I am 71 years old this Sunday, May 28th, 2017.
This past year was a transitional year for me. I used the year to prepare the following nine.
In the past, I have planned for the next decade the day of my -0 year birthday. I have always done this since the day I was 20 in 1966.
As I came into my 70th birthday something felt different. I thought I had prepared for the next ten years. But basically I didn’t. In hindsight, I can see that I was looking for evidence that I had ten more years rather than planning them. I might even, although I would not like to admit it, have thought that I was completing my life here, not immediately. Probably more slowly moving into the following years I would devolve. I let a thought slip in, “I don’t know if there are ten years for me to plan for.”
Then I did start to devolve. My psoas nerve got so painful, I could hardly put my weight on my left hip. It would take me an hour before I could walk effortlessly. I got very tired trying to deal with an incredible business chaos that just did not seem to want to resolve in a calm pragmatic manner. And then in January 2017, I got very sick with the flu that was going around. I gained quite a bit of weight and felt incredibly lethargic about life, not unhappy, just not extremely motivated anymore which is something I enjoy about myself…my constant plotting.
Underneath all this, I did not realize that life was flowing and carrying me forward. Life did not seem to have the same conversation I was having. Life found for me what was life enhancing and life generating. Even stalled in time, probably including being in the social meme of aging, life came through. Life came through in the Tantra Maat team no matter how unyielding the obstacles before us were. Life came through the Spirals of Being that completely intrigued me in their high level of commitment to their own consciousness. Life came through Georgia and Marilyn, whose home I have an apartment in, as they talked with the nurses at AARP and fought to bring my climbing temperature down on a bleak snowy dark of night thwarted by an icy driveway. Life came through my children who keep me in the loop of how much they are glad I am here. Life came through my clients as I watched new threads of futures unfolding that I had never seen before. Life came through phrases like, “We are not going anywhere.” Wisdom from the people in the team, my allies in consciousness, my children, my clients. It was a magical time where, without realizing it, I had let go of life, but life had not let go of me.
As I approach my weekend where I go away to listen to the powers and forces that influence my existence here, something is so different. I am basically a hermit who listens to the ways of Creation and contributes that to those who cross my path. Since I have moved in with Georgia and Marilyn…since I have started the In Unity with Creation Institute….since my team…since my allies like Jozef and Heather…since the beginning of 2016 to right after my bout with that crippling flu…something has been happening.
A shift has occurred that I think will make the following years sharp in contrast to our recent past. I can feel heaven on earth. I can feel it coming out of the mulch of unworkability, the debris of division, the compost of confusion, and the manure of a dying need of human against human. I can hear heaven on earth in the words of my team, the members of the spirals, my allies, my children, my clients. I sometimes even hear it in the news and even in the voices of those who I would often oppose.
It is not happening through the people. It is happening in the people. There is a metamorphic, meta-dimensional, evolution going on. I have seen it in healings that elicit the unity of the spirit and the flesh…where people are in a metamorphosis at a biological level that is generating an awakening of spirit in the body. I am seeing stamina of faith in that which is not yet seen or seeable as businesses collapse, as systems fail. There are those who are listening… anticipating hearing the call of future and preparing for it. The so above, so below unity of heaven and earth regardless of race, color, or creed is rising in mythic proportions as those who truly experience a higher power are standing in allegiance with the one fundamental truth of what created us regardless of belief. That one fundamental truth is that every diverse expression of Creation deserves to be valued and given a place here.
I think I and others might have been in a time gap last year. I was. But now that the deeper roots of unifying realities are rising through the mulch, the compost, the debris, the division. I am picking up on the new threads of new beginnings. Work is becoming exciting at a whole new level…at 71…who’d thought! The team has increasingly trusted their direct link with Creation and moved me to tears as I watch the light of creation express through them. My children…ahhhh, my children…I just love my children and part of my 10 year plan that now will end when I am 81 not 80, is to stick around to see them continue to unfold.
Jackie Cowen, my precious 34 year old right hand woman, who globbed onto me with such devotion and such conviction, and built me back when I faltered, and stayed stubborn when I fell, is getting married June 7th to her new beloved Neil Murray. We are busy figuring out how to have her continue to work with me and build her new devotional path of conviction with him at the same time.
I realized today as I was writing this blog to complete my year how precious it is to operate in a reality of unity. How problems are about how to stay together and create more and greater opportujnities that are life generating and have us exist as whole. The structures of unity are the structures of love. No one really ever wants to say that. We are all about structures that help us survive, help us have the right jobs, the right clothes, the right religion…but as we move forward…we will discover the vulnerability, the transparency, the intimacy of the structures of love that are programmed into the DNA of this planet and her forms.
That is what I am setting in play for my next ten years. Structures of love that enhance the quality of life, the wholeness of body, the magic of being one with what created us in communities based in ‘we care’ across the globe in diverse, expressions of delight that are shared and valued.
Thank you for our time together and our years of service to life. I look forward to our metamorphic meta-dimensional evolution and all of the amazing discoveries that will exist there.
May 28, 2017