helix that is an antiquated form of survival in our DNA? It is a BTCH! and often mistaken as human feelings.
Here’s what happens and is the cause of many a war and behind almost EVERY relationship dispute. Let me, before going further, take a breath and put in a non-sequester. Deb Merchant, who basically raised me into being able to move among human beings and not only enjoy it but love it, said we needed to write a Survival Manual for the Intuitively Aware. I could say easily say this is part of that. Who would I say the Intuitively Aware are – those that are aware intuitively that something is going on that is not in the mainstream conversation but essential to the cellular remembrance of paradise. Moving from primitive survival needs to expressions of love, affinity, and unity with all life. As a species, we are in an amazing transcendent possibility to transcend our primitive triggers that got our physiology to survive and now have that physiology be a home of thriving in paradise and having paradise ways…joy, fun, laughter, play, creativity, caring, sharing…etc…we didn’t start that way….by the way…and we have some archaic mechanisms to dismantle by no longer letting them have an effect on us.
In our DNA, there is a trigger mechanism that when our species was in a high survival mode was needed so we could keep moving fast when we were physically at risk and survive. What was this HIGH SURVIVAL MODALITY!
A DOUBLE HELIX IN OUR DNA THAT TRIGGERS
EXPECTATION
ANTICIPATION
When you are needing to survive in highly dangerous conditions as a beginning formulation of Creation, you must have a very primitive DNA operation to do that.
You expect the outer to meet your needs and if it doesn’t your DNA says…danger…fear…pain… and you react and respond accordingly.
You anticipate surviving so if the outer does not match what your DNA anticipates…yep! danger…fear…pain… and your primitive beginning responds accordingly.
This is long before the advanced mechanisms of your species’ nervous system [the parasympathetic/sympathetic] developed to fight, flight, freeze, calm…
Is it possible to see that as the timelines of evolution/devolution have become parallel paths at this point in the evolutionary survival of the next greater whole of our species? Our systems are now evolving emotionally, mentally, biologically and are starting to separate from the devolution timeline. Why? because we will go out of existence if we devolve into what once had us evolve. The very archaic mechanisms that had our beginning formations work for us now risk us devolving not evolving….now threaten our existence no longer forwarding our existence.
Recently, this morning actually, a family text spat met me as I opened my messages…There it was: EXPECTATION…
Unfulfilled…
NEWS FLASH!
UNFULFILLED EXPECTATION TRIGGERS DOUBLE HELIX!
…the expectation of another’s gratitude for one’s actions and not understanding why the other person did not behave in a way they understood THAT WOULD BE WHAT THEY EXPECTED. As an amoeba, it would have just fluttered away but, as a human, the need to be what we are designed to be as an advanced species overcoming our primitive beginnings had them reach out and share their ‘feelings’.
The beautiful part is this amazing person is exploring family and families have spats. S.P.A.T.S. Sometimes Particularly Actions Trigger Suddenly.
The DNA triggers the double helix. That is the mechanism in our DNA that runs counter to human affinity. There was no affinity needed as a feeling before feelings were considered feelings. Feelings were only survival triggers so that we could make if from primitive DNA, to a primitive nervous system, into the beginning of an advanced species capable of higher dynamics of being and being here than had existed before.
We reach out. We anticipate being received the way we want to be received…
THWARTED!
NEWS FLASH!
THWARTED ANTICIPATION TRIGGERS DOUBLE HELIX!
Bummer…
Took me almost 3 years to stop the double helix from triggering painfully in my system….so painfully I was frozen in pain for months sometimes. Still triggers but no longer am I caught in the pain, fear, and feeling of my feelings being in danger that comes with it. It abates…particularly because my conscious mind takes over and moves past it. I recognize it as a mechanism and I can see and am working on not letting something primitive I misidentified once as me cost me my affinity with this planet and her forms that I love so deeply…
I hesitated to write the last paragraph because I am not without feelings and working as hard as all of you working to transcend my planetary’s primitive gift this body of life. But …after 55 years of watching and working in the evolutionary consciousness of human beings, now I can tell we can support our primitive mechanisms evolution with our own evolving consciousness of being that many of you are experiencing.
“Our very bodies cannot be well as the future unfolds if we stay ignorant of the deep roots of new beginnings that are occurring” Tantra Maat
Before I start this missive, I want to thank my daughter for her research and personal experience and her fierce commitment to new cultural systems of Creation now seeding in the manure of our present civilization: nurturance as the new baseline of human beings…I can get behind that.
“This is just Life,” This is no longer relevant. “Life is changing and we are indeed moving into the next greater whole,” is relevant.
Listening to these young people 30 to 40 years younger than me, as a mystic and seer and a prophetess, I can ‘see’ the new systems of interpersonal relationships as a new culture of ‘human-being’ is rising. This compelled me to stop in my tracks in the midst of my insane day of needing to get everything done before I fly out tomorrow on Christmas Day…and write.
When we entered 2021, I could feel the higher consciousness of unity restoring itself here in the physical world. We are in the chaos of what is going out of existence and what is coming into existence, what is deconstructing and what is constructing, what is collapsing and what is expanding.
My daughter sent me this podcast. I am actually not sure why but as a consciousness linguist, hearing the field of consciousness that words are now evolving from is essential during these times. She has been using this word base in her sharing with me and I am grateful that I now have the activity of consciousness behind them. This podcast is brilliant.
While most of you might think you have no interest or need to know about the cultural shifts in gender consciousness, I say you do need to have that interest. Let’s start with my age cultural upbringing where gender was sex and role bias. Sex and roles dominated what society held gender to be.
Now let’s do a fast switch into spirituality – yin/yang, for instance – where the masculine and the feminine meet and have both/ and with diverse interests of expression. When I listened to this podcast, tears flowed freely down my face. This yin/yang restoration is coming into existence in their very speaking AND their listening.
In The Field of Tantra Maat, the activity of that field is unity-bias – the restoration of the union of the cosmos and the planetary, the spirit and the flesh, matter and energy, sacred and secular, etc…the yin and the yang… The exploration of these amazing writers is unity-consciousness…no one left out and no one left behind.
Ignorance is not productive…your sexual preferences, which probably a lot of people attach to the amazing exploration of gender consciousness, is not the topic of this podcast. Listening to what they are exploring as a culture of creation is. These new adults are coming out of trauma-based realities and exploring how to begin a new unity-based culture of nurturance. This podcast applies to every one of us. These amazing grownup Children of Creation are our wisdom elders now.
I have been deeply moved by my housemate C Bean. I have supported her by reading over her written material about herself and her work for her website the last few weeks. Her authenticity and her ability to tell her story so people knew the background that gave the foreground of her work inspired me. Here I am. I have worked for over half a century. While I have written what I provide, I have not written what is behind why I can provide it.
Thanks to my beloved friend, I am going to do that now.
What is the skill of a cellular empath? It is not really that easy to understand. I have a knowing that lives in an intelligence that has served myself and others for over half a century. Our spirit, our original nature of ourselves that we, as human beings, long for when we are out of touch, is in our cellular memory. This is not our historic memory. This is the original memory of our original design. In my third book, You as the Mind of Creation, this is deeply addressed. For instance, we now know that our Enteric Nervous System carries this original memory of our design. I just didn’t have a name for it when I began wandering around in cellular memory when I was quite young. I just know I could tap into the matter of the person and there was this memory that didn’t operate like circumstantial recall. It operated like a schematic that gave me a language that restores this core foundational template of the human beings I speak with.
I never marketed as a physical healer because what I was capable of went deeper into the core design from which all wholeness not limited to physical healing comes. And sometimes people are physically healed. I could just tell when that was probably going to happen in what I was present to, not because I was trying to physically heal the person. We are in a world that is toxic emotionally, mentally, spiritually, and physically. I had to restore my own body, mind, and spirit from early on in my life by listening into my own design and being faithful to it. Out of that, I formed a profession on behalf of all life.
I am thrilled I have worked a half-century. Now the original nature of human beings, their sovereignty is rising. Not only that, our actual matter is awakening past its trauma-based survival necessity. Many bodies of human beings are going through recursions of trauma release and into stabilizing for wholeness. These shifts in mind and body will occur fundamentally over the next six or seven years.
I know the struggles of what we are going through. The trauma laid buried in the background of our human existence is rising into the foreground. We are having to deal with it and deal with it we will. As the shifts and changes occur in the very body of the species of humankind including the in the world physical structures, a thriving consciousness of well-being and wholeness of mind and body will begin to take its place in the scheme of things. It is to this I have always been committed. And now! Now a human being’s system is waking back up into Earth being a home for our Spirit.
Being a cellular empath, moving into Activations and Consults now is pure pleasure. Supporting the transmutation out of trauma into wholeness is beyond exciting. Supporting the person’s perceptive mind to trust what they are newly experiencing is profound.
Almost every day is a shifting of the ground we are standing on and the registers within us that guide us during these times. Do not get too enrolled in the trauma rising from the background into the foreground. This is the foundation of all healing. Fever first. Sweating it out. Wholeness.
I love you.
I love that I was made the way I was made.
It is why I could take the vaccine when I did. I could feel my body could take in this strange vaccine empathically, especially since I got to know it so well in June 2020.
I knew that my body was now strong enough but my body in its language showed me. I have trained empathically through months of my own recovery from covid. I knew the opportunity was not recovery alone. I knew that now I had cellularly experienced the virus I could have it become part of my intelligence and it part of mine.
I have worked incessantly these last years to prepare to be able, as a cellular empath, to become able for the body and its challenges in the years ahead. I have done work homeopathically, through supplements, exercise, consciousness work like the Creation Exercises. This plus in my unity with Creation being part of the amazing synchronicity with the greater intelligences that operate on behalf of all life here.
My psychic knowing, my cellular response, and circumstances lined up in perfect wholeness and take the vaccine I did. This is why I tried so hard to tell people it did not mean I thought they should take the vaccine. As a cellular empath with certain skillsets, I can do things others can’t do and am willing to use my capacity on behalf of all life with as little risk to myself as possible. Now I have a spike protein in my cellular system to work with and to support its intelligence in operating on behalf of the life of a human being as well as all Life.
I am working to clear aberrations during these times because that which has become aberrated only seeks its return to wholeness. Any other thought is a lie. I am aware that trauma has become assumed as the original design here, but it isn’t. I am busy again. More busy every day as the level of transmutation from trauma into wholeness grows. I will do my best with others to educate, transmit, activate and consult human beings so they too can invest their minds, their hearts, their bodies in their awakening into the wholeness.
Wholeness is the nature of Being – in this case the nature of Being that is human.
Up until now, we only go back to the personality of a child to try to discover our nature of Self.
That is not what I am looking at.
Is it possible to consider that your greater consciousness came in compromised and unable to adjust to the personality framework of limitation that held together the world here?
Is it possible that your higher natures of being needed to accomplish what needed to happen here through becoming an alchemical Being who would use their human lifetime to transcend all societal limitations?
Is it possible that you came into the realm of ‘forgotten’ to restore ‘remembrance’?
I could not for the life of me comprehend what was happening in the psyche of some human beings over the last year.
Then I realized.
The human psyche is no longer limited to configuring from the child but from the natures of Being that came in through the child – not separate just compromised.
In other words, not a walk-in, but a struggle, a conflict that came from a different nature of Being than the world around the child that the child was not capable of comprehending. The nature of Being did not have a place. The persona matrixes of the Higher Self, the Transcendent Self, the MetaSelf depending on the terminology could not come online
Now those greater persona matrixes are coming online.
I don’t know about you, but I was pretty upset when fire wouldn’t come out of my finger when I was three. I know we laugh about this. But then why in so many consults the person knows they are different than the world around them in a real intense way because the nature of self is gaining traction in them.
The Emergent Personality of Self is rising in the molecular, atomic, cellular principles of Gaia here.
I am sorry that it has taken so long for the deeper psyche of Being to rise…. almost unbelievable it is here.
I feel compelled to open some days for a few people to come and cross the border into Their Being and bring Being back here, I can feel the need for a tipping point. In the realities of unity, imprints are rising in the etheric territories that carry the consciousness of your Being trying to come awake again as you have grown and become capable of nurturing your Being to be here on behalf of All Life.
In high frequency, if only a few restore their Emergent Personality of Self that was present from the beginning, a ripple effect can occur in the collective consciousness of humanity.
This is what is trying to happen.
We just got to this moment in time to recover the original natures of our original design.
We are now in a Personality of Self emergence. Glory be!
I just gotta say. 🙂 I am sitting here in bed reflecting on my life…mostly my life choices and how they have been good ones. I truly believe that these choices are the sources of this fragile body maintaining itself all these years.
I understand the medical end of things but frankly, it has been the relationships I have had with some [more than less] humans and the profound spiritual connections I have had the honor to experience this lifetime that is the underlying substance of creation that has sustained me. And now this walk that many have taken can for not only myself but many, give us this moment in human history to embody again the original nature of the paradise that we are the templates of here.
The last few months have been particularly challenging because being psychic you can feel threads of futures that are unfolding and some, in this case, have suggested a termination of participation on this beautiful planet is possible. There are not many surprises being psychic, for sure.
In the Creation Exercises, these amazing formulas of creation that restore the original relationship of spirit and flesh, matter and energy, secular and sacred, eternal and temporal, I found that I could restore my body and its ability to survive here more and more independent of structures of reality that have separated the spirit and the flesh [from adrenal fatigue to cancer], matter and energy [visit Los Alamos where they are extricating energy from the earth to make destructive structures to ‘protect’], secular and sacred [religious terrorism], eternal and temporal [no long term respect for life itself only short term gratification].
Tracking the unity [the METApoints] of spirit and flesh, matter and energy, secular and sacred, temporal and eternal has been my unrelenting without waiver focus for over 45 years. It is this focus personally that has led me to this moment and to write the sentence that started this train of thought above.
“I am sitting here in bed reflecting on my life…mostly my life choices and how they have been good ones.”
It took everything I had with post covid effects, the loss of my dog who buffered me for years so I could maintain loving being here, and a heart and lungs who are struggling to maintain normalcy to come to facilitate an Equinox ritual in Boulder, Colorado.
Not knowing the outcome of moving across mountains at 8000 to 100000 altitudes, fatigue that haunts my normal vibrancy, and newly working with some abnormalities in my heart tests, I knew to come and do my part.
Why? It may sound strange to a world that has often pseudo lures of ‘out there’ gratifications, of ‘if only’ something out there would give me what I think I need…all sources of disconnection from Life and Others and Creation.
It is my connection to human beings who persist in loving life no matter what they are under the weight of that is a source of my trust that my body will, not only succeed in carrying me forward but, in my connection to these humans, will continue to build its capacity to thrive. It is my connection to the powers and forces of Creation [what I call the Realms of the Beloveds] that love this planet and her forms and operates on their behalf that I gave over my life and death to a long time ago because of the eternal nature of continuance enthralls me and the ability to be here as part of that continuance thrills me.
Hence where else would I be this past weekend and the weekend coming for another such opportunity? This past week has been an encapsulation of my life’s journey. A group of people maintained their persistency in bringing forward as a collective creation a TV show that is the next recursion of Creation moving forward in a collective vision, the next powerful capacity beyond individual vision. An ‘Anam Cara’ flew in to drive me from Albuquerque to Denver so I could facilitate, not as the burden of woe, but the joy of adventure. I am staying at the home of the extraordinary woman who persisted in building a home for the Creation Templates given to me by a greater intelligence of which the mind of a human is a part – The Language of Consciousness Institute. The people on the WhatsApp threads of healing and community who stood with me in a shared energy of connection. The magic of what it is to be human with other humans is a daily nourishment for me. When she writes, “I am holding your hand and am walking with you.” And another responds, “I have the other hand.” Another calling, sharing the excitement of awakening…stories of connection and the joy of response from the deeper webbing of life here. My housemate and my brother organizing getting beautiful pieces of furniture from our childhood to this magical home in Albuquerque, New Mexico coming alive with points of unity daily. Our collective beloved man taking over a call for me I could not make Sunday morning to sustain and maintain our connection of L.O.V.E. with Creation. Walking with people all over the planet this weekend taking care of where human beings and Creation meet and restore the paradigms of paradise here again.
It is not woo woo. It is Reality. Their strength becomes my strength. Pictures shared that show our communal participation with community builds the will to thrive that holds the capacity to survive. ETC!
I do not know what today or tomorrow will bring. There will be people still looking for answers as if the answers create realities of unity. If I die, today or tomorrow, there will be people saying, “See, she is just imagining this.” Carry on. There is an extraordinary song by a young woman Sineed Lohan. This is my response to those who do not see the magic and beauty of what human beings can be together.
For me, every minute of every day I give to live in a realm of being with others in the Field of Creation where there Eternal and the Temporal, the Secular and the Sacred, the Spirit and the Flesh can flourish because separation is not of value and unity with all life is.
I feel fantastic this morning. I woke up at 4:30 am so excited about the new influx of energy in my cells.
Walking with the Gods yesterday honoring what created pathways of mortal Creation here revived the immortal of me. Having my Beloveds never leave my side or each other, taking care of me so I could take care of Creation flows magically in my blood this morning. Tasks that needed doing being taken over by others until I am capable again strengthens the energy of my heart while its matter is restoring. Watching a lovely wacko Disney movie Monsters versus Aliens with my two sistas celebrated the normalcy of a human life living in the fluid of an eternal river.
My fingers hit the keyboard this morning and could not stop my writing and thanking you….and celebrating, and flowing with the Enfusion of Creation that exists here.. in us…mortal and immortal…I love you.
This is the way that the Earth…communicates with life. In the Mimzy Project we have found as we are getting information, birds mostly but now fox are confirming our connection. Fun and beautiful. Human being are not alone. We are, yes, right now at the effect of what is occurring here, but as we remember that everything is energy and you can direct chaotic energy into a system, the Earth, large enough to create a higher order. That is the Mimzy Project. That is what these last 10 years are about. AND we haven’t even arrived at the mountain.
2020.10.14. I woke this morning spinning in a vortex of the earth. It was all so soothing. I was reflecting on violence, vandalism, and theft that had occurred and had been shared with me. But, in the dream walk, it was all calm. I am always so grateful when my spirit and the primordial mother come into a consciously conscious state together. This morning, my usually 3am moments of connection, it was exquisite.
Mt. Shasta is believed by many and dreamed by me this morning as the root chakra of the Earth. The Native tribes there believed, and may still, that the still active volcano is the center of the universe and the home of the Creator. In my experience, there is a center, for sure, there that has highways out into the universe and back into the earth that bring in many Beings from the vast realms of Creation. I got to meet a few of them. I am also clear that there has never been aberrant activity that anchored there. Aberrations happen, but they can’t hold. That is why if you live in the area, you are in a constant activation of alignment with the nature of a human beings’ original design and its place in the universe.
An aberrant activity would be like Jesus coming to tell the people to love one another and to turn the other cheek and that message aberrate into prejudice and hate that festered wars on the earth of the planet that once held gateways to powerful forces that supported the evolution of life here.
On the Mountain, there is a serenity AND A POWER that has Beings come in and out of there that operate on behalf of unity with All Life, in fact, there is not an energetic that would have it be any other way. That is what I mean by the Mountain is not aberrated. It exists in its pure relationship with the original nature of the original design here. As do other power places on the Earth. They are still in their pure form where life exists as whole and is life giving and life enhancing.
The Mountain certainly was that this morning as I spun in that quiet ecstasy of being part of beauty and harmony that does not even know that weird activities are occurring in the human realm. In the vast root of the Primordial Mother of the Mountain, her root was spinning me and spinning me gathering the violence, the chaos and drawing it in. It was a natural as natural could be like a tornado is natural. No intent but incredible function. I also knew I was being shown the human participation that was going to be part of some kind of constant that when we went to the Mountain, we would enter into that alchemy with The Mother. I was excited. In fact, so excited now I am awake, I am going to send this journal entry to Praline, because I am not at all sure I am spelling words right or making sense.
Tash, a participant with others across the world in the Mimzy Project October 23rd to November 6th, spoke to me this past year about tunnels that moved under Uluru in Australia. The second she spoke to me they became a consciousness in my geopathic nature. That was all there was nothing else, just a register of these tunnels with no other information available…until this morning… It was AWESOME! I was being drawn down through her root anchoring energy through the earth and I knew where I came out was her solar plexus. Uluru! She was drawing the chaos into her, through the root chakras down through the earth into her solar plexus-the earth’s solar plexus chakra Uluru including Kata Tjuta. I recognized the energetics of Uluru but had to look up sacred places in Australia on the web for the name of the rock formations I saw as I spewed out into the ground looked up at these HUGE rock formations. Shook me timbers, I’ll tell you.
When I saw on the web that these places were, by many considered the solar plexus chakra of the earth, I ‘gotta’ tell you my so above/so below sentient comprehension expanded dramatically.
And my solar plexus…wow! I knew immediately I had been given the Activation for October 28th at the end of the first section of the activation we will be part of on the mountain. Even sleeping, I could hardly wait!
To complete the dream walk, this went on a long time. I knew that we were part of something building. We were not going to be the cause of something on the mountain, but we sure were going to be with Damanhur and the Temple of Humankind an essential part of the participation…we were going to be building a spiral and doing several rope spiral walks to gather the human maelstrom of aberrant mindsets driving human beings wild and blend with The Primordial Mother’s body so that the chaotic energy happening everywhere could have a place to go to have the trauma transmuted into life force energy and to have excessive amount of energy creating chaos everywhere directed back into the earth to have it feed the deeper nature of unity that the earth is formed from. I do not have the second part of the awareness worded well yet but I am getting there…with the help of the intelligence of what is happening at Shasta as well as other parts of the earth.
I got the patterns to transmit. I got the movement to move with. I got how to weave the maelstrom into a fabric to restore matrixes that we would be part of a beautiful species that lives as whole. 🙂
Then I woke at 3:30 am cleaning up things I had dropped out, sending the people who scheduled call in and replay information, and other updating other things….just to get my mind calm enough to organize thought to write this.
Some really cool things happened too. I realized that my beloved RV, Dakini, was a maelstrom of her own and that after traveling in the energy of The Mother, I KNEW how to move with her chaotic energy and keep bringing it into the next greater whole. My 21 foot RV with her batteries constantly draining was my Primordial Mother project now.
Finally, I got the Excessive Amount of Energy I was moving with to quiet enough to organize my thoughts to write this. I looked up on Safari if there was even information about Earth having Earth Chakras. Just because it all seemed obvious to me, I wondered if other people thought so. There is was right in front of me some what I wrote about but what I haven’t share yet was the Sacral Chakra of the Earth was Lake Titicaca and the Island of the Sun. This was where CNN had asked me to go with them because in Bolivia the witches of La Paz and the doctor who was going to take them to meet these Kallawayan healers could not introduce them unless CNN had their own witch. That would be me. Try not to get stuck in your perception of a witch. It is nothing like what you think. For the people of the region, a witch carries a direct geopathic link with the earth. That would be me.
I had the pattern in my psyche of Lake Titicaca and Is that is where we went every day to traces the path laid before us. It was the Kallawaya shaman who I met and who approved me in a cave underneath the hotel we were staying in.
I had said as this project unfolded that all of our pasts were coming forward to this moment in time. AND this was mind.
But then as I read, I saw that the heart chakra of the earth was Glastonbury and other areas but Glastonbury is where Kea, one of our participants, has been at work for years to bring the White Spring and the Red Spring back into unity. Suddenly everything that I had been moving in in the dream walk was generating a great enough territory for me to comprehend more of what we were doing going there and, with that, more of the ability to do our part. Remember the tunnels under the earth that connect her in ways we do not comprehend. According to my source whose link will be at the end of this journal entry, Haleakala, the volcano in Maui, Hawaii and Shaftesbury 30 miles from Glastonbury are part of this heart chakra of the earth. Can you begin to feel it or grasp it a bit? One thing I have learned over my half century of work is that how 1 + 1 = 2 in our modern world does not add up in the deeper nature of things. There is such magic if human beings could be past the over simplified story that leaves out humanity’s connection to the cosmos and to the earth. Well, not where I am standing…and hopefully reading this…maybe also no longer where you are standing. That reading this you are a little bit more return to the Earth that is the source of all life, here.
We get so bogged down in having things be definitive, but this is not about that. The point if and if you read the link, she is speculating also. The point and the power is that a communication, a direction, and an intelligence occurred between this human as well as others having these connections happen also.
I have a broader spectrum of awareness not that gives myself and others the ability to be part of a something that is generating a operation to work with these chaotic deconstructing collapsing time to transmute the energy being expelled…to capture it and to bring it into the earth so that there is fuel for unity to construct, and expand us beyond the border of what is now occurring.
For many many years since the internet came, I have posted in a public journal. I am aware of the electromagnetic field of the Earth as a living communication system that affects the consciousness of the human species and, often the life like bees, of other creatures. The part the is always missed by the human species is that the human species is not the superior species and that this planet will prevail as a living being whether she is flush with life as we know it now or loving herself as a desert devoid of diversity, atmosphere gone, feeling the winds of the universe. It is the human species and they interest in being part of this exquisite creation and who they are as a part of it that should be a human being’s interest. I post in my electromagnetic journal because it is the way Creation hears me…just like music or the crunch of dried leaves underfoot or water trickling down a wooded embankment away from the roar of a human presence.
For 3 nights before I at the lucid dream walk on the 13th of October, I had had a dream about being with a guru. The first night was Sai Maa. The second night I did not know who it was. Seemed somewhat like Mooji .but not quite. The next morning a picture of a man in a simple dark blue short sleeved t-shirt caught my eye in a picture on the top shelf of a bookshelf at Sarah and Larry’s house. When we were driving to get my Achilles heel worked on at the next level that day, I asked her if it was her son. He was stocky, I said. She replied, “No that is Papaji He was a younger version of the picture on the web but it was him and Mooji was his discipline. Both nights they were getting my limited mind set out of the way, for what I know now, is for a larger mindset that can open up into the larger picture of what is happening at Shasta. Then the heart, solar plexus lucid dream and then the 14th….so clear…so compelling. Will simply list the imagery and associative awareness connect with each image.
The tornado like vortex pulling the debris fields of fragmented consciousness into the earth like poop in a toilet to be used for new growth continued.
Then from the earth another vortex covered the ground and was being drawn up into the cosmos this was an intelligence from the planet sending information into a specific place in the cosmos that Shasta – the Mimzy Project – could/would draw from.
Then a band almost like a woman’s girdle began to pull the center in. The message was ‘gathering time’. Now I comprehend this. This is what you do when you are related to time as a container not a ribbon reaching out from past to future. You contain it. We will be containing time to be used on behalf of all life during our time at Shasta.
These lucid dreams walks last a long time. My system is being reset to accommodate larger interactive interrelated intelligences than the present limited human mind. The benefit to any human being becoming for a while part of the larger relationship with Creation that operated on behalf of all life and have us exist as whole is we get more able to navigate the smaller reality of which we are a part without being captured and at the effect of it.
Then the most beauteous thing happened. Pink spheres began to emerge from the double vortex and covered it. When I was in Damanhur in the Hall of Spheres, I would always try to be the first one into the Hall of Spheres because I would sit for hours blending my mind -emptying into them. My favorite was a clear sphere is a pink lava looking softness in it. One night in the early morning, the little lava shape began to move and what looked like a soft finger began to come out of the sphere toward me. I tried to stay very still and breath deeply and gently shaken by the reality of it. Then it receded after coming within a foot of my third eye. I turned around to see if the protector of the space from Damanhur had seen anything. He was looking straight over my head but oh! was he grinning.
I was so excited watching these spheres. Damanhur has colors. I do not know what pink is but pink is definitely my color intelligence connected to Damanhur. I was very clear that the pink spheres were signifying a Damanhurian intelligence.
I love how the greater intelligence and intelligences push us past our mindscape the is so boxed and boring into colors, movement, shapes that rearrange our mind’s ability for greater intelligence. I was and am aware that much is going on and that the direction and actions that are ours are forming.
I fell asleep and dreamed of the doctor who worked on my achilles…my beautiful magical doctor…letting me know his wife had asked me to come to dinner. She is a guru.
Later that day in a meeting we spoke of gradients, resonance, topography, slopes, vector, etc…working our minds to be able to stay related to the multidimensional geopathic topography that is clearly becoming more and more of the communication system between the realms we are moving with in Shasta and ourselves.
I have not written in my journal for a long time. I think this past year has been without my realizing it a wilderness retreat with my beloved Lily. I am pretty sure in hindsight the greater reality of which I AM and I am a part was busy with my local self wandering around looking like my activity of life was normal. Not realizing it was in no way normal. AND, in hindsight, very beautiful and important.
In remembrance, about the first of the year all my attention was on Lily. Not worried excepted worried about her dying which is a human norm. More…without my realizing it creating a new relationship with her that, not only does not require physical form, operates beyond it. I would take time with both of us being with each other as if our sovereign immortal natures were gazing at each other through our mortal eyes. I would intentionally generate tactile memory stroking her fur and consciously checking my hands and my face and my legs and when she curled against my solar plexus to see if they were recording the physical memory. This is very important. The only reason we are physical is for the sensations, the sensory delight, the joy of experiencing our immortality in various short term forms. I would watch her special moves that opened up my heart and my spirit and basically record them over and over and over again. Mostly I did it because I knew when she passed I was not to suffer and to not be traumatized. At a lesser consciousness level, I did not want to suffer. At a higher consciousness level, I have already experienced my son Jeremy when he left his mortal coil, he did not leave our connection and was the source of my moving from a constricted terrifying limitation of perception mostly asleep frantically looking for what I was as part of a greater whole and unable to find it.
When he died at 5 years old, I transcended these limitations for sure but I also gained a hundred pounds as the flesh and the spirit were not in harmony. That is when I realized why people spent years in caves or ashrams because the decrepancy between the mortal and immortal natures was to off balance in the world we were born into. In 1979 when Jeremy died, my consciousness blew open and pretty much what you have seen over the past 51 years is my establishing this awakened consciousness into the norm of what human beings has held reality to be.
Now after two months of experiencing such an extraordinary elevation of consciousness, I am beginning to be suspicious that something beyond breaking through the border and beyond into these realms that are only connection, only unity, only oneness…not other than that.
Now I am beginning to notice is that I am actually at the border and that there is an activity I am in that is giving me a smile and possibly an ah ha. I posted to someone below.
I don’t know how to language what I am experiencing which is incredibly real in ways I never thought possible. I have been with you and your body I think we could say at the threshold. i.e. Damanhur. It wasn’t intentional. Nothing is anymore I just find I am places being there on behalf of I think immortality. It is really strange, but it feels like what I really am. I did not know about your body but I have been in, as best I can state, a dialogue at the border I.e. threshold where I was actively reviewing crossed lines, tangled webbing, probably egigenetics, etc. it is a place I am now that literally is where everything operates on behalf of all life-immortality and sort of by being there corrects ambiguity. Best I can language but so exquisite there. I was so glad to find you (whatever a you is) there a few days or weeks ago. That is all I know.
I am so excited. I am in a living reality where the immortal and the mortal are gaining strength, stamina, and capacity for their oneness again … where the spirit and the flesh are gaining strength, stamina, and capacity for their unity body again… where the temporal and the eternal are in connection again.
My dog Lily crossed over into the non-physical realms July 31st, 2020 for those of you who do not know. Since she is a being who does not know separation, I entered a journey with others in the Field of Tantra Maat of transcendency. It is my hope to gather together the last few days as an experiential journal for those who are entering into the new futures rising. Below is a journal entry. It is not mine to do to have you understand. I am simply sharing my journal with you.
I woke up this morning and the gripping agony in my chest had elevated to a mild tachycardia. I recognized that when I said there was something to be achieved in the call. I did not realize until it occurred that what was to be achieved was a new higher frequency foundational base – a sustainable and maintainable place for what was occurring to occur with as little shock as possible.
Surrendering into those who have never left me; with Lily transitioning from physical to nonphysical; and the quantum energy that is available now as the multidimensions restore themselves here, we achieved a coherence that stabilized me/us/others in the higher realm[s] where realities of unity exist. [A dog that looks like lily is walking by right now.]
We in the 7 month Creation Project are working in the consciousness that is stabilized in the physical playing field through Template 3. The collective work is achieving a remarkable magic. Remember Template 3 is you generating an operational matrix to bring the quantum realms of what you hold/know/re-member reality to be into the physical realm. There was a result in the call that I want to note here.
When Jim spoke of unity in the beginning, the quantum nature of unity activated. I could feel it. It was as if he had dialed the code or set the field or activated an algorithm. Then when I said there was something to be achieved in the call another code connection between Creation and ourselves activated…there were others that spoke and activations occurred as I could see the lights come on in the quantum field of so above/so below re-establishing not only remembrance but actualizing it. We were the Templates of Creation speaking the language of creation. That level has never occurred collectively until last night at least where I have been present.
Then having Myra and Hisbiscus speaking in the last part of the call who operate consistently in the quantum fields was no accident. Nothing more or less only the synchronic timing of timeless time as everyone on the call was being their direct link with Creation and in their speaking operating on behalf of all life. This is not a mental thinking thing. It is what occurs in the shared unity of a one soul species each having theirs to do, be, have in a synchronic weaving with Creation.
When Myra said the word ‘borderland’, the realm that Jim had called in ‘unity’ and the landscape that was revealed during the call by those sharing, a territory came into being – formed…a borderland….including the border but surrounding it and going beyond it. A coherent, cohesive, congruent unified inclusionary territory of participation was established. Do not concern yourself with understanding or worry that you may not yet have the registers yet…you will.
For the first time I got sleepy at midnight instead of collapsing from exhaustion. I could dream walk again instead of being caught in the debris field between so above and so below since last Friday.
Two days ago, in my work with the reharmonization of my so above/so below system I am doing with Deepak Chari, Jeremy and Lily showed me their light bodies that could regulate into various forms…Lily clearly loved the form she shared with me and that is our meeting place…that etheric form here. They really worked with me to see if this form I recognize myself as could dissolve into the light formlessness which carries so much more dimensionality and capacity but in that session I could not. Experiencing the stuckness of the calcification of energy in my body was brutal the next few days until after the call last night. In my dream walk in the borderland that was evoked as a Timeless Time territory last night, I was shown me a summit in the borderland. If there had been words, the words spoken would have been something like, “You [meaning those passed over, those passing over, and ourselves] will exist together at The Summit.” There were not words and the structure of language in writing this does not lay it out right, but it is as close as I can put in the written word. I will do a Creation Exercise 3 on it to unpack it and give it a place.
I am clear the Creation Project that has showed up in the Restoring the G.O.D. Matrix work. It is upon us with great respect and dignity for our endeavor if the higher realms had those concepts. The G.O.D. Matrix that we are part of restoring is unity – duh!
However, the landscapes we have entered into is where the non-physical realm, the spirit, the eternal is, as it was originally designed to be, transcendent over the physical, flesh, temporal. This means that the loss of Lily and Jeremy and others including ourselves is no more; that our primary is our etheric [non-physical] relationship with all life, our spirit relationship with all life, our eternal relationship with all life – in our multidimensional, multi-intelligent, multi-sensory form here but we go beyond and can include what we are much further than here with the temporality of here no longer being a problem
I am not saying we are embodied there. I am saying everything everyone is saying is showing where we are engaging with the quantum fields and within that much more is occurring in multiple territories you all are engaged in individually and monadically. We are taking territory. We are opened up and sharing the landscapes of multiple territory but those territories carry realities of unity. For me it is no longer being held prisoner in an experience of separation from what and whom I love. That my body, my mind, and my emotions register and are part of a system re-established that carries no capacity for separation.
Be clear. It is not up to us the result. We are informing Creation and the G.O.D.s [the generating organizing design] of creation and we are, in response, being informed. We are using the consciousness of our intelligence to bring back territory as we remember and a Generating Organizing Design of Creation begins to occur where we are standing both collectively and individually.
This is Template 3. Template 3 is not a human exercise. This template carries our consciousness of restoration with a specific algorithum that we are now experiencing. Yes!
I woke up this morning as stated at the beginning of this journal entry. I went upstairs to see Diane, then came downstairs to set up outside here on the porch to write this. When I came out there was a green jellybean. A single green jelly bean on the deck by my chair. When Jeremy was in physical form, his CB radio title was Jelly Bean and mine was River Queen. His favorite color was green. Mine cinnamon. We are all bringing the greater coherence of the unified field into play in this physical territory. I was thinking this morning that the mantra that works well here is:
For those of you who do not know, my beloved dog, Lily left the physical plane this past Friday, July 31st, 2020. I feel like I have been struck by lightning and yet at the same time being aware that the gripping grief is comparable to the incredible love, devotion, and sentient unity we shared. I only say this because it is referred to below.
Something so incredible is happening to the human race. The only way I know that presence it is to just take you into my/our territory of exploration and awakening and, if it registers for you, then that is perfect and if not you do not have to waste your time in this realm of the beloved and the territories operating on behalf of paradise we are engaging in.
jimwilliams3 wrote:Tantra, I remember Lily. I remember my girl Liebe. And the other dogs I’ve buried on mountains and down on our east forty. Baby. Shadow. Freda. Cory. Opera. Freda was a 135 female grizzlewolf. That’s what Chris Kirtz explained to some tourist downtown what kind of breed she was. Actually, she was a long haired rottweiller — but at least she was socialized. Liebe, my true love who was always waiting for me to get home so she could run up against me and try to knock me down. She was my last dog. A long haired Belgian Turveren with some shepherd. Liebe is love in German, but I think it was more protection she gave me and wasn’t socialized at all. I miss her still. She’s been dead for years. She just laid down in a bathroom and died. By the time I got home my boys had buried her in the east forty.
Was thinking about Shadow the other day. Never knew exactly what kind of dog Shadow was, but there was definitely some chow. Probably some golden retriever. But there was a house beyond Rocky Roost until the Park Service took it down some fifteen years or so. It was haunted. That was why Fred Loyd moved away. Wife’s friend Gil was freaked by it. Christian and Santi with the Italian restaurant were freaked by it. And definitely this family with some teenage girl that tried to intimidate Shadow on her walks by the house was freaked by it. Once they all left the house and came down the street all freaked out. All I could say was: ‘YEP!’ But the funniest thing I ever saw Shadow do was when I was out in front of the house and this girl was walking up the street. She only tried to intimidate Shadow when no one was watching. We could hear. But as she walked up around, Shadow ran up the mountain to get around the fence and ran down so he came up behind her and she had no idea what had happened when he jumped up and sank his teeth into her fat buttock right about hip level. He just grabbed a roll of but and gave her a pinch to let her know how little he appreciated her torment. She said she was gonna tell. I was laughing my butt off, but said: “tell about what?” She was upset. I was thinking Karma. Be nice. And it goes on.
No dogs to escape. No dogs to take to the vet. No dogs for barking at everyone walking by the house. Wonder if I’ll have another.
About the first Wednesday call. Will you (Tantra) be putting any more mailchimp out on the call? And will you be able to be on the call at all? And is there anything you want us to point to and blend in with the scope of the call. I’m starting to think conceptually that quantum mind — that’s a thing, right? (not a meme) — actually may be the simple explanation since it holds so much and explains so much. But I’ve been watching a couple of things that get put into the field. Quantum mind is polycoflolinguistics. As cosmic mind expresses itself through the templates. We voice new realities. Occurring. And we are always taking that territory.
There is work to be done. There is nothing to do but do the work. Whatever it looks like. Wherever it takes us.
That’s kind of what I’m thinking about.
This morning’s call was fun. Very rich. Look forward to hearing again. One of Elektra’s slides had a sentence at its last paragraph that was so packed with its own richness — wasn’t anything to say about it but “POLYCOFLOLINGUISTICS”
Or, Quantum Mind expressing.
Your thoughts about call?
And deepest heart’s compassion for the loss of your beloved Lily.
Response from me.
What I fear most is the loneliness and the incredible perfection of our bond being gone. I am a bit mad at myself this morning because I am at a motel and just collapsed. Tried to stand up and I get so weak. Know it is shock but did everything I could to prevent it. May stay the day here before I go on but driving takes the edge off the loneliness. I know we are on a border…actually our intelligence our quantum mind is past it but our physical emotional bodies are now caught in barbwire until the strength of the quantum mind, our greater intelligence pulls us over. That is why it is so important to unpack as deeply as we can our new experiences that don’t fit anywhere. It is a good place to start. As for my being there. I am hardly here and the grief comes with such strength the power of our love is beyond evident and crying out for a place…to not be lost here. That is what I am tending to. I have no future my beloveds. That does not mean there isn’t one. It is just not what there is to tend to right now.
Ms T
May we enter the kingdom of Paradise, whether it be on imagination or our reality, the healing power of the Mother will have found its way back to us.
I am maintaining my promise to keep the door open to the Realm of Dragon. Whether that is the highway of the beloved that human beings can cross over into or not remains to be seen. Who knows what the August Activation will Bring!
The dragon is a symbol of evil, in both the chivalric and Christian traditions. In the Orient, it symbolizes supernatural power, wisdom, strength, and hidden knowledge. In most traditions, it is the embodiment of chaos and untamed nature.
A mythical beast with a combination of reptilian and serpentine traits, the Dragon features in the legends of several cultures the world over.
Although the dragons of the East and the West have quite similar physical characteristics, their symbolic representations are drastically different and, in a way, indicate the cultural differences between these civilizations. The most notable difference between the Asian and European dragons is that while the European folklore has portrayed the dragons as evil, fearsome and malevolent creatures, the Asian cultures regard them as benevolent beings.
And we wonder why the door to that healing power stays closed.
“The little queen all golden
Flew hissing at the sea.
To stop each wave
Her clutch to save
She ventured bravely.
As she attacked the sea in rage
A holderman came nigh
Along the sand
Fishnet in hand
And saw the queen midsky.
He stared at her in wonder
For often he’d been told
That such as she
Could never be
Who hovered there, bright gold.
He saw her plight and quickly
He looked up the cliff he faced
And saw a cave
Above the wave
In which her eggs he placed.
The little queen all golden
Upon his shoulder stood
Her eyes all blue
Glowed of her true
Undying gratitude.” Anne McCaffrey, Dragonsinger
As I was writing this, an undeniable experience occurred. The land in front of me came alive and it was as if the dragon of the land was arching its back in front of me and under me. I even felt dizzy like the board was bending. I called Sarah, who is the keeper of this kingdom downstairs to share this primordial moment with her and she beckoned me to come and see something she had never seen on her land. It was not the sun.
The sun is over here when I am. Here is the picture I took of the angel and turkey. You see the primordial kingdom lives in harmony and unity with all of the non-physical realms. They are able to shift between form and formless as once, could we. Now we only can when we dream and when we die. The Great Sorrow.
I live in realtime. If we do not live something then we should not talk about it as if we know it. All this having an opinion without the actual experience behind the opinion deadens our mind to what is real for each of us. My work on the planet of this time is to restore the registers for each person what, for them, is real. I love you. Tantra Maat
