My End of Year

Here I am.

I am the one who created the templates that are behind the Creation Exercises that I have taught people to write and use for over 20 years.

December 16, 2016: I did something called run the templates. This means that I did all seven craving exercises in a row.

Even after all these years it amazes me how clear I get about what I am up do when I do these exercises.

The mind of a human being, including my own, is lost and often not able to see what we are up to using the system of thought we were born it.

Life often looks as if we are only trying to get done what we need to do each day and that we are not doing what we want to be doing. The unfolding into manifestation is why the templates for the Creation Exercises were written and why my life is the manifestation of what I crave my life to be.

That said, it does not change that I have not done the exercises since April of this year and I have definitely been lost in ‘I can’t see the forest for the trees’

Finally, at the end of my tether, I sat down and wrote seven cravings, the first part of doing the Creation Exercises.

By the time I had run all seven cravings, it was clear to me what I was attempting to do was behind what I was already doing and that what I craved happening lurked behind my every frustration and my every upset.

What was I trying to do? I was trying to shift from using my all my time for doing courses, consults, and running a business into having time to be a full time author. Not making the time happen, but filling that time with authoring.

Since writing those 7 cravings, I have been in the actually of my life being everything but the life of an author.

Silly me, of course. After twenty years of teaching the Language of Creation, you would think I would remember that in doing the cravings, you open up dammed up energy and it begins to flow. And…in that flow you get to experience what is in the way of where you have directed your craving to go. And I had done seven of them!

You then do the observings so you can see, regardless of the challenges and stops and starts, that you are headed toward the manifestation of what you crave.

Since I wrote those cravings, I have been hyper vigilant getting everything that had our business not work right get handled. I became more and more exhausted, challenged, and overwhelmed. My mind couldn’t organize thoughts to even get clear about what needed to be handled in a day. I had lists I went through every day to make sure I didn’t drop anything out. I knew something was not normal for me, because I usually clip along at a pretty good pace seamlessly. Never did it occur to me to go back and finish the Creation Exercises.

Finally, on December 30th, we had an end of the year meeting, and everything that needed to be done was organized and there was nothing left for me to do. I felt that I could finally relax and rest. The only problem was I couldn’t relax and I couldn’t rest.

I got my hair cut. I took Lily, my dog for a walk in our spectacular secret walking place near Empire Mine, a tourist site where I live. Still wound tight, I came home and sat outside on my patio.

In my deep relationship with Creation, I asked for help. Two rays of light happened simultaneously. One ray lite up a ragged bowl of wood at the top of a tree stump in front of me. The other ray was so defined you could see it shining into the bare leafless sapling asleep for the winter.

Even in this constant magic, I found I was still wasted and still didn’t know how to get unwasted.

I laid down to take a nap and after tossing for a half hour got up to watch TV.

As I walked into the TV room, I thought, “I should do the observings on those seven cravings.”

I put on the headset. I sat down in the lounger and pushed the electric switch to let my legs up so Lily could crawl under. I turned on National Geographic’s show on Drain the Oceans and opened my laptop to begin.

I went to my first craving exercise.  I began to write an observing. In doing the Creation exercises, you write a craving using a specific meta-science template and after a few days you write an observing using another specific meta-science template.

I wrote the cravings on being an author and what that would look like for me when being an author manifested.

As I wrote the first observing on the first craving, I discovered that underneath everything I had been feeling, I was sad.

As I wrote the second observing on the second craving, I became aware that, without my realizing it, some progress had actually been made towards my being a full time author.

As I wrote the third observing, I suddenly realized that the intensity that I had been under, that had me push for everything to get solid in the business, was clearly connected to creating time to get down to the business writing.

By 7:30 pm, after completing four observings, I realized that I could finally lie down and rest. I went to bed and went to sleep instantly.

In the early morning, not quite awake, I lay thinking.

I had had a urinary track infection that I have not been able to get rid of for quite a few weeks. As I lay in a semi restful state, I began to think about how eating right had been so challenging lately. I was thinking about how my need for sugar had increased. The meaning began to form around what was going on with my infection. I realized the craving for sugar and the yeast infection were part of the same thing. A hall in my mind suddenly broke and what to do came to the surface was how to relate to what was happening. What was next became obvious.

Then, like a first time student of The Creation Institute, I realized that working my neural pathways had produced two very startling results.

One was instant rest and relaxation. I was amazed this morning at how rested I felt after three or four weeks of feeling so stressed.

The other was the end of an upset over how long the infection has lingered. I felt clear sighted and had a directive of what needed to happen so the infection would go away.

There is a resonance that happens after doing the Creation Exercises. I could feel it so strong – so powerful. I felt like a newbie to the Creation Exercises who realizes that something very significant has happened.

It was without question that it was completely the result of having done the Creation exercises the night before.

What was also apparent was what had been stressing me out no longer occurred as an obstacle and life felt headed toward multiple solutions.

In a humorous moment, I realized that it would be fun to get up, take Lily for a walk, and come back and turn 850 words into 500 words for a blog. Everything had changed.

Since I wrote this blog, the blog completely disappeared because my word program crashed and I had to rewrite it again.

It is just past noon and I am not stressed at having to rewrite it. My stress is gone. Life has organized again.

It is the last day of the year. Lily and I are going to drive twenty miles away and walk the Auburn confluence…one of my favorite places to walk.

And, this blog is definitely more than 500 words. 1,348 words to be exact.

Happy New Year!

 

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