If I were writing a book called My Home. This would be Chapter Two. Chapter One would have to be titled: Where I Am Standing Even Though in Truth I Am Sitting. Chapter Two would be titled: What is Mine To Do.
The Field of Creation I am a part of is a landscape of consciousness. Once upon a time consciousness was our landscape. It was where we worked out our unique and essential expression of the whole. It was not about trauma or coping or dealing with the world around us the best we could. It was where we as conscious being through our Sovereign Natures, what some would call our divinity, sculpted out amazing territories to expressive life in remarkable ways.
At some point probably over time, this remarkable planet and her amazing ability to house our divine nature were compromised and the structure of existence here went out of tensegrity. Since I am not trapped in the illusion of separation, I remember these realms here and came back not just this time but many times before to be part of restoring the tensegrity which the structural design of our planet and of our bodies. You could say that this planet and her forms’ integrity are designed to float in a sea of spirit through an integral tension. Very different thought process than what is wrong with you; what is wrong with them; what is wrong with it. The blame game. It becomes apparent as you mature your consciousness that carries a territory where everything is part of everything else; everything operates on behalf of everything else; you are part of everything, and everything is part of you when the tensegrity is out.
More simply said from one who lives out beyond the codes of coping. I came to be part of generating new realities within which new future could rise. I came clear that problems are not humanmade which has had humanity spinning like gerbils on a wheel ever since the myth of original sin was created. It is a reality issue. The reality we live in here has gone out of balance and harmony – the principle expression of tensegrity.
Before I go on, and if you have not yawned, stretched, and gone back to more important things, as it says in the commercial where people are doing amazing feats at a death-defying level, do not think this is share is a how-to manual for all people. Only people who are trained to interact with ‘reality’ in a tensegrity way should take on ‘reality’.
In the Field of Creation of which I am a part, there are structures that generate this tensegrity between energy and matter, spirit and flesh, secular and sacred, the eternal and the temporal. They are simple codes of tensegrity. We don’t use the word tensegrity. We just the word transparency. We use the phrases “What is mine to do?” “What is mine to have?” “What is mine to be?’
The tension exists in resonant listening. Simply said, since I am talking for myself, “Do I resonate with what I am seeing, hearing, sensing, etc.” If not, I listen to what I do resonate with. Within this tension that trainings like Landmark work with is an integrity of ‘being’ that generates energetic environments with which the tension of life exists in a movement of creation that is gobsmack awesomely cool.
The Field of Creation I am part of works with the Nature of Being also that each of us has that is a territory of consciousness where each of us has are a Sovereign Nature of Being operating on behalf of life and what has life exist as whole.
This is a skillset of the original nature of our original design. In my resonant listening in unity with Creation, I am called to write this mini expletive. All of us know those moments when we recognize when something is ours to do. Doesn’t mean we do it, but we do know when we are called. You could say that the action of doing is the tension and the knowing it is ours to do is the integrity…hence: tensegrity.
It is my skillset. I deal with reality not people. I am aware of what realities operate on behalf of life and what realities do not. At this juncture, in the metapoint of the eternal and the temporal, what is not a structure of integrity and tension that operates on behalf of life is becoming apparent like a wart on the end of your nose. Some people, many of whom, I am getting to exist within this Field of Creation have simply stepped out of the reality of separation and are standing on the threshold of new futures that are generated by new realities rising.
I am standing at one of those thresholds. I am an at an edge, at this moment, between realities – ones that separate us from all life and ones that have us be in unity with all life.
The first question I ask myself is in regard to this dilemma of an out of balance and out of harmony reality rising in my midst: “What for me is really real?”
I love my RV and where I live.
I am clear that my RV and where I live are part of new futures rising.
I am clear about what is mine to do and not mine to do.
Yesterday, 2019.03.29 I wrote about what was mine to do. Oh, before I go there, I forgot to share – there are two types of time occurring in our human existence right now. One type of time is ‘Be Here Now.” The other type of time is EXHAUSTING trying to MAKE THINGS HAPPEN. This is an illusion of the human mind.
That we make things happen which is not true. What is true is a Be Here Now time where we are simply lining up with Creation, being one with Creation, and responding in unity with Creation. This is often referred to as intuition and/or trusting our gut. This is our best minimal language but does not get to the remarkable intelligence that resides in the language of creation behind the word intuition and the phrase trusting our gut.
There is a phrase ‘free will’ – again minimalized language – that simply means that we are free to do life anyway we want to until, because we are part of a greater whole that operates on behalf of all life and within which we exist as whole, collective actions of minimalized intelligence out of touch with the greater systems of response have slippage of integrity and tension moving into reaction no longer about generating a tension that brings our lives back into alignment with Creation. A phrase we are using in our global citizenry is ‘maintaining these edges we are finding ourselves on’. Free will operates in temporal time, being in the integrity and tension of Creation operates in eternal time.
In these three pages, I broad-stroked a background that is what gives me my foreground.
Today, I am sharing what is not mine to do.
I got a letter from the service manager at the RV dealership, but I am not called to read it. It is not mine to do.
I can feel that something or some things are not yet in tensegrity, so action not based in the integrity of Sovereign Nature of my own Being’s direct link with Creation is not yet available to me at this time.
What became apparent is where reality is rising and what is seeking to be generative as an expression of life is who we are as a community when we are, as a community, in unity with All Life. And in that, what is ours to do?
I wait to see if there is anyone who knows it is theirs to do to read the letter.
I wait to see if there is anyone who knows it is in their Sovereign Territory in unity with Creation to interact with the dealership.
I found out today that the people that built my RV- Simplicity Rodtrek have gone out of business. That the incredible 55-year warranty on my vehicle I bought July 2018 is no longer valid. I bought the RV from Demartini, a RV company in Grass Valley, California. For a while, I had a lovely service person name David who help me with the wrong information I was given at the time of purchase. He also went over correctly how to run my RV. The information that it been told me incorrectly at the time that someone else had gone over the same thing. I was told the RV was good for any season and it was not. DeMartini either with grace or disgruntledness, I do not know which, put winter blankets on the RV so that I could keep her pipes warm during the winter.
I had also ordered a screen to be put in for the summer on my sliding door. When they put the screen in they disconnected an electric plug by the sliding door and the lights over the front of the RV no longer worked. David and I made arrangements to bring the RV in this spring to fix the problem created when they put it in.
My engine light came on in the Dodge engine that is the RV’s motor vehicle part. I called David to find out when to bring it in to Demartini. I also had no manuals for the vehicle so I did not even know what the engine was I had. I was concerned when I found out that he is left, but I asked to speak to the service manager. The person I got told me it was a Mercedes. I was pretty sure it wasn’t, so I called the Erwin-Hymer who still answered their phone then and found out it was a Dodge ProMaster. I called back and made sure I got the service manager and told him what the other person had said. It turned out it was him. He told me that I had to go to a Dodge dealer to get the vehicle part fixed. Let’s just say kindness was not in his speaking.
I went to San Diego this week, came up and picked up my RV and drove to my site. I did not know that’s the inverter battery had died. Demartini had replaced the battery that was dead when I purchased my Simplicity. They replaced it with a AGM battery not the lithium battery that was from the factory. I called Edwin-Hymer customer service to see if there was a simple fix and to find out what the warranty because my battery was not recharging. What I found out was that they went out of business and that warranties were no longer covered. I still put off calling DeMartini…making calling them my last option. I called Roadtrek road side service and was told there was no more customer help over the phone. I was so disappointed because when the battery had gone out in the winter an amazing young man had stayed with me on the phone for hours in the cold showing me how to keep warm, built back the charge, and even trained me in wattage and batteries and inverters. Now, the only service available was if the vehicle was disabled. I stay insistent until the woman confused by my conversation got another person on the phone and she actually got someone to try to help me but that person did not know about the Simplicity or inverters but did manage to get me able to call Hall’s Towing in Auburn, CA to come and do what he thought would reboot it. A lovely young man came out from Hall’s Towing and explained everything to me in detail. I learned about recharging a battery through trickling and jumping it. There was nothing he could do, but really was sorry he couldn’t help me. Wondering if the trickle was what I needed I called back Auburn Chrysler Dodge Jeep Ram to see if they could trickle charge it if that was what I needed since it happened while the vehicle was there. They were gracious and so service-oriented and I told them I would call back.
I then had to call DeMartini to see if someone would at least let me now if that would work and if I needed to turn off the invertor of leave it on and would that make in difference with me having the RV plugged in trying to charge it. I knew Tony would not call me back and he didn’t. At least I got confirmed that I had a AGM battery not a Lithium battery and that the trickle method would not work with it.
Last night I went to spend the night with a good friend. Today I came back and found out that indeed the battery was dead. The car part of the RV works. The water I think works. I haven’t turned it on yet. But there’s no electricity in the RV to run my heater, my lights, my refrigerator, etc.
I have no idea what to do now. This is my home. I love my home and I love my RV site. I love being here. Once I realized that I had no idea what to do, I sat down.
I thought, “Well, at least it is warm enough I won’t freeze to death. I can go get my sleeping bag to be warm. I think I’ll stay. In the work of Tantra Maat, the work I do, we do something called informing the field. I think I’m just going to inform the field of creation – what some people call God. And settle in for the answer.
There are lots of people needing me right now and I want to be there for them. So many of us are tired of the reality we were born into and really feel that another reality is possible. I am so clear. I am not a martyr or a victim. I am just clear. I will make do for now.
I don’t want to leave my RV and I do not want to leave my RV site. Before I bought the RV, I thought about camping out so looks like I’ll be camping out in the $72,000 vehicle that has no warranty and that no one can or will help me with.
I’m not afraid of being helpless and right now I’ve no idea how to get help.
I need to sit with this and be. Just sit and be until what is next is revealed to me.
I thought I’d let everybody know who is involved. I want to thank those who love me and care about me. I want to thank Hall’s Towing in Auburn. I want to thank Auburn Chrysler Dodge Jeep Ram. I, as well as others, hope DeMartini changes and doesn’t have its present reputation.
That’s the extent of my knowledge and my extended my awareness. This is the extent of my capability, skill, stamina, and strength for this moment.
Lots of people are in a worst plight than mine. I want to give over to what might be possible for human beings now and no longer at the effect of what is happening between people so many places. I want to give this dilemma time and not use the time that can be used so constructively in other ways. I love what I am part of now. I love doing my part and not being disturbed by what would seek to disrupt me and my love of life, people, and new futures. Turning these times, I have the opportunity to build a whole new reality within which trauma does not have a place so I’m not at all interested being traumatized by this. I’m not interested in being taken away from my home or my work. I have internet. I have an outdoor extension cord. I have camping equipment. And, I’m really good at sitting here thinking until thinking is fulfilled and not reacting to any fear that might masquerade as important.
I’m good. I’m really really good.
We all know that we are over the top with our own problems and I respect that. We are all over top in a world that doesn’t work. I have no expectations, nor do I want any one put out as too many people are having to walk away from their lives at the effect of circumstance. I want to be here until a solution to the problem manifests itself. I will think. Human beings and Creation is informed now. We will see what occurs.
Except for not having electricity, my world works, and I love my world. I have everything I need. I am not going to be made to leave it until something as wonderful and as fulfilling as this has been appears. I am not going to have DeMartini be part of what would have me leave it. I am not going to have Edwin-Hymer going out of business have me leave my home.
I want what is next that works in a way that is powerful and right made of love and tenderness and part of a new reality that has our lives be taken care of in fulfilling ways.
This is where you can find me. I would say this is where I am going to stand but I am actually sitting under my patio umbrellas shading Lily and me. But you can say, I am taking a stand. I could not take this stand if I were not part of a community of beloveds who are taking the same stand to be where life exists in harmony and unity with all Creation. This is mine.
This Month we will be deepening the pathways of unity within us as the truer natures of ourselves rise into 2019. We will be setting the field of 2019 both individually and collectively.
It is now undeniable that you are part of new futures rising. What was once a future prediction is now an imminent actuality.
In the shifts we are in, we often misinterpret our emotions, our circumstances, and our bodies. There is an agitation because we cannot seem to see a duplication of what we are experiencing inwardly. It is because we have not had a way to track and register what is moving from the invisible to the visible. New actualities are rising but not in the mindset we have been entrained to perceive through. It is so exciting to be me right now. It is so fun to see the pleasant shock that the language of your psyche can provide you. It is like standing in an amazing forest and finally knowing how to recognize trees.
The work of a seer is to realign you with what is rising within you so that you are not thwarted by misinterpretation. What we held reality to be is no longer valid. I have been amazed at what I am seeing in Consults and in Activations.
Once I language what is present, the fog of misinterpretation falls away and the clarity of what is actually happening rises. You just haven’t had its language. It is my pleasure to provide that.
It has been extraordinary to be in the consults and in the activations.
There is such a shift internally.
The Dialogues are the most challenging because we must be about to massage our neural pathways through listening and questioning to get the thoughts that register what is actually happening and not get lost in the archaic interpretations of the past. Moving past misinterpretation to really being aware of what is now occurring requires that we exercise our thought apparatus, so we can think what there is to think now. I am really good at getting people to think. Thinking is my expertise. We can no longer be lost in trying to figure out what to think. We must be able to open our minds up into the new structures of reality that are rising. Thinking what is ‘yours to think’ is imperative.
This month the Dialogue will be my yearly End of the Year Message to prepare you for what to expect in 2019.
There is such a feeling of partnership in the work now. You are awakening. There is an awakening surge occurring for you to take advantage of. So many more of you are part of a new system of consciousness, a new paradigm. 2019 is when you do the work of rooting it into physical actuality.
This story is 11 pages long and 36oo words. If you would like to download it, you can do that here.
I am writing two books right now. One is the Mind of Creation with the Language of Creation advocates and this one that will be the stories that I have been a part of that a shaping emerging connections with Creation during these times.
The Celestial Sphere and Niall
I don’t know where to start. I fell asleep in the middle of watching Rachel Maddow on Hulu. Shortly after a presence of Creation compelled me to inform the Field of Tantra Maat regarding what had occurred in the collection of locas* visited and secured in our spontaneous call last night. I would like to also share this information with you.
I did not know that last night the fullness of what was happening. I just know in the work that I am doing now that I need to gently support all of us by rocking us out of the reality we were born into because new realities in the etheric fields are finally forming.
For me, this reality we are inundated with daily is pell-melling toward a polarization that could keep that which goes against life ripping through this reality for centuries. The miracle is that the etheric foundations of other realities are forming that are freeing us from the incarceration has kept this beautiful species in its grip for centuries. Ken Carey said in his book Starseed Transmissions that there would be floating cities of Light that would begin to operate in unity with the planet, other conscious forms, and the cosmos. It is now.
The participants in the Spirals of Being, a sacred collective work in the Field of Tantra Maat, recently have begun to exemplify the activity of an aspect of the species whose systems are beginning to strain and stretch out of this reality of separation we were born into. Over the last years, the higher organizing matrixes of Creation that this planet birthed herself as a Conscious Being within have been restoring.
How do I know? It is why I came and why I have always come.
The analogies are simple. If you have ever been in a heavy boat too heavy for the river you are chugging down, when you get caught on a sandbar you can be stuck forever. If you have enough people on the boat, they can get out and start rocking the boat back and forth. Slowly but surely the boat will begin to move out of the sand. If you equate this first analogy to your systems beginning to be free of the reality of separation you were born into, then it is important to include a second analogy. At the same time, your systems who have adapted for you to survive are beginning to flow again in the great river of Creation, your personality that has been shaped by these adaptations of survival that include a limited mind and a limitation of experience begins to react. It is a dicey moment. The personality is a contrived matrix of adaptation for survival. It does not give in easily to recognizing broader spectrums, to expanding out beyond its limited consciousness, and to embracing the greater realities of which you are a part. All this is gone over the book Language of Creation.
I recently did a series of Transmission/Activations when I got back from overseas because I knew my trip overseas was to embody new consciousness and relay back to others the larger spectrums that are re-establishing themselves back in unity with the Earth and her forms.
Every Transmission/Activation pointed to the systems of the human beings, both physically and non-physically, trying to release into the broader realities of a human existence that are life-enhancing and life-generating once referred to as heaven on earth. I know it sounds wild given our present human climate, but if you look at it as a student who studies the principles of this planet, it is not so wild. This is a planet of duality and inclusion. This earth designed everything to operate on behalf of life here. Everything is part of everything else here. Everything is part of a greater whole. Everything is both separate and inclusive. If things become too separate, deeper systems of connection will kick into play. More importantly, if human beings, enough of them, begin to remember they are part of so much more, that remembrance will force that which has become too limited for human beings to survive to the surface. If the balance of this planet with the cosmos goes to out of balance, the extraordinary natural systems that we are part of on the planet and who we are in the cosmos will drive up the imbalance like a fever that will need to burn itself out.
In the meantime, there are those who are gathering collectively as Ken Carey said and rocking their boat to get out of the sandbar and getting back in the river and beings like myself and others are cradle rocking the personalities so that they can loosen their grip of adaptation and set their humans’ free.
That is what we were doing last night – the second part of the journey we had started about ten days before. The first part of the journey, the participants in the Spirals journeyed out into the universe and imaginatively 🙂 picked 3 locas out in the universe beyond the first loca which of course is Earth. Here on Earth, they wrote down how they perceived themselves emotionally and mentally. Then how they perceived themselves as a body and a spirit and then how they perceived their life. The perception playing field is the what shapes the personality and pretty much the personality, a survival mechanism, is not that user-friendly often eliciting thoughts and feeling that are life defeating and energy debilitating. **That complete, they journeyed to the first loca out in the universe and looked at how they were perceived from a loca that was in unity with All Creation. The contrast was shocking.
Last night, a small group of us met in person and on the phone to journey to the second loca.
Why do this journey?
The minute you journey out beyond the address you were born into on this planet, perception changes. You have seen this is dreams and in meditation. What is less comprehended is not only are you not alone, but you are part of an extraordinary pantheon of Creation both individually and as a species. The pantheon of existence that the Field of Tantra Maat was formed from I refer to as the Realm of the Beloved. This is not literal, therefore, mentally not easy to comprehend. The Realm of the Beloved is simply to capture in words a pantheon of existence that operates within the same Creation principles as this planet…everything operates on behalf of everything else, everything operates on behalf of what connects us to life and has us exist as whole, everything is always moving to the next greater whole.
In last night’s journey, as in the Transmission/Activations, I could feel the pantheon of a shared field of existence embrace us and support us cradling us back and forth until we as a collective consciousness began to be freed from the sandbar. While you really can’t settle down until you are free of the sandbar, you will never have a chance to settle into the beauty of the river until you are freed.
After completing the second loca in the universe, we hung out awhile. I now live in the next town down the mountain which is a distance away, but it felt good to hang out with the people who had come together in person for a minute before Lily and I took off to our new earth loca…a well put together RV park in Auburn, California. Once back to our new home, I fell asleep while watching a recording of the Rachel Maddow show.
Then my own journey began.
“You [meaning the Spirals] have entered into a Celestial Sphere now.”
Not only was the voice of a very large Nature of Being really clear, so was the presence of a gigantic system of consciousness that expanded across the universe. The audient and visceral intensity were so compellingly real, I wondered if I was dreaming or awake or somewhere in between.
Do I have any idea what a Celestial Sphere is? None at all. What I did know was that I was in a different loca than the one being discussed on the Rachael Maddow Show.
I could not miss that a series of occurrences had happened since the Prophetics in January was making something unseen and unknown before indubitably real now.
The last evidence of something was undeniable happening was in August. In August, a very different activity of Creation showed up in what started as my monthly public offering of a Cellular Activation. A Cellular Activation is an activation that opens up individually and collectively the original nature of the original design of what a human being is designed to actually be. As the Cellular Activation began, it quickly shifted to a Dimensional Activation, but not like any activation that I had been privy to before. The Cellular Activation was on peace, but instead of being here in the Earth Sphere within our cellular structure, we traveled beyond the earth to a space-time location that simply carried the template of peace without the dichotomy of war. Like grass is grass and there is no opposite of grass. Where the grass is, the grass is. Peace was peace and needed no opposite. It was foundational to the space-time location we as a collective journeyed dimensionally into.
I shifted the next two months from Cellular Activations to Dimensional ones because we were clearly dimensionally traveling. First, the strange living experiences that happened when I was doing the Prophetics to this. Something was clearly shifting.
In times when I have experienced states of enlightenment that left me with more of the ‘me’ I am actually designed to be, I became very aware of the reality of the statement, ‘in the world, but not of it.’ That is the closest description to the dimensional occurrence that has been happened in the Activation that night. And it continued on into September on love and in October on joy. There were clear dimensional landscapes that carried the foundational matrixes of love without hate or fear and joy without sorrow. In these dimensional activations, we journeyed out into different and sometimes multiple locations that appeared to be accessible now and where there were other natures of being there waiting for us. It was awesome and extremely exciting for me who is part of a group of travelers who come here to support the repair and rebuilding of the matrixes that this planet and her forms were once part of.
The Nature of Being that felt like the voice of a large section of the universe kept repeating the statement, “You are part of the Celestial Sphere now.”
I swear if everything was not opening up so differently with such obviousness, I would have tossed it off as a dream, but too much has been happening. People in the Spirals are railing against their incarceration. The consults and activations are different with stronger and more impactful results as if the chains are being broken and people can breathe, be shaken, and massage their wrists before they face freedom.
That is why I have the Spirals of Being. Nothing is more progressive in consciousness than operating in higher frequencies collectively. The purpose of the Spirals is to build the strength, stamina, and capacity for each person to restore the original nature of their original design. In that, the collective consciousness of humanity begins to awaken and re-establish itself here. Believe me, what you live in the world is not what human beings have been made to believe they are. Human beings are extraordinary when they remember. In the Spirals consciousness labs, we work at a systemic level awakening unity points or metapoints where spirit and flesh, mind and mental, eternal and temporal, secular and sacred, physical and non-physical, matter and energy, etc. meet. This is where the original nature of the original design of this planet exists.
Earth is a metareality of both/and form and formless, cosmos and planetary. How awesome is that?
I looked up the Celestial Sphere. I leave it to you to make meaning. Somehow in still radiating with the activity of the night, it all makes perfect sense to me, but I would be at a loss of words to tell you how.
Drifting away from the Voice and the dimensional landscape, he was suddenly there, not letting me drift away. My Niall. Not that he is only mine. But he and I had such a bond when he was alive that was so otherworldly that I knew when he died that we might be able to enjoy each other in a far more exact manner of expression than we could when he was alive. He traveled with me all the time etherically when I was recently in Ireland. Ireland was where he lived out his life after being born in Rwanda where the native nurses told his mother he was not of this earth. He was from the sun. He used to stay under a sunlamp forever longing to return to the sun. He always wanted to escape his beautiful Adonis body and become formless again. Now he was.
I may have been semi-awake. It is hard to tell. But I was not going to write what I am writing now, I assure you. The incredible experience I experienced feeling that the Spirals are part of something larger and are becoming interactive, interrelated, symbiotic with the greater universe was enough for me. Over the days ahead, I would have seen how to translate what I have been informed of into what increased the capacity for the people in the Spirals and the people who came into my public work. I would translate it energetically to increase their strength, stamina, and capacity to remember and become what they were originally designed to be.
I try not to share the reality I exist within. People get the benefit of it, but most human beings are too tied to a single lifetime to move in the eternal the way I do.
But, as I was drifting away, my mentor, my friend, my ally, my lover from beyond the grave, whispered in my ear, “Write this down. Don’t forget.” I could feel his breath quiver the small hairs in my ear.
“Where are you?” I whispered.
“I am right here.”
Suddenly I was in the infinite space of the Celestial Sphere. How did I know? Watch the movie, Contact. I just knew.
I was no longer in my bed. I watched Niall as I found myself standing in the darkness of space with the twinkling stars and the nebulas crowding space around me. I watched as Niall took the threads from the highways of stars crisscrossing across the sky. From the threads, a landscape of Niall’s imagination stretched out before me. I was so excited. He had threaded a landscape much like the southern hills of Ohio that he and I had on Earth traveled to.
What can I say? We adore each other. Always have. That is the gift of the eternal. That is why I define love as Life Opening up into the Victory of the Eternal. Or as Maggie Divine Spark says, “Life Opening up into the Vibration of the Eternal.” 🙂 Either will do!
He kept the image of my Earth memory of him which was beautiful enough, but I could see that if I could lose my need to only see what was familiar that I was looking a radiating golden sun glow all around him. I was pretty sure that was his real form, but as he wove us a place in the dimensional kingdoms to spend time together the glow disappeared into the landscape of a farmhouse with the perfect kitchen table and the bedroom with the perfect country bed complete with country quilt on it and a small window with simple curtains partially opened with a gentle country breeze coming through.
The next part of the dimensional playing field is very significant, but maybe not to you the reader, but I promised him I would write it all out so I am. It is significant to the Spirals and to other allies of Creation.
I was at the kitchen table. Niall was out and about in the farm getting vegetables from the land and fruit from the trees. I was smiling. This was a dimensional place where peace was peace, joy was joy, and love was love. My thinking wasn’t so deep as it may sound now. I was simply indivisibly happy.
While he was gone, a small woman I know who looks like a fairy came in the door. She was weary. I knew she needed to sleep in the bedroom, so she would be okay. I took her into the bedroom and tucked her into the bed and returned to the kitchen. Niall was in the door with vegetables and fruit falling out of his arms. He was so overloaded, but in this place, nothing fell, it just gathered and cuddled against him until he could spread it all out on the perfect counter in the perfect farm kitchen.
He turned around and looked at me. He was startled someone else was with us. He was not pleased she was in our bed. When I looked into his face, the deeper wisdom of me surfaced. I realized that he had formed this reality for us and I had let someone into it. I walked across to the sink where he had turned to wash the food and put my hand on his.
I emanated, “She needs this. She will not be there when our needs need to be met. I promise.” I smiled up at him. He was not convinced.
But I knew. I knew she and I were in unity with Creation. Tha
t there was no way her needs would ever go out of balance so mine would not be met. Nor would my needs ever go out of balance in such a way her needs would not be met. I could see unencumbered that we might still carry the memories of separation. We might still be in recovery from the effect of separation on our Self, Others, and Life, but our remembrance of the original nature of the original design of what a human being is designed to be as holding and becoming real.
In a dimensional way that only in a dimensional shared field of unity way you can, I transmitted to Niall what the Spirals and the people participating in the Spirals were beginning to dimensionalize back into…shared field, operating on behalf of all life, everything part of everything else.
My consciousness faded. We were standing in the bedroom. We had left the kitchen. She was gone. I looked up at him and saw a bright glistening gold tear slipping elatedly down his cheek. She had gone, but she had left behind the radiance of love, play, shelter, wonder.
You could see the elements of these essences of life in the quilt. You felt them in the bed as Niall turned back sheets and my lovely country dress dissolved. Once curled up in his arms, I watched his body fade and the sun being, he always knew he was, emerge.
I can barely write these words as I cry with such joy. The radiance of his being freed still permeates my heart. I am so grateful that he got to be what he had all ways remembered.
As we faded into the sheets and became threads of stars and universes, my consciousness recognized that we were part of the Celestial
Sphere – the astrological addresses of the zodiac where star beings dwell. As my body and his body ceased to exist in form and we merged into the imagination that had given us this country setting, I knew I had been imprinted more deeply then I had ever thought possible into an emerging consciousness of unity that is rising in human beings. This remembrance is not fantasying to help us deal with the disparity of reality here. Not in the least. It is the remembrance of the original nature of the original design here…the Earth in unity with the Cosmos…together as one in the Celestial Sphere. Actively rising!
I felt saturated. I realized I could now sleep and began to drift again. This time I startled awake as my small 21- foot RV burst into sunlight. I thought that I had left the curtain up on the window by my bed. Boy, was the morning sun bright!!!
He laughed. For a fraction of a second, the golden glow of his beautiful face stared right into my eyes, his golden body undefined filling the RV.
“Don’t forget! Write it down! Remember!”
Then in a flash, the RV was pitch black.
Shaken and elated, I laughed. I cried. I shook. I sat up stunned and wonderfully shattered out of the senselessness that masquerades as reality.
And then – as practically all such magnificent moments often end, I suddenly really needed to go to the bathroom.
Then I began to write.
It is several hours later. The sun is not up yet. I am listening to Tom Kenyon’s celestial sounds. I think I will turn over and finally sleep.
“Have a good day!”
*Locas, including Earth, are locations in time and space with space-time and galactic addresses that human beings once were a part of both individually and collectively.
** realities of separation and the thoughts that accompany those realities are explored in the book The Language of Creation by Tantra Maat
I woke up this morning at 4:28 am in a consternation. Several things elicited the consternation, but I think the organizing point was being asked twice what I thought someone should do about something and knowing I could not answer because, in the template of existence I was in, there was no answer to the question. Or perhaps better said, “The answer was obvious.”
I have no way to rationally address the consequences of not living harmony, balance, proportion, symmetry, and beauty with the world around you. If one knows the story of the bees, one would know without the bees, human beings could not exist. But no one thinks about that. They don’t know for the most part that a goal would be to operate on behalf of the bees because that is an organizing point for human existence.
There a handful of human beings that understand that there are real consequences for not taking care of our environment, but there are very few human beings that understand that the consciousness of a human being or a collection of human being generate realities. Simply said, “It matters what a collective group of human beings thinks ‘reality’ is because it will organize the physical playing field which is where reality is for most human beings – in the physical.’
I called Lara one day and said, “I need to tell this story as soon as possible!” She took dictation, cleaned it up and sent it to me and I never posted it. And here it is in my face again.
Now here I am at the story again. Luckily, in my diary, I can be obtuse. If you happen upon this, in my diary entry yesterday [see the date above], my engagement with the dream guardians spoke about there is a way ‘obtuse’ can get at things that ‘literal’ can not…safely. What almost all of humanity has no clue about is when the sacred is not taken care of shit happens. I think at least the statement is clear, but perhaps not the understanding of the sacred. In the Old Testaments of the major, at least today, religions there is a lot of talk about the wrath of God. There is a passage of comparing not taking care of that with is God’s which now in modern physics we can call the Generating OrganizingDesign of Creation with a fig tree and how the not taking care of life has Life not able to take care of you. Simply said if human beings do not take care of the harmony, beauty, symmetry, proportion, and balance of Creation, the Field of Creation that takes care of them collapses or at best weakens.
Memories: I am one of those Beings who came here many times, or at least several, to generate designs of matrixes where the reconnection to the generating organizing design of Creation can re-establish itself. This is easiest for me with nature as nature and I have not forgotten each other and we are busy doing what you do when you and the wonders of this planet – insects, birds, trees, weather, animals, the cosmos, the planet, the elementals, the primal forces, etc have an affinity with each other and work things out through that affinity. Human beings are not natural anymore for the most part. You don’t have to live naked in the forest (although I would probably like that except for quite a few things now I think about it) to be normal. You have to comprehend balance, harmony, symmetry, proportion, and beauty because that is the working design of this planet as its unique and essential aspect of Creation.
I fold my arms and squeeze myself…go further? Well, let’s see how long I can stay obtuse…I don’t think that literal is good to speak from at this moment…things are hanging too precariously in the balance or imbalance may I say of things. Let’s say from this magi’s perspective…in the reality of Creation that she has existed in for millions of years, human beings have come to a crisis point and it is showing up everywhere. Three obtuse things:
The strength of the sacred is returning: That means the environment, the reality, the landscape of the sacred is restoring here through the resurrection of harmony, balance, proportion, symmetry, and beauty of this planet and its forms whether some of those forms want to or not.
The human beings whose systems still register the sacred are responding.
With the powers and forces of this planet and the cosmos reconciling this planet’s design again that which is no longer in harmony, balance, proportion, symmetry, and beauty is experiencing more extremes: MORE -hatred and fighting, instability, lopsidedness, inadequacy, injustice, unfairness, inequality, ugliness, offensiveness.
As some human beings begin to go into a reconciliation consciousness in connection with the original intent of the original design here, they begin to change their own consciousness. Simply said, they are wary of hatred and fighting. They are constantly aware of the influences around them and working their butts off to stay balanced as every minute of every day imbalance is occurring nowadays. They practice symmetry and proportion by supporting each other who are in resonance with the sacred again. They stay in touch with the beauty of life and realize the dangers of letting in the ugly.
Last obtuse imprinting of the field in my diary. Being afraid is healthy. Organizing one’s life by fear these days is more dangerous than usual. Staying distinct from the world around you is different than staying insular. Staying distinct you are more respectful of what you let in your door, the conversations you engage in, and the realities you promote.
For instance, when someone asks me in the outside world what I should do about a situation, I say, “It is not mine to know.” And it isn’t unless it is in a consult where the unity-base between myself and another is held in the sacred and we have a sacred environment wherein we can both hear. Why because what is being determined by human beings is what is the reality that they are organizing for because that is the reality they will have. This has been said forever as a warning for humanity, but not it is really happening that way. What I can’t miss the reality that has captured so many people and how engaged some people are in looking for the boogeyman, figuring out the interact with ‘the enemy’, shutting out the natural world when it seeks to include them again, and most of all thinking the only reality is human beings. Dangerous… these days.
I aware that people think inequality, injustice, ugliness is the only real right now – a reality I have spoken about for as long as it has been building residency here in the human sector- reality of separation, but it isn’t. In fact, now things are getting more and more polarized the odds of experiencing the opposite of a reality of separation is rising stronger because the planets organizing principle of balance, harmony, proportion, symmetry, and beauty. It is like a pendulum swinging too far to one side. Humanity is polarizing. Some are instinctively moving strongly into proportion, symmetry, balance, harmony, and beauty as a way of consciousness now and in a constant awareness and consciousness of that during this times but also to be more powerfully on the side of that than ever to regenerate balance.
What is more exciting is as the many who are part of the reconciliation of balance, proportion, symmetry, harmony, and beauty grows the activity of the opposite becomes more apparent. The law of Creation is everything is always moving to the next greater whole. It isn’t going to be like this forever.
Have you ever swung back and forth on a rock face knowing you need to build up momentum to be able to get to the next rock to hold onto that is quite a distance away? Probably not, but you get my point. That is where we are building momentum for that which operates on behalf of life and has us exist as whole. Why? Because the entirety of Creation comes into play in these moments in time where things become so polarized that an out-of-equilibrium event horizon occurs and wallah! we move into the next greater whole. First in the non-physical of our consciousness and then into the physical of our reality all in the new symmetry, proportion, harmony, balance, and beauty here.
So there will be those telling the same old story…the enemy, who and what there is to fear, I’m right. They’re wrong, etc.
But…then there are the others who are listening to a new story…need I say more.
Well, one more thing. There are consequences that are natural when anything resists the restoration of the original intent of the original design here right now. It isn’t the wrath of God. It is going against what is trying to include you as part of a greater whole. bears for instance. more obtuse for some but not all not being able to register a higher order of symmetry, proportion, harmony, balance, and beauty is like slipping on a banana peel and careening down the steps into hatred and fighting, instability, lopsidedness, inadequacy, injustice, unfairness, inequality, ugliness, offensiveness. It takes muscle to stay in the space between.
That is why I am keeping a low a profile around me and as small an imprint on the space as I can. It is my social responsibility to, where things are still frozen in the old model of reality to not increase the imbalance around me by being too much in balance. To not increase the disharmony around me by being too much in harmony. This is symmetry and proportion. To not try to get rid of the shadow only make more room for the light. To not try to cure the imbalance just be more balanced where you are standing. Etc.
As you can see, I have stopped listing consternation because I have been able to speak in an as non-specific way as possible so the meat of the matter, not the circumstances I see are the priority. Someone I adore who knows more about proportion, symmetry, balance, harmony, and beauty is deeply engaged in not being polarized and being in the incredible wobble and wonkiness you go through in an out of equilibrium experience on the way to the next greater whole. We were never designed to polarize to the point of almost complete separation. Things break, things go out of existence, things deconstruct, things collapse if there isn’t a balance with all the various expressions here.
We are coming out of the era of right and wrong and into the era of a consciousness that considers all the expressions of Creation and generates environments of harmony, balance, proportion, symmetry, and beauty to include it all, just like our Earth does.
Final thoughts: Even time is going through a state shift. I listen as people say, “You can move in any time.” But I can’t. It has to be the time that becomes part of a reality of harmony, balance, proportion, symmetry, and beauty. I have found myself taking more time than ever not to move too fast, think too fast, decide to fast. What is so amazing about this is staying in the wobble, listening to my gut, being in a consternation, not settling on the first thoughts that rise a phenomenon occurs. I become clear. Clear as a bell. I am in a single moment clear my action and my perception of my activities are part of a new harmony, balance, proportion, symmetry, and beauty occurring and I respond to part of new realities of unity unfolding
Obtuse. Maybe. But right now that obtuseness that is not yet perceivable to many is real.
I want to add a quote from a channeled work…channeled through me in 1994. It is for me what is happening now. And in fact, the Being who downloaded it through my noggin told me this is when it would all happen – in 2017, 2018, 2019.
Actually, after reading this document again. I decided to simply attach it to this diary entry for those who are becoming aware.
In what some people would call reality, I am physically at this moment sitting outside on my deck in the dark. I can’t see the stars anymore with the light of my computer in my eyes. But I can feel them. I am chicken without a fence to close off my deck, so I don’t turn off the outside light to my bedroom. I can hear a creature, probably a rat, messing around Georgia’s garden workspace so the light helps me not be confronted completely by the sounds in the dark.
It is not bothering my euphoria after my dream walk, however. The dream was given to me by what I refer to as the Realm of the Beloved. If I had a doctrine or a dogma which I don’t, I would say that the Generating Organizing Design of Creation I come from is the Realm of the Beloved. I come from there. I think from there. I live from there.
And on exquisite mornings like this, I get to experience a portal open here that is both here and there.
The silence this morning out here on my deck is so soft. I can feel the waterfall of the pond. I can hear a small animal rustling around the fence and maybe even a larger animal down below along the fence. Lily barked at something that we couldn’t see the other day which was so strange. It wasn’t later that I realize that it was Buddha boy, our precious friend, our teenage bear, that she was calling to, wondering why he didn’t come down to see us. I have a couple of times felt him in the rustling down in the creek below when I am out here alone. I know that he is still finding Lily’s and my connection valuable as we do his. Our secret love affair.
I couldn’t do anything but come outside this morning. Even filled with a certain tension of considerations over the rats, and the possible small creatures, that hunt in the early morning.
I am a Dream Walker. I get to shift dimensions and exist in parallel realities hidden from view in the limited vision of most human realities. This has been my delight since I was small even though I didn’t know the word for it. My DreamTime which was sometimes also when I am awake saved me from the harshness of my times. “Children should be seen and not heard.” “Don’t be silly.” “Fold your hands and sit up straight. Be a proper lady.” And while those were the less harsh ones, they were harsh enough for me. I had Frank, our gardener, once dig me a grave-like dip in the earth in a part of Mother’s garden where she could not see. I would slip out at night or in the early morning with my Indian blanket and curl up in my precious hole and sleep.
The soft stems of the tall plants and the permaculture farm floated in their etheric bodies around me. My lotus shaped tent imaged around me. Not solid in form but definitely experienced in substance. The white of the tent made a soft glow in the early morning darkness. I could not keep smiling which continues even as I write these words. Nothing fit right of course. In dreamstate, there is no need for things to make room for each other. Everything is welcome to come together in whatever way it can. I was shimmering and so was Lily. The divine essence that I have no words for was the air I was breathing. That essence comes to me in so many states of experience. From the feeling of being so welcomed and enjoyed to being in the prana of light in which I breathe. I could see the glimmer and sparkle of the divine essence on and in everything around me making the bubble in the tent glow with a heavenly light. I knew it came from the link the stewards of this land had with the divine.
I was living in the lotus glamping tent I am exploring in my waking state at this time. Lily was still sleeping on the floor filled with rugs and sheepskins behind me. I was spellbound by the smells of the garden and the mountain air. The movement of the trees though not audible beckoned me.
I unzipped the door of our tent home as we also, I thought, smiling, had a van home and visitation homes where I kept my frozen foods, my work storage, and other things. All places to go that, while they were homes, they had transfigured into locations on the planet that I felt called to sometimes be. All this I could think in my Dreamtime. I loved the sweet clarity of truth that was not only a concept for me anymore. A truth for me had become a reality. Home had shifted for me in this Dreamtime. I realized as I dreamed home in my dream walking without the conditioning that I am wiggling out of that indeed home has changed for me. The home is my earth and the sky and all animate forms that still resonate in that connection. That which is not in that resonance seems to no longer be present to me or, it is possible, everything is present now in its animated form. It is of no matter. The richness of connection in the animation of life is beyond precious with those I get to participate in life with. This planet and the cosmos always have been there for me.
I experienced a greater consciousness in my DreamTime this morning. I felt a higher consciousness moving among the people on my behalf. I have been feeling this safety and security that arrived shortly after ‘the bears’ could no longer participate with me here. There is an instinctive way of being that has opened the doorways to my next level of embodiment. It would seem that a natural process is taking place where I seem to be an active participant in that process.
I am more awake now, so I find it hard to even write the experience for it is somewhat compromised by “who me?’ But in the DreamTime my own consciousness wandered in a sentient assessment, not a human judgment, of where an Earth Mother would be welcome. I can feel the intense difficulty for me now of being on any property that is owned but not stewarded on Creation’s behalf.
Feeling the reflective glow of everything around me, the tent, the air, the plants, earth, sky, and trees basking in our togetherness, I could feel where people welcomed me through human social desire and social graciousness which is a lovely thing that human beings do, but now was not real for me. I could feel myself breathing free from where Creation and its activity in my existence are not recognized.
Standing so still, getting ready to go outside my tent, I felt my heart fill with those that welcomed me through their realized heart connection to creation and in their joy of having a way to provide for my needs in some small way. I knew they were in their own direct link with Creation letting Creation know that this was their way of welcoming the natural world beyond the limitations of their property and their homes. I also knew in my dreamstate that I had mapped within my psyche where my feet could tread and where my body could be. I thrilled with that. I knew something in DreamTime had been settled and the stress of navigating between worlds had reconciled. Not everyone is designed to be one such as me. It is in the welcoming of that which is still in union with all life that the union between humans and Creation reconciles and forms.
This morning in DreamTime, I could experience the ‘me’ of me that is forming into a state of being that is walking the earth again. A Dakini walks in me who sees and blesses those who care, in their unconditional love, for those who are bonded to the natural forces, to the elemental kingdoms, and to the divine cosmos from which the earth found her form. And she searches. She searches for those others who are restoring or have restored their bonds to the natural forces, to the elemental kingdoms, and to the divine cosmos from which the earth came into existence. Those who live in reconciliation as a way of life.
I was trying to share yesterday what it was like for me to be in conversation with an amazing young woman on whose land my tent and my van have a place. I realized in my dreamstate this morning that the conversation was in the dimensional reality where the union of the cosmos, the earth, and human is reconciled. The Realm of the Beloved was in the fabric of a very practical conversation about compost toilets, a platform for the tent, and a place to park the van. I could feel through the entire conversation the threading of unity in the discovery of how to bring me into the land in the activity of being one with Creation.
The soft tenderness of the plants around me and the trees that loomed above me in my dreamstate is now like my prior mornings where the veil parts and the richness of the deeper realities permeate where I am, and I live there.
I believe this merge of the deeper realities into the human psyche is happening many places now. I will do my best to support those who are in the reconciliation process…the return of human and Creation into their unified state of wholeness.
Matrixes have returned to the kingdom here and are permeating the human psyche, rupturing the limited mind, and opening humanity up into the wonders that they were designed to be part of.
In my small part of the kingdom, there are a bunch of us experiencing this so profoundly.
All this floated in the bliss of my mind as my dream body felt its bare feet on the rugs and skins, felt a loose gigantic well-worn cotton top hanging loosely from my shoulders, and watched as my arms and hands reached out in front of me.
I felt the minds of other beloveds now in permanent unity with me, as I unzipped my tent, Lily still sleeping on her soft sheepskins. I stepped out because I had heard the mountain lion waiting for me. To my surprise, there was also Bear. It was good to have the netted gazebo, also not in form only image, mostly for the bugs to stay away from me. I am not distracted from Presence.
There they were. The mountain lion and Bear looking at me. Our minds merged. The trees swayed. The sunlight barely peaked through the darkness creating a flickering dimensionality of worlds.
The dreamstate faded with me standing at the fence being with the wild creatures, Lily softly barking in her sleep letting us know she was aware, and the soft plants all around me basking in the reality of our shared home.
Email thread regarding the Enteric Nervous System [ENS]
On Jun 5, 2018, at 5:56 AM, Sahere Hum < wrote:
For a day last week I was present to feeling very vulnerable and an energy that was residing in the heart area. Throughout the day I was compelled to express through writing raw feed of what was in my larger field.
A knowing was upon me that we needed to include/address the ‘heart’ and its role in the Mind of Creation as we have included affirmations and intentions. When I observe what others are talking about it is all about the heart/brain connection and there is frustration because they don’t take the next step and include the solar plexus. On a few occasions, I observe there is talk about the gut-brain, yet when there is mention of the gut-brain it usually is around food and digestion. The sense that I am present to is to at least address and briefly talk about the heart energy and how it fits into our larger picture. To acknowledge where others are standing, heart/brain connection, and lead them into the next step of a larger system.
On behalf of all life and a new dawn
El mar., 5 jun 2018 10:28, Melissa escribió:
Good observation, Sahere. I recently saw something posted about the ENS and it was clearly categorized it as the “3rd brain” after the head brain and heart, which did not feel accurate to me. Actually, I don’t think any hierarchical view does. The article it was cited was about a scientific study that showed multiple firings within the ENS to deal with digestion or some such. It was scientific news that the cells of the ENS work co-operatively, I think was the upshot. It feels obvious to me, though don’t ask me to explain “how” that all of our systems of intelligence work co-operatively. In other words, they’re part of a whole system and it’s a tad pointless to look at any of them in isolation. For me, rather than looking at how one part of the system works, the question that holds more value would be, where is the metapoint of the different intelligences?
In Unity on Behalf of All Life,
On 5 Jun 2018, at 12:23 PM, MARU wrote:
I also read the writing about the 3 brains, and for me, it is natural to go inside and picture a continuum from the solar plexus to the head as the central ‘me’. From there I can then do whatever is called for.
I’ll have to look at the embriogenesis [embryogenesis in English] process, but if I remember correctly the cells that form the neural tube are the same that will give rise to the brain and spinal cord, with all the other nerves that will constitute the Vagus nerve and accessories. All those cells are originated in the stem cells that are the original cells after fertilization and that will migrate to their final destination, even if it is ‘far away’ from the site of the stem cells.
[Tantra here: this is accurate. This is the research I researched.]
There is a lot to know, but surely, nothing operates on its own.
From me, June 23rd, 2018
What a precious moment in time we are in. Bless you, for pressing into the neuroplasticity of your brain, massaging it and working your neural patterning toward whole system thinking. One of the first aspects of that awakening coherent thinking is the recognition that separation lives in the present neural patterning of thought regarding the body that just does not let us ‘think’ what there is to think.
Here is my rendering of thought connected to Lara’s ‘field response’ languaging. The more I pierce into the objectification of labels of the body ‘nervous system’, ‘heart’, ‘solar plexus’, etc. the more the whole system within becomes visible. The more I pierce into the objectification, the more my mind gives way to a direct link with the body and a hue, a creation-patterning begins to become apparent.
Reading your email threads, I could feel you pressing into thoughts and thinking until thinking and thoughts are rendered back into wholeness. This is a beautiful moment for me, watching human beings fight for their original minds.
My weaving of thought on behalf of our bodies being thought in wholeness.
I am finding myself no longer leaving the symbiotic relationship of oneness with all living things in my mind and in my body. I distinguish these two because the mind in non-physical and the body is physical. As I read your words that are your response to my writings on the Enteric Nervous System, I entered the inner ecosystem the gut actualized as a reality that became part of a greater reality of the digestive system. As the inner ecosystem revealed itself to me, the digestive system became apparent as part of the operational encoding in the physical so that alignment with the non-physical Beingness of ourselves could stay in unity with Creation. I watched as the sun fed the body through the nutrition of Her, the Earth’s, physical forms keeping us all ways in unity with the Cosmos. I felt the commune of the Earth and the Cosmos in my body…an experience I have not been able to comprehend until now as I find myself responding to your ‘shared mind’ explorations. I now comprehend the gift of the Ayurvedic formulas Michael has been concocting for me.
As I read Sahere’s comment about the heart and all of your responses regarding ENS, I recognized the heart and other organs in a symbiotic sentience with the nervous systems that keep them in the symmetry, proportion, harmony, balance, and beauty of Creation. I recognized and became part of the organic love affair between the Earth, her forms, and the Cosmos. Listening to your minds sorting and the body doing what bodies are designed to do, I awakened into our bodies and our minds being once again returned to the living system of the universe.
Once again, in this new-found freedom of form and formless, temporal and eternal, I see our bodies and our minds as interactive, interrelated, symbiotic sentient intelligence operating on behalf of all life. I am reminded of the indigenous people who take peyote, ayahuasca, and other nervous system/mind awakeners. No wonder their body intelligence is in unity with Creation. Now perhaps our bodies are becoming part of Creation again and the risks that come with these spirit enhancing medicinal plants trying to jump-start our bodies that have been so separated from Creation will no longer be needed. I knew early on that I did not only an occasional trip to my direct link with Creation. I was after permanency of the direct link. It would seem that we are finally on the threshold of our natural state and our ability to awaken into it.
I love watching you all work toward resonance. Then the field will be imprinted with the direct link with Creation and how we say it will be part of the patterning of the higher intelligence of Creation.
Taken from a transcript from a Consult in 2013: You ought to be able to say, “OK, I need to shift my environment.” And within three days, you’ve shifted it. And no strain on you whatsoever. You should be able to communicate in direct alignment with yourself: “I know that’s not mine to do. I’m not going to be doing that.” It is the nature of your higher design. You are in a direct link with Creation. You are part of the greater universe. If you are not aligned with your higher design, you give energy to that which is not in alignment with Creation and it throws you. Your actual Design is your commitment to the universe because you are a unique and essential design of Creation. Your commitment is not to me or to my words. It’s not even to your children. We’re all temporary. But you came with a Huge commitment to an aspect of Creation which is aligning something down here. And we have no time now. You know, the Mayans weren’t kidding. We have no time for anything but that alignment now.”
From an email thread regarding the new book being written Mind of Creation:
On Jun 8, 2018, at 7:27 PM, Lara wrote:
In jive with the vibes of what all of you shared re: the sentient intelligence of the heart as too, the symbiosis of the inner ecosystem and Melissa’s insightful pointing towards the “metapoint of different intelligences”
On my side, what feels like pressing into the system is an awareness of the web of dragon currents or ley lines running through the Earth like a nervous system of Her’s, and the collective mindscape points of light of the field building relationship to and in commune with Her. synchronicity’s bandwidth of symbiosis between the inner and outer ecosystem and the inner earth’s multiverse on my mind.
6.23.18 I wrote; Dear Lara,
I haven’t been able to read any emails for a while. I have been rushing through the currents of shifts and changes that occur when you are one with Creation. When I read the words ‘the sentient intelligence of the heart’ and the ‘symbiosis of the inner ecosystem’, I felt self-described. I feel the sentient intelligence of my heart. It is in direct alignment with the pulse of the bears, the deer, the squirrels, the stars, the movement of the wind through the trees – all in the existence of being one with all Creation. It is truly one of the most amazing awakenings I have ever had. Even when I stopped feeding my squirrels so they will not expect food anymore in the squirrel feeder when I no longer am here, there is no separation. There is a recognition of the shift in the conditions here and we are one in that.
‘The metapoint of different intelligences’ is no longer limited to a physical location. I can hear in my heart literally the heartbeat of their intelligence linked into the separation needed from this place that is occurring both for them and for me. They literally do not come here anymore. Then the deer. I came day before yesterday to get towels to go to the river and two deer stood on the road that headed up the drive to the house being with me. Then yesterday, when I came back from taking my brother and his wife to the airport, I had kept a banana peel. A single deer was standing almost in the same spot. I stopped and tossed the banana peel to her. She looked down at it and then up at me. Then she began to eat it. I knew that no human action separated us. That I had escaped the illusion of that. The bond of sentient intelligence between us was rock solid and that the actions I am taking are to make sure that the metapoints of shared sentient intelligence is alive and well in me. Then you wrote “the dragon currents or ley lines running through the Earth like a nervous system of Her’s”. These currents are the nervous system of Her. I feel this nervous system bonding with our nervous system again which is part of our original design. I am not the only one. I feel it in my body. My human mind is no longer separate from the Mind of Creation in a way that I have never experienced before. I do not think it is my capacity alone. I feel her nervous system in the human system now and the connection to the sentience of many intelligences rising in the human mind. This is ‘the collective mindscape points of light’ in the field, ‘building relationship to and in commune with the with’ the Earth and the Cosmos. We have arrived at Timeless Time where unity with All Creation is restoring now. Human time will be deeply affected by this. Things that are attempting to happen ‘in time’ will slip away. Other things will come into human time from a different dimensional configuration. Many human beings will not, in this illusion of Time, be able to calculate. I will, am, and can. It is exciting to feel the ‘others in the Field’ who are moving with these ‘dragon currents’ of Earth/Cosmos Time also. This is ‘synchronicity’s bandwidth of symbiosis between the inner and outer ecosystem and the inner earth’s multiverse’ we are returning to is inside human time and affecting the human mind now. It will be interesting to see what rises with that.
Final note: I knew one day the Mind of Creation would rise from a shared mind of sentience in all living things. While I am aware that the mind of some human beings will stay locked in the narrow spectrum of ‘human only centric thinking’, I, with ‘others’, are in the rising symbiosis of this shared sentient intelligence of Creation.
Will write in another diary entry regarding what is awakening in our shared Mind of Creation regarding the body. Will post as Diary Entry 2 of 2.
There is a difference between learning about something and getting access to it. There are ways to comprehend that actually give us access to a reality of unity and how it functions right here and right now in the everyday world – even though often hidden from view in the reality of separation we were born into. Liz, a participant in the Architect Spiral, does a great job of presencing the access she got to her reality in new ways in her email to me. I asked her if I could post it in my diary. I loved her insights as well as her humor. Enjoy!
April 25, 2018
Thoughts on the Now
There are so many events and ways of being swirling around in my cells and being right now. I have been listening to the Direct Link Architect call incessantly since Sunday…it has become my morning practice. Inside that, each time I listen, I get visual pings and keep wanting to create a visual mandala, or roadmap of sorts as to what I heard…yes, a road map…this call didn’t lay out as a mandala, though I did feel such a spiraling as each of us shared. I just haven’t had time to put my pencils to paper and play with it.
Tonight’s Tantra Talk was fascinating. At the same time I was listening, I was in a shopping mall having to buy some appropriate attire for two events I am going to in the next two days. This was the only time I had, so I included the both/and of the experience. Tomorrow I am getting a rotary award…very honored, but had nothing to wear that was appropriate. Friday, we are going to my daughter’s school auction and I had nothing to wear for that. So at the same time I am hearing Tantra ask us to take out pencil and paper, I am walking down an escalator. I included it all and knew I would listen again and take notes. I am glad I just listened. I had to include a lot as I listened. Mall music in the background, people talking, the bright lights of a store, but interestingly, those distractions really fell away, and I was buying what I had to buy at the same time as I was very intent upon the conversation coming into the body…fascinating being in the both/and!
A couple of things pinged especially. One about not being able to language something. I had an ah-ha around this. Last week and on Monday, I assessed a colleague’s 4th-grade daughter. We thought the child might have math challenges. I gave her a math test I wasn’t familiar with, so there was a huge learning curve for me, and I wasn’t feeling confident about scoring the test and being able to speak confidently about it. On Monday, I realized I had to give the entire test, and not just a few sections, as I had hoped I would be able to do. As I asked the various test questions, the child would ask these pristine, stellar, stunning questions back that completely clarified the concept being tested. I was stymied as to how to language the thrill I felt when listening to this child, and how to report out on her clarity of being. She is really smart, does not have math challenges, just lacks some confidence in a few skills. As I heard Tantra talk around this way of being, of not being able to give language to things, I realized that not only could I not find the language in the meeting with the mom/colleague this morning, but that it didn’t matter. What I did convey landed perfectly. The mom lit up like a Christmas tree as I fumbled through what I had to say. But more importantly, I realized it was the field we created together, myself and the child, that was what I couldn’t language. There was a crackling electricity when that child asked her beautiful questions. At the same moment, as I felt the energy, I observed her voice resonance and looked at her hands. Inside my being, I heard the words, “She’s perfect!” The clarity that is this child’s field was so pristine, I wanted to weep. What IS that? I know it is something REALLY big! I could sit here and speculate for days about it. But what I want to train my lens on is the way I felt, and what I was present to. It’s a new reality! It’s a new way of seeing/being with a human being! I couldn’t language this to the mom, though if I had said this, she might have gotten it. She knows me well enough to know when I speak, even if she doesn’t hear everything, that I have her children’s best interests in my heart. This whole thing was so magical! I would have to say this is the first time I have felt a child’s field in this way. So I will track this now and see what happens.
The other piece I really got was the conversation around percentages of ways of being. I really like that and want to try it on. The other part of my very long day today at work was that I was feeling vulnerable. I had a latex reaction last night after I was tying latex balloons in preparation for the school auction Friday. Steve got me Benedryl, but my body was feeling a tad out of balance today. I spoke with my eyes, and immune system, thanking them for working on my behalf. I said I knew I was a tad out of balance and said that I would do my best to work with everyone in letting the systems balance out. I know the vulnerability is part of a new recursion coming online, and I allowed myself to just feel the vulnerability and be with it. There were some moments when I became very stressed and felt old paradigm drama come into play around how I was feeling. I recognized it, and immediately thought, okay, what is the good part of this situation? The stress was coming from the paperwork that needs to be done over and beyond what I expected and how was I going to accomplish it all with integrity. I have a new supervisor whom I know and worked with last year. She just started yesterday and met with my team today. She said I would need to generate the paperwork and have three extra meetings I wasn’t counting on. At the same time, I was freaking about having to schedule meetings and do the paperwork, I was saying to myself how thrilled I was to have her on board because I trust her implicitly, and know that she will take our cases to our director and lay them out with integrity. I couldn’t think in percentages, but I could think in duality, non-duality. So as I was telling her I wasn’t certain about being able to write goals for a student that would be accurate enough, she was telling me she knew it would all work out and be fine. I believed her. My whole day has been like this…whole week actually. While one thing would have me become present to stress, the next would mitigate the stress.
While I was shopping, I saw how much money I was spending, and getting nervous about it. The next minute, the cashier worked a deal that saved me a bunch of money. Seriously…the next minute! She even told me when I chose shoes to come up to her and she would discount those too! She gave the shoe guy his commission too and didn’t take it for herself. I promised her I would do a survey on her behalf. Was she just helping me out to do well in the survey? No! That’s the way she was! I was so grateful and told her so.
In another moment on the call…this one is pretty funny, I was trying on a bra because I needed it for the dress I bought. As Tantra was talking about percentages, I literally got stuck! I couldn’t get the bra off! It was hilarious! I had one headphone dangling down the front of me, and one in my ear, as I am trying to be present to not panicking! So…I went, hmmm, what percentage am I stuck here? 50%? Okay…I took some deep breaths, and calmed my breathing, and slowly got myself unstuck. Breathing, laughing, and hearing Tantra and feeling the field all helped me handle the situation! I didn’t get that particular bra size, needless to say!
Being immersed in the language of the field has been wonderful. I feel it inside my cells, inside my mouth, and my hands, and my whole being. I feel it everywhere. It is palpable now.