There is much I have not been able to talk with you about in the last half-century. Is now a good time? There is a magic to truth falling apart all around us. We are worn out ‘searching for the truth’. This is so valuable. Much more beneficial than detrimental. Why? Because each of us has our own truth and in that truth, we shape our existence, our values, our principles, our perception, and reality itself. I have had an hour a month for over forty years – at the beginning, called Spirit Hour…now named Being in the Realms of the Beloved. I always start things ahead of other human beings being able to perceive what I perceive simply because that is what a mystic does. They give something that holds the heart, the soul, the spirit of life on this planet a place. A place that is because if a place is given then a gathering of energy can occur that eventually will restore the deeper nature of a human being….the nature of a human being that did not get aberrated into fear and a narrow corridor of survival. A place where the wonder of a human being and his or her or their connection to Creation can thrive. This is what it is to be in the Realms of the Beloved. This is our once upon a time.
Is it possible that movies that are being shown, audible books that people are listening to, podcasts, CreateAWorld, and other YouTube videos are doorways into the latent intelligence within the human psyche that is the intelligence we share with the planet and perhaps even as offworlders? Is the human being’s psyche folding back into Story? This is so awesome and so significant. Story awakens latent memories that carry relevance to Now even though the actuality of their existence is not now. I have spent my life telling stories. I did not tell them as truth because the Truth is only relevant to the moment in time within which a human being existence and the circumstances surrounding that existence. But Story – story stimulates the broader, deeper, wider connections of who we are as a species through time and at the same time stimulates who each of us is perhaps even beyond the species itself.
Last night as I walked into the Transmission/Activation, I had the uncanny feeling that layers of aberration in the human psyche were peeling away. It didn’t matter if I got my language right so human beings didn’t trigger, their minds closed off by the mechanization of mind that closes off awareness. The awareness was pulsing. Story now had access to the deeper psyche that would process the story and the perception of the human being would be able to bring the story into their own psyche to serve themselves and Life in their own unique way. Glory Be!
What is your source base? Are you still embodied in the past? Or are you embodying the future?
What is your current relationship to resonance? Is your consciousness unfolding into the power of the collective or are you still isolated in a protective state of individuality? We are in a decisive moment of time. Resonance is part of human beings’ capacity to register paradise again. In resonance, all the remembrance of paradise gets enhanced and amplified when each of us opening up into our unique and essential design comes together. That is what the 7 weeks of running the Templates and writing the Creation Exercises as a collective is all about. Each of us carries a Template of Paradise. What is Paradise besides the original nature of the original design of our physical embodiment both as a planet and as a species? Paradise is where everything operates on behalf of everything else, everything is part of everything else, everything is in relationship with everything else, and everything still has its own place. Paradise is where we exist on behalf of life and are always moving to the next greater whole.
Presence. In the next few months, there will be those of us who are beginning to embody futures we once existed in that drew our consciousness back here. That consciousness is embodying. What an extraordinary moment of time this is even though I admit trying.
Does anything I say resonate? Remind you of a Presence you feel from time to time? Are you gaining new or remembered consciousness?
What are the physical symptoms when you blackout or faint?
Your field of vision may “white-out” or “blackout.” Your skin may be cold and clammy. You lose muscle control at the same time and may fall down. Fainting usually happens when your blood pressure drops suddenly, causing a decrease in blood flow to your brain.
That was not what happened…
My body was not cold or clammy. I was conscious. I have a complete memory of what happened. My body was just…different…more like finding yourself in a pitch-black room and you lose your equilibrium and don’t know what is up or down or sideways.
If you have a blackout, you lose consciousness temporarily. Before that, you might fall down, have blurred vision, or be confused. Sometimes, people experience memory loss and describe this as a blackout – for example, after they have drunk a lot of alcohol or taken illicit drugs.
I did not lose consciousness. I was conscious. I just wasn’t conscious in a way that gave me control over my body. My body was completely at the effect of the dimensional connection I had shifted into concentrating on ‘keeping my eye’ on the ship. It was clearly a ship. I had been watching something the night before that I thought was a cluster of stars. Then last night that cluster of stars began to move down toward the mountain range in front of us. I calmed my system and went into a state shift of ‘being with’ its movement and its shifts and changes. It wasn’t our kind of slowed down, but it slowed down like a spinning disc that didn’t seem like a spinning disc until it slowed as it was moving lower in the sky and then stopping. It looked like a cluster of stars on a disclike dark shape. It was when it stopped in the sky, I could see a left to right movement and then something like shifting back a little to the right and then spinning like I would draw a partial spin on paper or like a dog wet shaking off water in very slow motion.
Fainting begins with an increase in heart rate and blood pressure, followed by a fall in blood pressure and heart rate at the time of the faint. People often feel nauseated before they faint (thought to be due to the back of the brain not getting enough blood supply) and may vomit,” Corcoran said.
I had been standing up watching it with only my knees down standing in the water. I had leaned over and told my friend H that there was a spaceship but I wasn’t sure she could see it because I had been very carefully concentrating on it so that I was using part of my brain slowed down that allowed me to ‘recognize’ it on the horizon.
Then it happened. I am so sorry about all the fear of aliens and of alien craft that people suffer from. What happened to me was very similar if not the same that happened to me in a ceremony at a native sweat where I followed the mind of the shaman leading the sweat into a wolf kingdom in a dimension of spirit which this morning I am happy to say is what happened to me last night…more in a minute on that.
I felt it happen. Contact…not with a creature but with the entire intelligence of the ship and its operational state in the sky that is not anything like how we experience the operational state of movement here. I said to H, “It grabbed my brain,” but that wasn’t true. No Thing grabbed my brain. The frontal lobe of my brain got grabbed by the connection like two magnets that make contact and my brain registered and became part of the consciousness of what I had been paying attention to.
I felt my body’s inertia.
a property of matter by which it continues in its existing state of rest or uniform motion in a straight line unless that state is changed by an external force.
“the power required to overcome friction and the inertia of the moving parts”
If I had been in space, my body simply would have relaxed in space because the body has no way to navigate itself in but in water and pulled by the gravitational pull of the earth that seemed to be relevant.
Below is more about what happened. Remember my body was still in gravity, but without the gravity pulling me face-forward into the water, I could equate what happened more to what is described below. For me, I was floating in space. For my body, it was in a state of rest yet affected by an external force….gravity
What happens to a human body in space?
In the vacuum of space, gas exchange in the lungs continues as normal but results in the removal of all gases, including oxygen, from the bloodstream. After 9 to 12 seconds, the deoxygenated blood reaches the brain, and it results in the loss of consciousness.
..as it was happening, with no control over my body while it was busy being affected by a spatial lack of muscle control and gravity.
“Without the downward force of gravity, the body works considerably less, causing muscle deterioration and loss of bone density.”
Above is pretty much how it felt. No muscle control. Floating in space. The body at the effect of gravity. Space just happened to include gravity and water.
Then I felt my body hit the water. It didn’t feel like water, it felt like liquid space like under the ocean way down, but I didn’t realize my face was in the water. I just remember being curious because I could tell my pulse wasn’t racing. I didn’t feel blood rush out of my head or into my head. I was weightless and it was cool. What wasn’t so cool though I didn’t feel panic was that the body keep falling into the water when H tried to sit it up on the side of the pool. I don’t even know if my eyes were open or closed. Once I realized the body was having trouble, like with the work I did with a colleague in time traveling, it got my attention and I tried to get control of my body. I had no ringing in my ears. I could feel my pulse. It was quite normal. My body and I were just having trouble getting reacclimated to gravity and probably would have drowned if I had been there alone.
Once I could work with H to get my body and me out of the water onto the cold lawn chair, I knew to pull away from the experience as much as possible or my body would not have an easy time of it. I was nauseous. My bowels moved without muscle control. I began the journey of restoring my relationship with my physical form concentratedly. I made sure I, in no way, tried to think about what I had just experienced because the body began to be that experience again, not a body trying to reinstate itself to gravity and standing up and walking. It was still cool even though it was a bit of a challenge. I knew I wasn’t in trouble biologically even though I realize the body might have drowned without H there. Bad timing for the body, for sure. I just needed to manage my body and I coming back into gravity and getting back to the house so I could lay my body down.
My head was pounding but my pulse was a beautiful 60 bpm. My body felt so calm and soft from the mineral pool but fluid. I was fluid too. We were one in that fluidity. I had never felt the body and what I call me the same.
When we got home, H gave me Advil which I requested. Needed some chemicals to reduce the headache but also congeal physically. She recommended the homeopathic remedy Aconitum napellus or shock which I thought would be good for the body also, but I did not feel a shock to the body at all. It was just fluid and needed to congeal and for the moment my attending to it being solid was the only thing having it stay solid enough to get into bed. I was really sure if I tried to change clothes, I might not have been able to.
In bed, prone, the body and I could process the experience.
Before I read Georgia’s about Sunday and responded, telling her about my encounter, I was lying in bed on my back feeling them. I knew when I began to make things up imaginatively in my duality brain, but the experience was nonduality…completely nondual.
We were one just not a ‘we’ or ‘me’. ‘We’ were fluidity like a consciousness. A lot like moving through the water when I had on a deep-sea diving suit walking among the sand sharks on the bottom of the shallow ocean floor in Cape Cod only without the suit. I hope I never get over the fluidity of my body and their bodies as part of a structure that held us in that fluidity together. I just laid there. I hoped H would come back so I could share the miracle of it, but I had the feeling she was a little spooked so I didn’t call her. Lying in bed, my body felt like it had lost tons of weight, was so slim, and willowy. I realize now I was feeling the body without the pull of gravity…the real experience of weightlessness without feeling the weight of gravity. That feeling is gone now I am up awhile talking but the remembrance is there.
Then I tried to get back to normal to see if I could. I got my phone and responded to an email from E and a text with G, but all I wanted to do was capture the encounter. In hindsight, I am so amazed it was G and E I responded to before I quit trying, as the state of experience that I was in was so compelling.
The text message is below. I couldn’t stop smiling and I am smiling now. The most profound part of it happened this morning for me, however.
We shared our spirits or Spirit….no real equivalent in word structure. I only know as they passed through my part of the earth, I got to share my spirit with their spirit and that memory is still in my body today. I can feel now ‘spirit’ in my body. It was what had me able to ‘visit’ and ‘share’ space with them. That is what is so cool. My body is so different to me this morning. Something congealed that has me smile.
Russ addresses our family group as Elder Talking Spirits. That statement will never be the same for me now. I now experience my body as a Walking Spirit. We can talk about dimensionality and sentient intelligence as the intellectual structure that I think our minds need to comprehend. Human beings are having sensations that they do not realize are their dimensional natures restoring so they need a mental register, just like we mentally register having a body. I know I had accessibility to the encounter dimensionally in a more profound manner because H had been working dimensionally in her work in my course Your Emergent Self and reality was malleable, able to not be restricted in my own physiological capacity.
I will never know about some things that I ponder. Was the encounter planned in some higher intelligence than our own manner? Did the work in being in dimensional realms of which human beings are designed to participate that H is doing and my holding the space for that open a channel of connection. I am reminded of what another Emegent Self participant experienced. Similar to me actually. Humm? Nonetheless, I am not going to reduce this experience to mental degradation. I am going to be in my body’s spirit today and hopefully every day from now on.
All my understanding of what we call spirit which, for me, I have always equated ‘spirit’ to being ‘inspirited’, but this was absolute – ‘spirit’ for real. The word and the sentient register are now one.
Text between Tantra and G
Tantra: “I promise I am not kidding. H was there. I made contact with a spaceship in the Riverbend Hot Spring mineral pool and H had to keep me from drowning.”
G: Oooh, jealous!! ? Any conversations you remember??.
Tantra: It is awesome. Now I am lying down in bed. I can feel them. They are beautiful not in a way I can describe and I can’t close my eyes or I lose my balance lying down. The room is so different as if the walls and doors are liquid. I feel liquid. They aren’t like us. No idea about anything else. Different so different. No real contact like I would think in a movie. More like we are part of each other’s show somehow like doors and walls. I know I may not be making sense. But now I am not falling face forward in the hot pool it is really beautiful and like nothing I have ever experienced. So soft, porous, gentle, fluid… I think that is why I think they are beautiful. Maybe I’m like something added but I don’t have their attention but somehow I do.
G: Awwwww…. So lovely!
Tantra: It is. What a surprise. H pulled me out of the water. I seemed to be content under the water. She got me to sit on the edge. Turned around and I fell face forward in the water again content to not move under the water. Finally, after she got me out the second time I registered something was wrong and I might drown. I feel my brain lock into it/them sort of. It was like my brain got grabbed by the ship’s movement in space. Not really a ‘them’ then. Thanks for letting me share. Wanted to capture it for myself. A real first. Love you. See you this weekend.
G: How really special
and there is more…
The Seventh Dimension, written by Indigo Insight- what H was working with that day in Your Emergent Self.
“As we enter the higher dimensions beyond the sixth, we lose shape and form. The dimensions become more abstract and less easily described in human language. The seventh dimension is the realm of cosmic sound – not the vibratory patterns that we hear in the physical dimension, but the harmonics of creation. Seventh-dimensional consciousness is the place of the group consciousness the “We”. When you are experiencing any synergy between people it is the activation of the soul group that makes this possible. Many beings of light group together on this level to interact with the levels below. Many Extra-terrestrial beings are not singular in consciousness like humans but are a group or we consciousness. The Zeta are beings who have no concept of separation or individuality. Many angelic beings such as the higher principles group together on this level as one being in their interaction and communication with the lower levels. This is the dimension you go to, to communicate with your soul family. You can travel back to your original home planet through the energy of the soul group.”
H: I was not spooked, I went in a medical mode because of your body’s activity. I looked up when you showed me the ship and I saw something, a small light. What was significant is that like you, I felt a pull and it felt like a magnet. I heard a splash and I turned around and you were lying facedown in the water. At first I thought you were doing one of your bonding things but then it had been too long. I grabbed you and pulled you up. You told me you were in a trance or something. I said, “Let’s get you out of the water. Why don’t you sit on the side for a minute?” Once I thought you stable, I turned back to the sky. Within a minute or so there was another splash you were face down in the water again not moving. I saw your body look like it took a breath in the water and I worried you might have inhaled water. I pulled you up again and started talking to you, suggesting we put you on the lounge chair and out of the hot water. Together we got you onto the lounge chair. You kept letting me know your pulse was fine. You were nauseous. I was nauseous too. My solar plexus was on fire, but having to tend to you helped me stay focused and not get distracted by the strangeness of the situation.
Tantra: All I could concentrate on was my solar plexus. I needed to not vomit. I needed my solar plexus to be able for the connection I had experienced. I needed to give it a chance to restore its so above/so below capacity. I knew that was mandatory. I knew that this event was a Time event. I didn’t know at the time that my friend Anne in Ireland was the one in charge that day of Gathering Time Events until the next morning when I read it in our WhatsApp thread.
Tantra: I had been thinking about Anne all day yesterday. It was her day to do the Gathering of Time Events, the new reality occurring in Time. During the same experience at the same time, H and I had above, Anne had a similar response.
Anne had shared on WhatsApp: “Felt a strong wobble in the field. Holding you both in what is rising.”
I called her the next morning and she reported: Last night I couldn’t sleep. I was watching something upstairs so I would not disturb my husband. Between 4 and 4:30 am our time [9 and 9:50 pm our time when we were at Riverbend Hotsprings mineral pool watching a spaceship]. My husband woke, saw I was not in bed, and came to find me. He never usually does that. As I stood up from the seat I was in, my whole body literally swooned. Not like a faint or lightheaded. It was like my body was not anchored by gravity. I collapsed back unable to find equilibrium. It was a very strange experience. Discombobulated. Thankfully the seat is like a couch and it was a soft landing. I did hit my head on the wall, but it was not hard enough to hurt. Felt I needed to place in the Field, especially when I read this. ????
As we started to gather pieces people were experiencing at the same time across the world, the pieces clearly pointed to all of us being in a Time Event. I asked Lara to transcribe our recorded conversations.
Congruent experience at the said hour of Tantra’s with H & Anne’s SpaceTimeShip Event at 4 AM Ireland Time/ 9 PM Mountain Time.
Was transcribing two calls concurrently at that time. One was scripting Kristin’s remembrance of breathing underwater.
The other was an IGG Observing of H’s in exploration/conversation with Tantra about the spinning axis of the Emergent Self at the center of a toroidal field in vital connectivity with all life. The 7th and 11th dimensions were highlighted.
and then I watched this and it all came together in the beauty of its entirety…a moment in time.
Transcript of Matias De Stephano’s youtube video, YOSOY 22022022.
Feel it as you read it out loud…
In the womb I heard the Voice calling me to birth.
All heart’s rhythm, it’s harmony vibrates in melodies, music illuminated expanding to the world.
My mind became emotion and created life.
I saw the deep beauty, wide along the road. I walked it North to South to find Me in the center.
Remembered my past, projected my future and enjoyed my presence.
I had my ups and downs but, I found my axis, no bad, no good. I was a rainbow. I became wise and loved unconditionally and manifested my dreams.
brighter, and saw who I Am,
a net of Matrix, a pattern of music, a web of existence.
my dream is an idea that originates the thoughts of the world.
My eyes can see through you – your eyes can see through me.
WE are echoes of the great Universal symphony, resounding in the infinite to the rhythm of the heart.
Our existence is an eternal encounter, my intention is your existence. Your action is my essence.
We are both lovers remembering being One and our pulse is Creation Itself.
I AM you and you are me.
Who you are with Me.
I AM the origin of life, the memory that lives in you.
Everyone you were, you are and will be.
I AM the Divine Spark that enlights your actions potentials, the beat that irradiates your light to the world.
I AM the pillars of existence, the path that leads to the only destiny, Oneself, here and now.
I AM the singing that resounds in each being’s voice, the breathing of consciousness.
Unite the world’s web through time and space.
It is the moment to rebuild the dream.
So in regard to the World of Unity call on September 1st 2021, the opportunity and offer is to take up a way of engaging that actually leaves an empty space, where that which has not existed before can rise.
The two dynamics that we are going to be using in the A World of Unity Telecall are:
1: In science, we have evidence of the difference between fission and fusion. Fission leaves waste, things that have to be cleaned up. Fusion takes everything in, includes everything and creates something that has never existed before. A side note on this is those people in the Being Leadership support group might want to take this on as a practise of listening where being a Leader is about opening a space where something that could not have happened, has a place to happen.
There is a phenomenon of listening that I am inviting you into which I explained in the call which is added to the end of this document. The recap is (a)listening for what is happening where we are standing-literally standing – our house, Montana, Africa, etc. (b) Listening what for us has affected us by what is happening where we are standing, and/or what has affected others, or the place it happened.
So, the listening I am inviting you into is the quality of being in direct unity with Creation where we are listening everything happening and the effect on the field with bias – simply listening as if every person sharing is the voice of Creation in different parts of the planet.
In this phenomenon, which doesn’t carry an articulation, we are generating, with Creation, an empty space where something that is a composite of the whole of what we have been listening to others as well as to ourselves presencing. In other words, with everything recorded in the Mind of Creation, none of that observed has to be repeated and what is missing as part a greater whole can be created. Then Creation can generate a ‘whole system response’.
A lot of territories are covered, a lot of landscape of mind occurs. Creation opens up space for more, that none of what has been covered, covers. That activity of Creation leaves an open space for what has not existed before. Only the greater system of Creation of which we are a part has the intelligence to generate with us in the field of Creation beyond what we can be present to in the moment of now of our observing. After that, we then begin to ‘see’ evidence of that which has not existed before. Or that which has not seemed possible before.
This is the phenomenon of filling the space we have been in with everything we are aware of so an emptiness beyond that can occur. We talk spiritually about emptiness. We talk spiritually about unity. This is the practice that we want to go into if we are really interested in becoming the consciousness we are designed to be in unity with Creation.
This emptiness allows the reality of the circumstances and situations that keep repeating themselves and is stuck to move back into the flow of Creation and we begin to move into the next greater whole.
We begin where we all are now and we let that which exists exist exactly the way it is and exactly the way it is not.
I am also going to type out a quote here.
Then as we listen. Remember: Human beings are knee-jerked to try to learn, to try to see what is different, to try to believe. And we want to try to put that knee-jerk-ness aside. Then we can be in unity of Creation operating on behalf of Creation and operating within a consciousness of what a group can do to clear a space where we have included everything we can find to include in the now of where we are in a moment of time. We can report on where we are experiencing life now. Creation has a way of taking everything that already exists creating a cohesive, coherent, congruent activity that is beyond our bandwidth, and opening us up into what has not been available to exist before.
This, if you listen carefully, or took notes on the World of Unity call we did last time, is a new higher consciousness way of being.
I find more and more every day as the essential nature, and I do mean ESSENTIAL, of our Being is summoned by what we are as part of Creation, phenomenon, especially in the electromagnetic grid will occur more and more as time goes on in the next 6 years.
Last night as those of you know who stayed on the call, an hour before the call, I morphed into [whatever terminology one might assign it] a metapoint with ‘fire’ centralized in the Grass Valley and Nevada City, California area.
Usually, my morphing into these metapoints is not a public event, but two things were there as part of the whole Creation Response. 1. I gathered the power. To gather the power, in this instance, was to gather the people on behalf of what was ‘rising in the Field’ of consciousness connected to this fire. It was distinct as I was present to the fire going further than the physical reality of trees, bushes, buildings. It was going with its consciousness – not human- primal -and powerful – and aware of what needs to be destroyed for the consciousness of the Mother [what I call the planet] to reset her Field on Behalf of All Life. It was all happened faster than I could anchor alone so I reached the Sentinel Group in the area and the WhatsApp group of The Field of Tantra Maat and engaged. 2. In the vertical reality of so above so below there is something in ancient days called a summoning. Though I am aware most human beings think the only thing happening on this planet that supports the living life force consciousness of this planet is human beings, that is not the truth. There have been layers -nested one into the other- consciousnesses that make up the layers of physical nonphysical formations of consciousness here. One of those is Dragon. I have recall and remembrance of this.
Recall is when the memory is like it is still very real. Remembrance is where that realness sustains and maintains its actuality in the present moment of form in the present timeline. As human beings formed they were protected by the dragons. So many of us feel that even if many have to wrestle with their ‘adult’ insanity. There is more to it than that but enough for now.
A summoning in the world of this planet is a very significant thing. I had set up an activation that I felt summoned by Creation to set in human time. My Shifu an hour before that time, sent me a video of the fire buring in Grass Valley and hour before the activation began.
I slipped into vertical so above/so below Time.
I summoned others. The as the activation gathered The Summoning was apparent. You could say light-heartedly the Mother had summoned us to gather together on behalf of all Life. There is more than that but enough for now.
When I began the call, I said, this is not only a transmission/activation. It is an event. When I got on the call, the distortion in time and space between the density that human beings exist in most of the time and the nondensity of where I was outside of that created an electromagnetic event. The earbuds couldn’t hold. I am very moved by the people staying on the call as the sound distorted and they got to hear the sounds of the nondensity of Creation gathering the forces to protect our beloveds in the area. As I began to ‘come back in’, I got the messages, pulled out my earbuds, and finished the call audibly with my speaker on.
For me, it was an exciting moment because we held together even as we moved beyond the density into the – what might be called the theta state – together to bring together a coherent whole on behalf of all life – humans, fire, dragons, summonings, the mother, etc. I am going to do another activation/transmission on this for the people who purchased this one. I am going to ‘put to bed’ this activation as it was an event that was only a moment in time. I will get that out to those who purchased the event and will have the new one available for those who would purchas later.
If I could have a miracle, the miracle would be that somehow this journal entry reaches the woman who touched me deeply and who I wish I could help.
At the bottom of this journal entry is a request for those who have had covid…not to work with me but to find a particular remedy….but please read first.
This is a simple yet heartfelt hope that I can reach somehow the airways of as many people as possible that have had covid and post covid breathing problems, general fatigue, muscular fatigue, and/or depressions that are existential crucibles.
I use the word ‘crucible’ on purpose because the last seven months of restructuring my life to get my life back has left me at the door I did not expect. I am 75 years old. That means I have a long history with myself. What I did not expect was having to go to ground zero to rebuild my system (post-Covid is not a recovery event. it is a rebuild event from scratch event). The definition of a crucible is -a situation of severe trial, or in which different elements interact, leading to the creation of something new. the word existential is also on purpose. ‘Existential’ comes from a Latin word that means ‘to exist.’. The field deals with questions about the meaninglessness of human life and a person’s individual freedom and responsibility to make his or her life meaningful in some way.
I was fortunate. I have an extraordinary medical support structure of women and men who are on the leading edge of researching not disease recovery but what has a physical system restore its wholeness regardless of the disease or injury. Much research has been done to show that the body can completely regenerate or at least for now to an expanded degree beyond what was thought. This has always been true for me. I have a track recovery of rejuvenating my body but now consciously. That means I did not have the actual path it took, I just seemed to have a capacity to have show up what was needed and I had not forgotten at a spiritual level that the body was whole regardless of its circumstance or what it was at the effect of. Now I have a more conscious relationship with what has the body remember its wholeness but it is important to remember it was not always that way for me.
What had me finally write this journal entry was yesterday. I had met a woman last month who was in covid recovery. She and I and others are in an exercise and fitness center together for heart and covid recovery. When I saw her she was laughing and she was talking to me about how she couldn’t believe how I took on working out so rigorously and that it was fun to watch and inspiring.
It has been hell actually, but I go in, put my airbuds in my ears….turn on Technotronic music. My body is inspired and responds to the beat. Then I went home and collapsed. For those rebuilding their bodies and their psyches after Covid, I might add that I am on the side of rebuilding where I can now breathe and mostly not fatigued so much after exercise. What I have now run into is the replenishment of blood flow in the muscle has produced excessive soreness and pain. I have chosen not to use pain killers simply because I am paranoid they would suppress the body’s natural healing…and truth said…I have a few times. My brain still revs and it is hard to meditate and sleep but I use delta music from Source Vibrations to at least help me get to sleep or have my brain rest. All this is for those of you who think they need to recover can take on what it is to rebuild. I had Covid in June 2020. It is now August 2021. The post symptoms did not start being evident until February of 2021.
I saw her yesterday day. She turned and looked at me and smiled. We are all wearing masks again, but I recognized her anyway. She was walking laps around the gym room holding onto an oxygen tank trailing beside her. She had not been on any oxygen of any kind before. Her eyes were sad, kind, and pleading. That did it.
Now PLEASE I BEG YOU FIND A HOMEPATH! The one thing that was absolutely clear was the Covid depleted my system’s ability to recover its life force energy no matter what I did. Nothing worked. No matter what I did, I couldn’t walk more than 20 steps. Any incline of altitude took me down. I couldn’t hydrate. I had to stay on baby coconut water to keep my electrolytes in my body. I started Carbo Monoxide [leaving out dosage intentionally because you need to contact a homeopath and let them know what I was on.] and Conium. It wasn’t overnight. It took months including making my body move and lots of rest and a Mediterranean diet with primarily a protein shake that gave my body just what it needed without over-taxing the digestive process.
The most important thing besides the intense need to handle post covid effectively was I had to make myself first. I had always made my work first. No more. I found a sense of self in taking care of my body that I did not know existed. I had a good life…a rich life…a deep life before Covid but this is different. Yesterday when I was driving back from the clinic, I noticed that lately there had been a quality to my thinking that felt like the thinking of a ‘me’ that would have been me if I had not been so shaped by the reality I was born into and the obligations I felt I had to fulfill to be here. It felt good.
For those of you who read this, let your friends who have had covid and are struggling mentally, emotionally, physically. It affects your mental processing, your emotional happiness, and your muscular strength including the heart and lung muscles.
postscript: There are other things I did also. I got the remnants of the virus out of my intestinal track with a horse worm application, I stayed on the same supplements that I fought through the disease with. I kept my body highly fed with what has it build back, but the homeopathy, without it nothing could have reglued my body have the little spike protein had ravaged it because it keeps the body depleted long after the symptoms are gone. I know I was there.
In Honor of the Realms of the Beloved. We cannot make it without that which loves us. Many years ago, a beautiful young guru, Sai Maa Lakshmi Devi told me that my body would detoxify for about two years because I was needed in the years to come. She gave me a mother of pearl to wear around my neck so that I could stay connected to her during that time. I was so ill almost immediately, hot, sweating, nauseous, pretty much collapsed on my bed. I did not want to go through this for two years. I heard Maa was going to be in Chicago. I called my friend Lucinda and asked her to attend the event with me so I could get there. I told her and her husband Doug, I did not care if I was on a stretcher…get me there. They met me at the plane, helped me to sit between them on the floor. They both had their arms around me to steady me. At one point in the evening, Sai Maa looked at me and said, “Because they love you, you can now heal.” I left that evening without a fever and walking tall. My beloved Lucinda is now Sai Maa’s legacy
I was on an amazing call last night with two amazing young people. The young woman works in the Feldenchrist method. The young man works in the Rolfing method. There was no doubt, along with Dr. Heather Hunt DC, that they work in whole system response. Both of them spoke of, for them, one of the three main aspects of healing is being connected into loving relationships…people who care as well as recognizing whatever someone might’ hold God to be’ cares…being with that which loves you/us.
These are the times that the activity of that which loves life here comes to our aid. It is power that operates when needed on behalf of life.
There really are Realms of the Beloveds. There is not a ‘they’ there. There are realms that operate on behalf of all life and some who love human beings very very much. I know. I came from there. The most important characteristic of the Realms is that the realms operate as Beloveds of Life and with Each Other intimately tending to the preciousness of Creation – much like the Irish Anam Cara.
I almost stopped meeting with The Realms of The Beloveds every third Sunday of the month. It is so hard right now to watch humanity caught in the illusion of itself when help and aid and love are at hand. I made a request and the request was met. Some very beautiful statements were made that let me know that people were aware that they were loved and becoming consciously restored to who they were as a beloved of life. That was enough for me.
Up until now, we only go back to the personality of a child to try to discover our nature of Self.
That is not what I am looking at.
Is it possible to consider that your greater consciousness came in compromised and unable to adjust to the personality framework of limitation that held together the world here?
Is it possible that your higher natures of being needed to accomplish what needed to happen here through becoming an alchemical Being who would use their human lifetime to transcend all societal limitations?
Is it possible that you came into the realm of ‘forgotten’ to restore ‘remembrance’?
I could not for the life of me comprehend what was happening in the psyche of some human beings over the last year.
Then I realized.
The human psyche is no longer limited to configuring from the child but from the natures of Being that came in through the child – not separate just compromised.
In other words, not a walk-in, but a struggle, a conflict that came from a different nature of Being than the world around the child that the child was not capable of comprehending. The nature of Being did not have a place. The persona matrixes of the Higher Self, the Transcendent Self, the MetaSelf depending on the terminology could not come online
Now those greater persona matrixes are coming online.
I don’t know about you, but I was pretty upset when fire wouldn’t come out of my finger when I was three. I know we laugh about this. But then why in so many consults the person knows they are different than the world around them in a real intense way because the nature of self is gaining traction in them.
The Emergent Personality of Self is rising in the molecular, atomic, cellular principles of Gaia here.
I am sorry that it has taken so long for the deeper psyche of Being to rise…. almost unbelievable it is here.
I feel compelled to open some days for a few people to come and cross the border into Their Being and bring Being back here, I can feel the need for a tipping point. In the realities of unity, imprints are rising in the etheric territories that carry the consciousness of your Being trying to come awake again as you have grown and become capable of nurturing your Being to be here on behalf of All Life.
In high frequency, if only a few restore their Emergent Personality of Self that was present from the beginning, a ripple effect can occur in the collective consciousness of humanity.
This is what is trying to happen.
We just got to this moment in time to recover the original natures of our original design.
We are now in a Personality of Self emergence. Glory be!
I just gotta say. 🙂 I am sitting here in bed reflecting on my life…mostly my life choices and how they have been good ones. I truly believe that these choices are the sources of this fragile body maintaining itself all these years.
I understand the medical end of things but frankly, it has been the relationships I have had with some [more than less] humans and the profound spiritual connections I have had the honor to experience this lifetime that is the underlying substance of creation that has sustained me. And now this walk that many have taken can for not only myself but many, give us this moment in human history to embody again the original nature of the paradise that we are the templates of here.
The last few months have been particularly challenging because being psychic you can feel threads of futures that are unfolding and some, in this case, have suggested a termination of participation on this beautiful planet is possible. There are not many surprises being psychic, for sure.
In the Creation Exercises, these amazing formulas of creation that restore the original relationship of spirit and flesh, matter and energy, secular and sacred, eternal and temporal, I found that I could restore my body and its ability to survive here more and more independent of structures of reality that have separated the spirit and the flesh [from adrenal fatigue to cancer], matter and energy [visit Los Alamos where they are extricating energy from the earth to make destructive structures to ‘protect’], secular and sacred [religious terrorism], eternal and temporal [no long term respect for life itself only short term gratification].
Tracking the unity [the METApoints] of spirit and flesh, matter and energy, secular and sacred, temporal and eternal has been my unrelenting without waiver focus for over 45 years. It is this focus personally that has led me to this moment and to write the sentence that started this train of thought above.
“I am sitting here in bed reflecting on my life…mostly my life choices and how they have been good ones.”
It took everything I had with post covid effects, the loss of my dog who buffered me for years so I could maintain loving being here, and a heart and lungs who are struggling to maintain normalcy to come to facilitate an Equinox ritual in Boulder, Colorado.
Not knowing the outcome of moving across mountains at 8000 to 100000 altitudes, fatigue that haunts my normal vibrancy, and newly working with some abnormalities in my heart tests, I knew to come and do my part.
Why? It may sound strange to a world that has often pseudo lures of ‘out there’ gratifications, of ‘if only’ something out there would give me what I think I need…all sources of disconnection from Life and Others and Creation.
It is my connection to human beings who persist in loving life no matter what they are under the weight of that is a source of my trust that my body will, not only succeed in carrying me forward but, in my connection to these humans, will continue to build its capacity to thrive. It is my connection to the powers and forces of Creation [what I call the Realms of the Beloveds] that love this planet and her forms and operates on their behalf that I gave over my life and death to a long time ago because of the eternal nature of continuance enthralls me and the ability to be here as part of that continuance thrills me.
Hence where else would I be this past weekend and the weekend coming for another such opportunity? This past week has been an encapsulation of my life’s journey. A group of people maintained their persistency in bringing forward as a collective creation a TV show that is the next recursion of Creation moving forward in a collective vision, the next powerful capacity beyond individual vision. An ‘Anam Cara’ flew in to drive me from Albuquerque to Denver so I could facilitate, not as the burden of woe, but the joy of adventure. I am staying at the home of the extraordinary woman who persisted in building a home for the Creation Templates given to me by a greater intelligence of which the mind of a human is a part – The Language of Consciousness Institute. The people on the WhatsApp threads of healing and community who stood with me in a shared energy of connection. The magic of what it is to be human with other humans is a daily nourishment for me. When she writes, “I am holding your hand and am walking with you.” And another responds, “I have the other hand.” Another calling, sharing the excitement of awakening…stories of connection and the joy of response from the deeper webbing of life here. My housemate and my brother organizing getting beautiful pieces of furniture from our childhood to this magical home in Albuquerque, New Mexico coming alive with points of unity daily. Our collective beloved man taking over a call for me I could not make Sunday morning to sustain and maintain our connection of L.O.V.E. with Creation. Walking with people all over the planet this weekend taking care of where human beings and Creation meet and restore the paradigms of paradise here again.
It is not woo woo. It is Reality. Their strength becomes my strength. Pictures shared that show our communal participation with community builds the will to thrive that holds the capacity to survive. ETC!
I do not know what today or tomorrow will bring. There will be people still looking for answers as if the answers create realities of unity. If I die, today or tomorrow, there will be people saying, “See, she is just imagining this.” Carry on. There is an extraordinary song by a young woman Sineed Lohan. This is my response to those who do not see the magic and beauty of what human beings can be together.
For me, every minute of every day I give to live in a realm of being with others in the Field of Creation where there Eternal and the Temporal, the Secular and the Sacred, the Spirit and the Flesh can flourish because separation is not of value and unity with all life is.
I feel fantastic this morning. I woke up at 4:30 am so excited about the new influx of energy in my cells.
Walking with the Gods yesterday honoring what created pathways of mortal Creation here revived the immortal of me. Having my Beloveds never leave my side or each other, taking care of me so I could take care of Creation flows magically in my blood this morning. Tasks that needed doing being taken over by others until I am capable again strengthens the energy of my heart while its matter is restoring. Watching a lovely wacko Disney movie Monsters versus Aliens with my two sistas celebrated the normalcy of a human life living in the fluid of an eternal river.
My fingers hit the keyboard this morning and could not stop my writing and thanking you….and celebrating, and flowing with the Enfusion of Creation that exists here.. in us…mortal and immortal…I love you.